Sunken (a magcon fanfiction)

Chapter 11 (lol wrote this a week ago)

"Yeah but Luke's hair is higher then my self esteem" I said. We were sitting outside at the pool eating lunch.
"Yeah but Mikey's is green and spikey. You can't beat that" Drew said. This is how Friday afternoons are supposed to work. This is the life. Kaley and Nash were vining in the pool and cam was running around probably messing up their vines. Drew and I were laying there eating talking about who had the better hair of 5sos. Dress rehearsal went ok last night I guess. I tried not to come in contact with Bart, staying as far away as possible. I mean it was ok.
"Can we just take a moment to recognize ash though" she said breaking me out of my troubled thoughts.
"And cal's they all have perfect hair. I mean really"
"You're so lucky to-"
"CANNONBALL" cam screamed splashing us with water.
"You will pay Dallas" I said jumping into the pool next to him.
"Will I now" he said
"Oh yes you will" I said sticking my tongue out at him.
"Guys mom says you have to come in to get ready for Magcon" Casper said from the balcony.
"Ugh can we not" I said getting out of the pool soaking wet.
"Come on. It's for the fans not Bart. He doesn't deserve to have you anyways."Nash said getting out next to me and wrapping his arms around me reassuringly.
"Thanks" I said.
"Now you have to tell us what you're singing" he said.
"Can't sorry. Classified information. You'll just have to wait" I said grabbing my towel and limping back inside.
"Cas why didn't you come in? This is the first time it's been sunny for two days" I called up to my cousin who was watching us from the top of the stairs.
"I dunno" he said. I nodded and waked up the stairs into Drew's room. I grabbed a pair of American flag shorts and a mean girls 'You Can't Sit With Us' crop top. I locked myself in the bathroom sliding off my wet bikini and sunglasses and put in my clothes along with a set of bracelets and a necklace. I unlocked the door and threw all my stuff in my suitcase. I put on my Greg vans and waited for Kaley and Drew to be ready. I grabbed my phone and stepped into the hall to wait with Casper.
"You're driving us?"
"Yup" he said.
"Awesome" I said.
"Did you say bye to Ryan before he left"
"Yeah." Today Ryan was flying home. Well tonight I guess. As soon as I had gotten him I had lost him again.
"Ok are we ready?" Casper said as the boys came out talking about something and the girls came out laughing.
"Yep" we all nodded. I grabbed my crutches as we all made our way out to the car. I got in the front since no one else would. I grabbed my phone and went on twitter.
@saylorfitch:
Who's excited for Magcon?
"Love this song" Casper said turning up the radio. I glanced up and smiled at the song then looking back down scrolling through Instagram and Vine. I put my phone down and looked out the window until I was distracted by Drew squeal.
"Go on twitter saylor" she said. I obeyed and looked through my feed.
"What" I said.
"Look at Luke's tweet" she said. I clicked on his profile and his most recent tweet.
"airports always amuse me" I read out loud. Nothing seemed extraordinary about that.
"He's at an airport. And we're going to the airport later.
"Drew there are like billions of airports around the world. He could be at any one of those" I said looking at her in the mirror.
"You'll see later I guess" she said.
"What's that supposed to mean"
"You'll see"
"See what" I said.
"Can't tell" she said.
"Ugh I hate the human race" I said as Casper pulled into the venue. We all got out and I grabbed my crutches.
"Thanks for the ride Cas" I said shutting the door. He shrugged and then they were gone.
"Ok." Cam said.
"Let's go" Nash said guiding us in the building.
"He seemed distracted today" I said as we walked into the huge event center.
"Yeah he did" cam said. The rest of the day speed by pretty fast. And then it was my turn to sing. I was standing to the side of the stage while Jack and Jack finished. I was pretty nervous. Gotta admit it.
"Now please give it up for our little star on the rise. The next big thing. Saylor Fitch" Mahogany said the crowd erupting.
"Saylor will be singing for all you guys today so no hate because she's great. That just rhymed so it must be true" Kaley said. The girls screamed again. I smiled looking down. I was sitting on a stool in front of my mic ready to sing my lungs out. My heart pounded in my chest so loud everyone must have heard. The crowd went quiet when I leaned forward to talk into the mic.
"Hi guys. So this is my first time like singing for you guys on stage. Yeah so I'll be singing The Scientist by Coldplay. Hope you like it" I said biting my lip. I glanced over at mahogany to start the music. I let the smooth beat into my head and began to sing closing my eyes.
" coмe υp тo мeeт yoυ
тell yoυ ι'м ѕorry
yoυ don'т ĸnow нow lovely yoυ are
ι нad тo ғιnd yoυ
тell yoυ ι need yoυ
тell yoυ ι ѕeт yoυ aparт
тell мe yoυr ѕecreтѕ
and aѕĸ мe yoυr qυeѕтιonѕ
oн leтѕ go вacĸ тo тнe ѕтarт
rυnnιng ιn cιrcleѕ
coмιng υp тaιlѕ
нeadѕ on a ѕιlence aparт
noвody ѕaιd ιт waѕ eaѕy
ιтѕ ѕυcн a ѕнaмe ғor υѕ тo parт
noвody ѕaιd ιт waѕ eaѕy
no one ever ѕaιd ιт woυld вe тнιѕ нard
oн тaĸe мe вacĸ тo тнe ѕтarт" I let the tear fall down my cheek staring out at the faces in the audience.
"ι waѕ jυѕт gυeѕѕιng
aт nυмвerѕ and ғιgυreѕ
pυllιng yoυr pυzzleѕ aparт
qυeѕтιonѕ oғ ѕcιence
ѕcιence and progreѕѕ
do noт ѕpeaĸ aѕ loυd aѕ мy нearт
тell мe yoυ love мe
coмe вacĸ and нaυnт мe
oн and ι rυѕн тo тнe ѕтarт
rυnnιng ιn cιrcleѕ
cнaѕιng oυr тaιlѕ
coмιng вacĸ aѕ we are
noвody ѕaιd ιт waѕ eaѕy
oн ιтѕ ѕυcн a ѕнaмe ғor υѕ тo parт
noвody ѕaιd ιт waѕ eaѕy
no one ever ѕaιd ιт woυld вe ѕo нard
ι'м goιng вacĸ тo тнe ѕтart" the rest of the music played as the tears wet my cheeks. I was quiet so nobody heard me. When I looked out at those girls who also had tears streaming down their faces. All I could see when I closed me eyes was my sister. My sister who was gone. I wiped my checks and smiled at the girls.
"Wow thanks saylor. Give it up guys" Nash said putting his hand on my lower back. I looked up. His eyes were wet too.
"Uhm thanks guys. I guess that was about Skylar. She was so thankful for each and everyone of you. She'd be so happy to see that you guys came all this way to support us. So uhm y-yeah thanks" I said choking up. I turned around and grabbed my crutches from Hayes. My breathing became heavy and my throat was forming a lump. The tears blurred my vision as I hopped down the steps to the stage back behind the curtain. Shawn was singing so I dropped my crutches and slid down the wall behind me. I let myself collapse into my knees.
"Hey" a voice said above me. My head shot up to see the one and only Ryder Lynn.
"Ryder you can't be back here" I said.
"Yeah I know" he said sitting down next to me. I wiped my tears and looked over at him.
"Why do you try so hard" I said staring at his grey eyes.
"With what" he said softly.
"With liking me. With constantly finding me. With actually being my friend." I said squinting at him.
"Oh honey I'm not trying hard. It's natural. You're so easily like able. Plus the way we run into each other all the time. I mean I don't know how to explain that. We're just fate" he said showing off his dimples. I laughed and rested my head on his shoulder. It'd only been a short week and we were already best friends.
"Hey you should get back out there" I said putting his hand on my knee.
"Oh yeah. Hey will you hand me that water over there" I said wiping my eyes and checking my face in the front camera of my phone. I snapped off my phone and stood up on my good leg. Ugh I'm so sick of this.
"Why" he said giving it to me
"Because if I go out there without anything the fans will notice and get suspicious." I said opening it and drinking some.
"Ah I see" he said handing me my crutches.
"Hey Ryder" I said as he started to walk away.
"You and I. This won't be the end of us even though we're going separate ways" I gave him a small smile.
"Ok" he said then turned around and walked back towards the crowd. I bit my lip and shook my head I hopped back towards the stage and sat down on the edge sipping my water.
"Where'd you go" cam said sitting next to me.
"Water break" I said glancing at him then back out towards the girls.
"Oh" he said putting his arm around me and swaying to the song. I laughed and swayed back. If it wasn't for these boys I don't know where I'd be today.
"Hey Cam?"
"Yeah Say" he said stopping his swaying and looking at me.
"Thank you" I said.
"For what"
"For always being there for me" I said biting my lip.
"Anything for my Say Bæ" he said smiling like the total and complete idiot he is. Willie went next and I stood up to go get something to eat.
"You going to get food" cam said looking up at me.
"Mhm" I said grabbing my crutches.
"I'll come too. I'm pretty hungry" he said getting up. I groaned putting my crutches under my arm.
"I'll carry you" he said bending down for me to get on his back.
"Thanks Camyo" I said. We carried me piggyback style backstage were there was pizza. Cam let me down so I could grab a piece.
"Excuse me. You're not aloud back here Saylor. You're not a guest of magcon anymore" Bart said behind me.
"Ok would you like me to leave" I said standing up straight and grilling my eyes into his.
"Yes I would" he nodded.
"Fine. I'll just be leaving now. I won't be coming back. Thanks for an amazing week when it lasted" I said narrowing my eyes. I limped back out towards my crutches. I grabbed them and slid my phone in my pocket. I started to hop away when some fans screamed at me.
"SAYLOR WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" One yelled. Shit. The song that mahogany was playing shut off abruptly. I swallowed hard as cam came running after me with a mic.
"What's going on" another said. Cam handed me the mic and looked at me sincerely.
"Look guys. I'm really sorry. Some people here don't want me around so I'm gonna head home. My brothers flight leaves tonight at 11. If I hurry I can still catch it. I'm so sorry I've let you down. If any of you ever need to talk or anything, you know where to find me. Enjoy the rest of your time at Magcon" I said and handed the mic back to cam. He looked at me biting his lip. I grabbed his hand and gave it a squeeze before hurrying out of the room. I heard the room erupt with boos and sad faces. I headed outside and grabbed my phone to call Casper. I felt arms wrap around me. I turned around to face Ryder standing there with a half smile.
"Oh Ry" I said wrapping my arms around him and nestling my head into his neck.
"Saylor?" He said after a few minutes of holding each other.
"Yeah Ry?"
"You promise to text me when you land." He said pulling back to look at me in the eyes.
"Of course. You're not going to try and keep me around?"
"No. You know what's right for you. I know you'll be safe with your brother so I'm fine." He said.
"I really love you Ryder. Don't ever forget that" I said chewing on my lip.
"I love you too saylor. I promise we'll see each other soon" he said.
"I have to call Casper" I said.
"Sure" he said. I put my hand on the back of his neck and then stepped away clicking my cousins contact.
"Hello?" He said surprised.
"Casper will you tell Drew to pack up my stuff?"
"Sure. Why what's going on"
"I'm not welcome here anymore. I'm gonna get the next flight home with Ryan"
"We'll get you're ticket and your stuff" Casper said reassuringly.
"Thanks Cas. Just thanks"
"Of course. Be there soon" he said and hung up. The endless rain had returned again.
"Here" Ryder said handing me his
Magcon hoodie that he had bought.
"I'm so not giving this back" I said sitting on the curb. He sat down next to me wrapping his arm around my shoulders.
"That's ok" he said. I leaned my head on his shoulder.
"I'm gonna miss you a lot" I said.
"We'll see each other soon" he said kissing my head.
"I hope so" I said chewing on my lip. We sat there just staring until Casper's head lights cut through the rain. We both stood up and I hugged him tight.
"I love you Ryder. Text me ok?" "Of course. Text me when you land. Stay strong and beautiful saylor" he said. I kissed his cheek and then got in the back of Casper's car. Actually it was the SUV. Everyone was packed in minus Miley who like every good girl should be in bed. I climbed in next to Drew and closed the door. I watched Ryder's face out the window as we pulled out of the parking lot.
"You'll see him again" Drew whispered in my ear. I nodded wiping away the tear and turned towards my family.
"Saylor you ok? What happened?" Casper said looking at me.
"I'm no longer a guest at magcon and I'm not aloud back" I said straight forwardly.
"That bastard. I mean he said you were aloud back" my aunt said from the front seat.
"Mom language!" Casper said. I laughed and looked down at my vans and the rest of my soaking wet body. We were driving to the airport. I'd just change there.
"I'm sorry" she said.
"Here's your ticket" Ryan said handing me the price of paper. He looked depressed, as usual.
"Thanks Ry" I said taking it. Direct flight to LAX. That's about 8 hours on the plane. 7 AM great.
"You're backpack and bag are in the back" Drew said.
"Thanks" I said.
"I'm sorry about all the crap you've been through in the last few days. Things will get better" my aunt said looking back at me as my uncle pulled into the parking lot of the airport.
"Thanks for everything. Tell Riley I'm sorry I couldn't visit her at all" I said.
"Sure. She understands" Aunt Kiki said getting out to help as with our stuff.
"Thank you for everything you've done for us" I said hugging her. Then I hugged my cousins and grabbed my suitcase and backpack. We decided to leave my wheelchair with Aunt Kiki to take back to the hospital because I didn't need it. Ryan grabbed my crutches and we hugged everyone one more time then walked off towards the airport. I didn't dare ask about wren so it was kinda awkward going through security, baggage check, and changing into galaxy leggings, a tee and my black uggs. We put my crutches on the plane so I didn't have to deal with it. Now I sat cuddled up in Ryan's arms in the terminal. I loved my brother.
"Ryan?" I said looking up at his sad face.
"Yeah?" He said looking at me.
"Wrens gonna be ok. I promise. Don't get to into the hold I've dug myself into. Have Hope for wren. Have hope in god." I said. He smiled slightly and kissed my forehead. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through twitter. Nothing new. I mean it was 10:30 at night and everything but... I shut off my phone and slipped it in my backpack.
"Let's go get food" I said standing up and stretching my back. I looked around. In the corner there were 4 boys sitting with hoods and hats and sunglasses. One of them in was staring right at me. We were all the way on the other side of the gate so I couldn't see him directly.
"Stop starring Saylor" Ryan whispered above me pulling me to a pizza shop. There was a vibe I was getting from those guys that I couldn't put my finger on.
"Hi can we get 2 small personal cheese pizzas with large drinks please" Ryan said snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Sure" the guy said.
"Thanks" Ryan said. I looked back at the four boys. They sat there. That one still staring at me. It was kind of giving me the creeps.
"Here ya go" the guy said handing Ryan a bag and two large cups. I grabbed my cup and filled it up with coke and Pepsi. Both. Yes I know. I'm weird stop judging me. Judging got no one anywhere ever. I'm sticking out my tongue out at you right now. I popped on the lip and followed Ryan out to our gate. He handed me my pizza. I put my drink on the seat next to me and opened the pizza.
"Pizza gives me the feels" I said biting into the cheesy piece of heaven. Wait don't tell me heaven is a place on earth. Sorry. Sorry.
"I got that on vine" Ryan laughed looking over it. I rolled my eyes and continued exchanging love with my pizza.
"Flight 197 now boarding first class" the woman said.
"That's us" Ryan said throwing away our trash and standing up. I slung my backpack over my shoulder and grabbed my ticket.
"Hey are you Saylor Fitch?" The flight attendant said.
"Uh yeah why" I said confused.
"The pilot wants to see you" she Said.
"Can my brother come" I said.
"Of course" she said smiling at me reassuringly.
"Ok" I squeaked.
"Follow me" she said. We followed her down the tube. I hope you know what I'm talking about. The thing that attaches the plane to the airport. Maybe that's the terminal. Oh whatever it's like 11:00 and I haven't slept in a few days. Let's call it the tube. We entered the plane and she knocked on the pilots cabin. The co pilot answered and let us in. The pilot turned around to face me smiling.
"Hi Saylor, I'm James Halley and this is my co pilot Dan Turner"
"Hi." I said chewing on my lip.
"I know you're wondering why you're here so let me explain. We've seen your video where you were singing on the flight to DC?"
"Yeah" I was still confused.
"Ok well we're running a little late. As in half an hour late"
"Oh wow" I said frowning slightly.
"So we've also seen the video of your magcon experience. My daughters a big fan FYI" he said.
"Ah thanks" I blushed.
"We were wondering if you pucks tell your story and maybe sing a song to keep people from getting angry?"
"Sure" I had no regrets anymore.
"Really?"
"Sure of course. I'd love to" I said.
"Awesome. Sarah we can start boarding again" he said to the flight attendant. She nodded and walked away. We shoot hands with the pilot and found our seats that we at the front of the plane. Of course. Seriously it's so bizarre. We always have the first seats on the plane. I scrolled through my phone looking for songs to sing.
"Saylor?" Sarah the flight attendant said. I smiled up at her.
"Sorry to bother you. Uhm we're ready for you" she said. I looked back, the plane was all boarded. Wow how did I miss all that. My heart lurched and I stood up.
"Excuse me folks. Unfortunately we're looking at about a 30 minute delay. But to ease the time along we have a very special speaker for you" she said. Heads started to perk up when she said that. She handed me the speaker thing. Again 11 AM thinking.
"Hi" I said awkwardly. People were muttering about me amongst their self. I swallowed and spoke again.
"I'm Saylor Fitch. You probably don't know me but I'm kind of famous on the internet? The pilot asked me to pass time for this so here I am telling you about my problems" I said. There were a few chuckles and I felt a little better. I guess.
"I guess my 'career' started when I was 10. My dad was a fire fighter and he tragically passed away in the fire. I won't go into the details. My twin sister and I grew exclusively closer I guess you could say. I mean at 10 years old you're old enough to remember it vividly. It haunts me every day. My oldest brother had to take the wheel for my mom who was busy with work and my 3 year old brother, Toby. Anyways. Skylar and I needed something to get our minds off of everything so we started making these 6 second videos on an app called vine. As the year progressed we began to grow with vine and YouTube. I mean at the age of 11 it felt great to be potentially famous on line. The day after Skylar and I's 12th birthday, Skylar took her life. I'll just tell you it's been the hardest month or so of my life. Since that day walking in on her dead body" I paused and flicked away the tear that was threatening to spill.
"I had to explain to my sisters millions of fans what had happened. That was the hardest thing I've probably ever done." I stopped and glanced up at the passengers. People looked interested.
"Thank god for Ryan that took charge and told Toby about what had happened. I was diagnosed with bipolar depression. I must have some kind of weird connection to you guys because even my fans don't know that. I haven't told anyone about my depression. You're special people. The day before the funeral my mom said that I was invited to be a guest of the 2014 Magcon tour. Magcon is uh pretty much a group of viners that travels around and performs for fans. I mean I don't know why people would pay to see this. We're a bunch of socially awkward kids talking about our personal problems to virtually a screen. My mom told me that I was gonna go on this tour. I had no choice at all. She gave me no choice" I smirked, my gaze continuing to stare at the ground.
"magcon went great. The boys were great. I mean these boys are my best friends. When we flew to DC we were involved in the shooting at the hotel. That was my brother who got shot in the arm. Everyone was affected by that. The director and founder of Magcon, who I will remain nameless, was not in the hotel when the shooting occurred. My aunt who lives in DC decided with my mom that it would be best if she took Ryan and I back to stay at her house. I guess that was the first thing that really set Him off. I mean it was what had to be down for the safety of my family. Not everything was about his business. This was for my brother who had been shot with a gun. That's impacting on a kids life. On anyone's life for that matter. Uhm we stayed at my aunts house but I had to be at this photo shoot for the tour. At the photo shoot he was asking me to do different dangerous things. For example there was a brick wall that was pretty shady. It looked like if you touched it, it would crash to pieces. I didn't feel safe walking on that and neither did the photographer. Uhm, I really didn't want to out myself at risk especially since I had a preexisting injury on my knee. He just couldn't be pleased. Everything we did or at least everything I did was never good enough for him. He was treating the staff at this shoot like crap. Something had to be done about it and I guess since I was pretty mad at him anyways, I had it all in me ready to explode. I took charge and stood up to him. That of course didn't please him and now I've got myself kicked out of magcon. Yay great job saylor I know you're all applauding me." I'm so awkward. I can't speak like a normal person can I?
"What're your goals for the future" a guy called out.
"Well I'm focussing on expanding my YouTube channel for now since I can potentially get a living out of that. I'm praying and hoping for bigger opportunities for now though" I said nodding.
"I'm thinking of trying to focus more on putting the phone down and actually getting outside and making differences on peoples lives. I want to try and have the chance to change and save somebody's life. I feel like I owe it to the universe I guess. That leads me to my next point. How about we all try putting down our technology and focus on our family's and loved ones. They can be gone before you can try and save them. I'd like to sing you a song. They're names are 5 Seconds of Summer and they've changed my life. The songs called disconnected. Here goes nothing" I said handing my phone to Sarah. She plugged it into the audio and turned it on. I closed my eyes and let the beat take me away.
"oнннн oн oн
lιғe'ѕ a тangled weв
oғ cellpнone callѕ and нaѕнтag ι don'т ĸnowѕ
and yoυ, yoυ're ѕo caυgнт υp
ιn тнe вlιnĸιng lights and dιal тoneѕ. ι adмιт ι'м a вιт oғ a vιcтιм ιn тнe world wιde ѕyѕтeм тoo вυт ι've ғoυnd мy ѕweeт eѕcape wнen ι'м alone wιтн yoυ
тυne oυт тнe ѕтaтιc ѕoυnd oғ тнe cιтy тнaт never ѕleepѕ нere ιn тнe мoмenт on тнe darĸ ѕιde oғ тнe ѕcreen
ι lιĸe тнe ѕυммer raιn
ι lιĸe тнe ѕoυndѕ yoυ мaĸe
we pυт тнe world away
we geт ѕo dιѕconnecтed
yoυ are мy geт away
yoυ are мy ғavorιтe place
we pυт тнe world away
yeaн we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
oнннн oн oн
we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
oнннн oн oн
нandѕ aroυnd мy waιѕт
yoυr coυnтιng υp тнe нιllѕ acroѕѕ тнe ѕнeeтѕ and ι'м a ғallιng ѕтar a glιммer lιgнтιng υp тнeѕe coттon ѕтreeтѕ ι adмιт ι'м a вιт oғ a ғool ғor playιng вy тнe rυleѕ вυт ι've ғoυnd мy ѕweeт eѕcape wнen ι'м alone wιтн yoυ
тυne oυт тнe ѕтaтιc ѕoυnd oғ тнe cιтy тнaт never ѕleepѕ нere ιn тнe мoмenт on тнe darĸ ѕιde oғ тнe ѕcreen
ι lιĸe тнe ѕυммer raιn
ι lιĸe тнe ѕoυndѕ yoυ мaĸe
we pυт тнe world away
we geт ѕo dιѕconnecтed
yoυ are мy geтaway
yoυ are мy ғavorιтe place
we pυт тнe world away
yeaн we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
тυrn oғғ тнe radιo
тнoѕe laтe nιgнт тv ѕнowѕ
нang υp тнe тelepнone
and jυѕт вe нere wιтн мe
ι lιĸe тнe ѕυммer raιn
ι lιĸe тнe ѕoυndѕ yoυ мaĸe
we pυт тнe world away
we geт ѕo dιѕconnecтed
yoυ are мy geтaway
yoυ are мy ғavorιтe place
we pυт тнe world away
yeaн we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
ι lιĸe тнe ѕυммer raιn
ι lιĸe тнe ѕoυndѕ yoυ мaĸe
we pυт тнe world away
we geт ѕo dιѕconnecтed
yoυ are мy geтaway
yoυ are мy ғavorιтe place
we pυт тнe world away
yeaн we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
ooннн oн oн
we're ѕo dιѕconnecтed
ooннн oн oн" I looked back up at the crowd to see four heads pop up clapping. I dropped the speaker and my hands flew to my mouth. People began to stand up and start clapping also. That's not what I was happy about. I was happy about my blonde haired, blue eyed cousin running down the isle towards me. My cousin. My dad's, brother's, son. My favorite cousin by far... Luke Robert Hemmings. I jumped into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist. I know. How much more crazy can my life get. I was so happy at the moment. Nobody should ruin this for me.
"Oh my god! Luke what're you doing here!" I said as he let me down.
"Came for a surprise visit for a few weeks. We're writing in L.A. For the album so obviously I had to visit my favorite cousin in the universe" he said smiling.
"That probably brightened my whole year" I said hugging him again and then stepping to the side to hug the other boys who I had meet more then once. We usually go to Australia to visit my Dad's mom every year. (A/n all of this gets explained later hang with me)
"Hey Saylor" ash said hugging me.
"Oh my god it's so good to see you guys" I said hugging them all.
"We should go back to our seats boys" Luke said.
"Yeah they're about to start safety announcements" I said.
"Cold back to see us" Luke said squeezing my shoulder and then leading the boys back to they're seats. I stood there smiling like an idiot.
"Let's give it up one more time for Saylor who opened up her whole life to us"Sarah said.
"Thank you" I said sitting back in my seat next to Ryan who actually kinda looked happy for once.
"Did you know about that" I whispered to him.
"I was hoping you did" he said. We looked at each other and smiled before sitting back and listening to the safety stuff. I know you want answers. So I'll give you answers. My dad and Luke's dad are brothers. Pretty cool I know. My dad took my moms last name so, Fitch. I know you're probably thinking that the band I worship and talk about 24-7 is actually my family. How come I didn't tell you already? I haven't told anyone. Another secret that's like my depression. I'm not gonna tell anyone. Maybe that will change. I don't want to hold This secret back anymore. I can tell this one without people hating me. That's what I'll do. I'll make a video. Have a 5sos week where everyday I hang out with the boys and do videos. Yeah that's cool. I watched out the window at the city lights as we lifted off the ground.
"Somewhere down there were all my closest best friends. My family. I'm not their family anymore though. I'm out of Magcon because I had to open up my fat mouth and stand up for what I believe in. I missed them already. Ryan noticed my expression and squeezed my hand.
"They still love you" he said.
"I'm not part of it anymore. I'm just the viner girl now"
"Magcon didn't make you anymore special then you are without it" he said. I but my lip and leaned out into the isle. I caught Luke's eye and smiled. Best. surprise. ever.
"I still I can't believe that he's here" I said tucking my legs beneath me.
"I know. That was an awesome surprise" Ryan said smiling for the first time all day.
"Hey, wren will be ok. I promise"
"Yeah. I know he will" Ryan said. I watched out the window until the lights blinked for us to take off our seat belts. I tore mine off and limped down the isle to see Luke. Ash, Mikey and Calum were on the right and Luke was on the left with a small child and the kids mom. He looked miserable.
"Luke we have an open seat" I said kneeling down next to him.
"Thank god. I love you so much life saver" he said hugging me then jumping up to get his stuff. I laughed at turned towards the other boys.
"How long are you guys up" I said.
"2 weeks then we're in LA for a month" Ash said.
"Yay. You guys are staying with us right."
"Where else would we" Luke said.
"Yay! That means Netflix marathons every night. Actually I do that anyways. Never mind" I said.
"We'll figure out something" Cal said.
"saylor we should go sit down we're blocking" Luke said.
"Yeah. Ok see you guys when we land"
"Yeah. Hey great job singing too" Mikey said.
"Hmm you like that song?" I joked.
"Yeah I wish I could meet the kid who wrote it"
"Ok. We'll see you later" Luke said pushing me down the isle to our seats. I say down next to Ryan so Luke could have the isle. I pulled my laptop out of my bag along with my iPod 7th generation. If there was one good thing about doing online school it was you could do the whole week in one day. Or for me one night.
"What're you doin" he said as I logged into the school website.
"School. Might as well get it over with now right"
"What? I'll be so bored" he said pouting.
"I'm touched. But you'll be more bored this week if I have to do it everyday" I said.
"Fine" he said taking my iPod and picking a song. I put in my earbuds and adjusted Ryder's hat on my head. I started my many many many hours of school. I mean 10 hours of school. Every now and then I would pause to look at twitter or vine. Twitter was blowing up about me just leaving. Wondering if I was ok. Telling myself to kill myself. Ya know the usual.
@saylorfitch:
Hey guys I'm on the 10 hour flight. Home. I'm so sorry to the girls who wanted to meet me. I'll make it up to you. I have something I need to tell you when I get home
I posted and scrolled through the mentions.
@Mr_Carterr:
I miss my Saylor. Love you girl. Text me soon Bæ
To: @mr_carterr:
Ah miss you Cart! We'll hang soon. Come visit whenever you want. Love you bro
I scrolled through my other mentions from some the boys some from fans some from my grandparents... I turned off my phone and went back along with my school. Ryan was asleep and Luke was staring at his phone.
"Can I get you guys anything?" A flight attendant said stopping next to us.
"Can I get a Pepsi please" I said.
"I'm good thanks" Luke said.
"I'll be right back" she said. We nodded and looked back at my laptop. Almost done. Just another two hours to go. I was getting used to this sleep deprivation thing.
"Here's your Pepsi" the girl said handing me my cup.
"Thanks" I said taking it and putting it in the tray.
"I hate math" I muttered looking at the algebra I was supposed to be strangling
"Ew" Luke said looking over my shoulder.
"Yeah I know" I said clicking on the answer. I missed my Nash and Cam. I feel bad for running out on the fans like that but I had no choice.
"Saylor. Say" someone said shaking my arm.
"Huh?" I said jolting up in my seat.
"We're about to land" Luke said next to me. Wait when did Luke get here? I blinked and then the memories from the last night came flooding back.
"How long was I asleep"
"Like 10 minutes" Luke said brushing the loose hair out of my face.
"Did I finish this" I said glancing down at my laptop.
"Mmhmm" he said.
"Awesome" I sighed shutting off my laptop all the way and sliding it in my backpack with my phone. I get surprisingly good service in the sky. I kicked my backpack under the seat behind me and stretched.
"You tired" he said as I yawned and looked out the window where the sun was flooding in.
"Yeah. I haven't slept in like 3 days straight" I said.
"Ah. I bet you're happy to get home and sleep in your own bed huh" he said.
"Yeah. Oh my god yes. What about you Lukey? You jet lagged"
"I dunno. My sleep timers all messed up anyways" he shrugged. I smiled my crooked smile and leaned my head against my cousin. I didn't love Luke because he was famous. I loved Luke because he's always there for me. Since I was little. Always there for me. He was the one who taught me how to play the guitar. Thankfully Drew didn't forget that, and it was on the plane right now.
"Luke?"
"Yes my dear" he said looking down at me.
"I'm really glad you came. You actually made a bad situation 110% better. Perfect timing...and you have model legs" I said.
"Ah. I'm glad I came to see my Saylor bear too." He said kissing the top of my head.
"I can see how you guys are family" Sarah said taking my empty cup.
"How so" I said looking at her smiling.
"Well let's just go through the list here, same eyes, same smile, same gorgeous looks, same beautiful hair" she said. I looked up at Luke and shrugged. She laughed and walked back down the isle.
"Ooh I'm hungry" I said sitting up to look at Ryan who was still sleeping soundly.
"Me too" Luke said patting his tummy.
"Should we just leave him" I said.
"Yeah.." Luke trailed off. I chewed on my lip as we landed. I wasn't stressed I just chew on my lip. The flight attendants rattled off their usual blabber. I reached under my seat and grabbed my backpack. I shook Ryan to wake him up as the plane came to a stop. He stirred and stretched. We grabbed all of our stuff and stood up exiting the plane. I pulled out my phone and checked the time.
"7:50" I said rubbing my eyes. I only got 10 minutes of sleep. Really? Somebody needs to kill the human race right now.
"Let's wait for the boys" Luke said pulling me to the side. I leaned against the wall and groaned rubbing my knee. Why doe it hurt this bad. I guess they said that it would hurt at the end of the healing process.
"I'll carry you" Ryan said tucking my hat over my eyes.
"Thanks Ryan" I said hopping onto his back.
You can always tell when the boys are coming. Usually there's screaming or laughing or crying or just plain chaos. This time it was only laughing thank god.
"Oh yeah" Luke said putting on his hood and sun glasses.
"Hood me" I said trying to act swag like the guys. It was like one of those legit action movies where we all walked out like gangstas.
"Let's go get luggage" Ryan said.
"I want down" I said sliding down his back.
"Ok" Michael said.
"Oh. My. God" a familiar voice said. I looked up to meet those familiar brown eyes that bullied me through elementary school.
"Why if it isn't little miss Gigi" I said smirking at her. I've been through so much shit today her's wasn't going to bother me.
"I didn't know I was in Abercrombie and Bitch. I thought I was in the airport" she smirked.
"First of all, Kaley isn't even here so you can't use that one. Second of all uh Ryan did you happen to bring your Bitch Be Gone spray today? I forgot mine" I said turning towards Ryan.
"Oooooooh" Ryan said.
"Oh whatever at least I'm not fake" she said her bleach blonde dyed hair bouncing and her fake eyelashes batting.
"Oh girl you're the definition of fake. Tune in for my next vine. That ones for you" I said pushing past her to baggage claim.
"I've found a new goddess to worship. SLAY" ash said slinging his arm around my shoulder. Why did everyone have to be so tall.
"Yeah well she bullied me through school and now I'm done with all of her shit" I said.
"Saylor?" I heard my moms voice call.
"MOMMY" I said limping/hopping towards her.
"Oh my god sweetie! I thought you decided not to come home"she hugged me tightly.
"Well plans changed" I said hugging her back.
"Oh Ryan come here my baby" she said pulling away to pamper my brother.
"Sissy" Toby said running up to me.
"Toby" I said picking him and and swinging him around.
"Luke" he said as I let him down. He ran to Luke. Luke laughed and picked him up. Toby admired Luke and the rest of the guys.
"Luke! You've gotten so big" my mom said hugging him. Toby was now standing back at my leg.
"Go stand by ash" I said patting his back. He ran towards ash. The kid was defiantly a morning person.
"You guys have the same eyes and it's freaking me out" I said glancing from pair of eyes to pair of eyes. Ashton laughed and patted Toby's back.
"Ok let's get bags" my mom said leading our group towards the conveyor belts. After pacing around for a whole we all had our bags and we were in the SUV heading home. I watched out the window as the Los Angeles palm trees and people started to wake up. It was so good to be home. It took like 20 minutes to get home from LAX.
"Saylor did you sleep on the plane" she said.
"Nope. But Ryan slept like a dog"
"He's always been able to sleep in moving objects" my mom said pinching Ryan's cheek.
"Oh my vine" I said grabbing my phone from my backpack and turning it on.
"Ok don't tell me that I'm fake when you're face has been raped by a crayon. I mean jeez" I said talking to my phone. I posted the vine and then went back on twitter.
@kaleyabercrombie:
waaaaahhhhh 😭 I miss my best friend. @saylorfitch come back
I smiled and took a picture out the window at the ocean that had now come into view.
To @kaleyabercrombie:
Sorry we're already landed. I miss you too though. I'll say hi to the beach to you
I tweeted attaching the picture and sliding my phone into my bag.
"Home home home. Yes home" I said putting on my backpack and bolting to the house. I swung open the door and breathed in the smell of cookies. It always smelled like cookies. I spun around in the entry way. I love my house.
"You happy to be home" my mom said putting my suit case behind me.
"Yes. I'm so happy to be home" I said hugging her.
"Will you show the boys to their rooms" she said.
"Which ones. Where are they staying?" I said
"Wherever they want" my mom said. Luke knew our house well enough to choose.
"We'll be fine in the theater" he said behind us.
"Ok sure. Where ever you guys want"
"Awesome"
"Come on boys" I said skipping down the stairs to the bottom floor of the house that has the game room, band room, theater, and guest room.
"Whoa this is amazing" Calum said dropping his stuff.
"Ok just make your self comfortable wherever you want. I'll get blankets and pillows." I said walking into the guest room.
"I'll help" Luke said behind me. I opened the closet doors to get all the fluffy extra soft blankets.
"Here will you get those pillows" I said nodding towards the stack.
"Sure" he said. I stumbled back into the theater and dropped all the blankets on one of the chairs. Michael, Ash and Calum were stretched out across three of the four couches.
"Here ya go mates" Luke said throwing all of the pillows at the boys.
"Ok. Uhm Luke knows where everything is if you need anything just wake me up I guess if you need anything." I said.
"Goodnight Saylor" they all mumbled sleepily. I chuckled and then went upstairs. I grabbed my backpack since that had my life necessities in it. Aka my technology. I turned left down the hallway and opened the door to my room. Yas this is the place where I belong. I ran into my room and flopped on my bed. I dropped my backpack on the ground and cuddling myself into the huge comforter. And with that I was asleep.
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Can I just say it's 2:38 AM on Friday morning and in still awake writing. Sorry this is kinda short. I think I'm gonna, pause my brothers phone keeps beeping. Let me just throw it out the fricken window. Ok. Anyways. I'm gonna make my chapters shorter and update every day. I probably won't post this till later so forgive me. FOLLOW MY TWITTER @breakingsad_
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