His Possession

Chapter 8

The entire morning and afternoon I was stuck at home helping my sister out with her company work. I cooked lasagna for lunch just so that she wouldn't have to scream at me any more. I could see the disappointment in her eyes and it really hurt to see that I disappointed her. I could be a complete cocky bitch with everyone else but my sister and my mother. Even with James and dad. We had this special bond we developed it when mom, dad and James had left me with her for 4 years. Yes, I was left without my parents for 4 years. They said they had some business thing to attend and that they would be back in a few weeks, I was 10. They weren't even there to see the change from a young immature person to a young beautiful woman. I give all the credit to her for this miracle.

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Flashback

I was in 5th grade when mom, dad and James had to go somewhere for a business trip for a few months they left me with aunt Georgia, uncle Albert and their 2 children Emma and Kayhan. Emma was 20 and Kayhan was 15. They always took good care of me. I started going to school in Canada in the same one which Kayhan went to. I was never a straight-A student like my other siblings. Kayhan was also like me. We were the 2 trouble makers at school. Aunt Georgia never raised her hand on us she just asked Emma to handle us we both respected her more than anyone ever. We would feel extremely guilty when we would let her down.

One day in school I was bullied by a boy in Kayhan's grade, Robert. He wanted my food but I refused to give it to him. (I've always been a rebel unless it came to Emma's instructions) He tried snatching the packet of chips from my hand but I held onto it, he pushed me onto the floor, took the packet and walked away. I didn't tell anyone about this incident. The next day the same thing happened it continued to happen for a couple of weeks. After that, it wasn't only taking my food he also started calling me names and kept taunting me that because I didn't live with my parents. He kept making me feel shit about myself.

He wasn't the only one who taunted me his entire group started taunting me. Then slowly the number on his side increased and on my side kept decreasing. It became so bad that I was left with no friends. I had no one to turn to. All of a sudden I started receiving horrible texts on my phone.

Robert had already made everyone in his grade hate me. I'm surprised how Kayhan doesn't know about this yet. They all made an Instagram meme page on me. They posted weird pictures of me on it.

This went on for 6 months before I started giving up. I started hating myself. I started getting anxiety attacks. I became anorexic. I got social anxiety. I couldn't take it anymore I became suicidal. I cut thrice and failed all three times. I could feel the blade cut my skin but I didn't feel any pain only saw blood it was like I was a living corpse. I couldn't handle the way I looked at myself any more like a fat ugly piece of shit. Waking up every morning only to hear abuses by them! I decided to stop and block out all the pain by ending everything.

I started cutting a lot. It was like I was praying to God to kill me but it didn't work. I was dying. I stopped going out unless it was school or the grocery store with Emma. My life was literally crumbling in front of me, my grades started dipping, I became this quiet girl who couldn't stand up in class and answer questions or even present in class. I was always the centre of gossip because Robert and his gang would do something or the other to humiliate me in front of the entire cafeteria.

I was so close to succeeding in killing myself when Emma knocked on the bathroom door to ask if everything was fine. I had to immediately badge the UK to open wound and pretend as if nothing was wrong.

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The next when he was blackmailing me with some pictures of mine Emma read our chats and was so upset that I didn't tell her what was going on with Me. She realised that there was something else also off. Then it hit her that I started wearing a lot of long-sleeved clothes. She rolled up my sleeves and saw cuts along my wrists she was soo upset she didn't know what to do whether to scream or console me.

She sat me down and explained to me that killing myself was not the solution to anything. "Think about your parents, James, Kayhan and most importantly me!" in middle of tears I managed to say, "My parents and James don't even think about me. If they did they wouldn't leave me alone here. It's not like I don't like it here it's just I miss them a lot but they don't care. And I'm afraid of losing you cause I always lose the people I love the most. I lost my best friends when I came here. I literally got bullied for 6 months here and no one was there for me."I practically screamed. "First of all you are not allowed to raise your voice in front of me and you know that! Second, we are not going anywhere just open up to us. Don't worry we'll always be there for you. I knew there was something wrong but I didn't know it was so bad. I'm sorry for not seeing it earlier." I just broke into tears, she pulled me into a tight hug and she calmed me down. When she put me to sleep I asked her if I could sleep with her she nodded and said," I'll shower and come I'll sleep in your room tonight ok?" I nodded and she left the room. She returned in a few minutes. I couldn't stop crying I don't remember when I fell asleep but I remember crying myself to sleep.