Dear Diary,
I felt good this morning, better than I've felt all week.
My mom asked if I would go to the store while she was at work. I was scared of going alone.
I nodded and kissed her cheek. She called out 'I love you' before closing the door. I mumbled it back.
I spent the morning reading, I got bored and put on a movie.
I watched 'Bambi.' Deer are my favorite animal.
In the middle of the afternoon, I walked to the store on the corner, the snow had melted some. There were more people outside today.
I passed the art store, I didn't see Tyler.
I kept walking.
Inside the store a baby was screaming, my heart was pumping. I looked at the list my mom sent me of what we needed.
I couldn't find peach nectar, my hands were shaking.
I should have just asked an employee, I saw one, she looked nice.
I walked in the other direction.
I dropped my coins at checkout, I felt like crying. My face was burning.
The lady looked annoyed. I apologized a lot.
I walked back home replaying the moment in my head again, again.
Why can't I just be normal? I saw Tyler going into the art store.
I ducked my head and walked faster.
I heard him call my name.
When I got home, I texted my mom and said they didn't have peach nectar. I was exhausted.
I didn't sleep. I drew flowers. Large, beautiful flowers.
Goodnight
-River A.
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RomanceRiver Alistair suffers from anxiety and depression. Her mother gives her a journal over Christmas. River tries writing in it to overcome her demons and fight for herself. *Work in progress* -ALL IDEAS AND CHARACTERS ARE MY OWN- -No photos used are...
