Dear diary,
I open the door to Tyler's car, I heard his door slam and a few frantic footsteps before his warm body collided with mine.
He held me, but not even this took the aching away.
My heart wouldn't stop beating hard in my chest.
Thump
Thump
Thump
My heart felt like it was pumping so much blood so fast I'd die, I felt like that a lot, I just wanted it to finally work.
Tyler's house was warm and bright. A sweet smell tangled around my nose.
His mothers' hands were gently pressed on my shoulders and hands as she whisked me into the kitchen.
'What can I do for you baby?' She asked her voice had a soft drawl that reminded me of soft summer rain.
I cried.
Giant sobs racked my whole body leaving me broken.
I was ripped open and pinned upon that birch wood table.
Every human part of me, my seems tore, I was too open, venerable.
Tyler held me, he felt like a beautiful lie. But he whispered the ugly truth.
'I know it's not okay, River,' his lips grazed my ear. That and my lack of oxygen left my world spinning.
His hands warmed mine as he moved me to the dark couch, it was soft and I sank into it.
I fell asleep on his couch about ten minutes after he put me there.
I fell asleep to concerned whispers and fingers twirling a strand of my hair.
I wanted it all to be over.
I was nobody without her.
She was my protector.
My shrink.
Goodnight,
River A.
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Letters and Words
RomanceRiver Alistair suffers from anxiety and depression. Her mother gives her a journal over Christmas. River tries writing in it to overcome her demons and fight for herself. *Work in progress* -ALL IDEAS AND CHARACTERS ARE MY OWN- -No photos used are...
