Dear diary,
My mom had left for work before I woke up. She wrote a note. I didn't read it.
I finally opened Lilly's note, it was a phone number. She drew a heart on it.
Her handwriting reminded me of spring, it was pretty. I put the note on my desk.
I didn't text her, I was scared. I waited.
I hoped I would see her today, she was like stained glass.
School was even worse today, we had an assembly. Too many people. Too loud.
During the assembly I fidgeted and twitched, my heart was pumping blood at an almost deadly pace.
It made my brain hurt. It wasn't like I listened anyway.
I worked hard today, I finished most of my work.
I don't like my group for my project, they laugh too much, and whisper.
Today at lunch I ate half my sandwich. I felt proud.
Tyler winked at me, he still didn't sit with me.
Lilly did though. She talked about my sweater.
I talked back a little. She smiled really big. She left earlier than I did, I felt happy.
My last period came fast and ended faster.
My teacher just looked at me today. I was glad he didn't talk.
Tyler walked me home again, he talked about me, in a way that made me feel floaty.
I asked if he'd sit with me at lunch.
He stopped and hugged me.
He smelt like what I wanted.
But was it what I needed?
Goodnight
-River A.
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Letters and Words
RomanceRiver Alistair suffers from anxiety and depression. Her mother gives her a journal over Christmas. River tries writing in it to overcome her demons and fight for herself. *Work in progress* -ALL IDEAS AND CHARACTERS ARE MY OWN- -No photos used are...
