Walang Forever Collection of Stories

FAILURE (Future Educator's Side Story)

  We grabbed a taxi to go home after the incident a while ago. My mom told me to get a nap. I leaned on her lap and I saw tears dwelling on her eyes. I closed my eyes while hearing her sobs. I felt that the taxi stopped. I straighten up and went out from the car. My brother opened the house. After we went inside, he went to his room, same goes with my mom while stayed outside her room. I can hear her pain with the silence of the night. This would be the saddest seventh birthday for a child could have.
Back to present, I'm here at the McDonald's while staring the ideal man for me. I know how much I take him for granted. He knows that who will be my first boyfriend will also be my future husband but I'm afraid of marriage. That during our marriage he will leave me just like my dad did to my mom. That he made us hope that he will return after he will buy us water. He made us wait an hour along the street, feeling the intense coldness of the night in Baguio City. But he didn't comeback until now.

"I'm tired understanding you." He said after he finished eating.

"I thought I'll be contented when I'm the only one making moves like sending you cheesy SMS without you replying. I'm the only one calling you almost everyday that you just did for three times in our one year relationship! I'm also human who needs your time and affection but I'm tired begging for it. You're super far. I know I'm not your priority because your studying hard just like me who's vying to be a suma cumlaude graduate. But is it hard to text or call me if I'm doing fine? You said you don't have load to contact me but for Pete's sake! There's a messenger app to chat me! Am I not important to you? Oh, I remember, you said that I'm important to you but I didn't feel it. So, I'll stop bothering you but it doesn't mean you're going to do the same, after all , I'm still your friend . At least, ask me sometimes if I'm still alive and DON'T FORGET TO INVITE ME ON YOUR GRADUATION. I'm breaking-up with you."

He stares at me for a moment. I know he's expecting me to say something but I remained silent.

"You're not even asking me to stay. Wow! Is it too much to ask?"
He stood.
"I guess history really repeats itself just like in high school when I had to get over my feelings from Mikaela. This is not GOODBYE, thus, see you when I see you. DAISUKE DAYO ANATA AISHITERU."

Then he walked out.

"I love you but this will just go to nothing." I whispered.

I started to cry because it's painful but I can bear it. I will be okay even though I miss him already. He's important and I can do what he's asking. I thought I'm not going to fall in love with him that's why I keep my distance from him and treated him that way. I'm an idiot. I just wanted to save myself from a FAILURE MARRIAGE.