The Undead (Lauren/You)

Chapter 9

As soon as I had come to find Dinah, I sent her on her way towards Y/N at the shorter girl's wish. I shuffled off towards my house so that I could give them peace no matter how much I had wanted to stay and look over Y/N. I sighed and walked up the stairs to the room where I laid down to rest. I felt like I needed it after staying awake to watch over the shorter girl, but at the same time I couldn't help but think about how I felt laying next to my crush the last time she had fallen asleep. I don't think I had ever felt more rested than I was laying next to her in all the years this disaster struck. I had never felt safer even though I was the one holding her, and I prayed that she felt the same way while I held her in my arms. I wished so much that I could offer her such solace when she was near me. As I laid on my back, I stared up at the ceiling and dreamt of what could be only if Y/N allowed herself to be loved in a way that I could offer her.

I didn't know how I landed myself here but it wasn't like I was necessarily mad about it. Of course it was stressful putting so much effort into what seems like nothing, but I had to keep telling myself that it wasn't for nothing. Y/N was hardheaded for sure but I had to think that I was somehow getting underneath her skin to prove to her that I wasn't like everyone else; I wasn't going to leave her no matter what she thought. I didn't know how she had come to mean so much to me but this is where I had found myself, and I knew I had to try to make myself happy for once and pursue something until I knew it was no longer worth pursuing. This girl had unknowingly forced her way into my head with her disinterested ways and stubborn nature like she had somehow done it on purpose; like she knew what she was doing in a way. Either way, I had become insanely attached and insanely attracted to the younger girl without her doing much other than making me want her more.

Y/N was my forbidden fruit in a way. With her making it so hard and everything else making it seem like I wasn't allowed to have her, I only wanted her even more than I originally did. I continued to convince myself in my head that she was slowly cracking, and I hoped to god it was true. I had told her that I wasn't going to give up on her and I was going to keep that promise, especially now that there were these people added into the equation that wanted to hurt both her and her father. Who knows what they truly wanted, but I knew I was going to be there for her because this is when it mattered most. There was that, but now she knew just how bad I truly wanted her due to the world always working in my favor. Of course the one time I lay next to her and fall asleep, I wake up with a boner aimed right at her. How much more embarrassing could that have gotten? Then again it wasn't something I was necessarily self conscious about, I just didn't want to spring it on her so quickly; no pun intended.

I just hoped it wouldn't push her even further away since I already wasn't her favorite person. I huffed quietly to myself as I continued to lay on the bed and rest my tired body up. I already wanted to go back to Y/N but I knew she was with Dinah talking, and they wanted their peace. The more I laid on the bed, the more I actually became restless to the point where I could no longer stay in one spot without moving in some way. I sighed and stood up from the bed while scratching the back of my neck, taking my time to walk down the stairs where I walked right back outside of the house in which I resided to try to go make myself useful. There were several people out and about who were trying to maintain the small town with repairs and accumulating supplies that were needed. There were also a couple of people taking care of the small farmland I had helped Y/N with just days before this. I smiled to myself at the memory and how stubborn the shorter girl is.

I didn't understand why or how she wanted to avoid the obvious tension between us but it only grew the more time we spent together; for me anyway. I wasn't sure if her walls were slowly breaking but I knew I was slowly getting underneath her skin whether that was good or bad; time would only tell which one it was. I knew I just wanted to keep doing what I was doing in hopes that she would finally crack and I would be welcomed with the backstory on why she was so stubborn; and hopefully it would give me the chance to show her what real love feels like. As I continued walking throughout the streets of the small town, I heard my name called soon enough which stopped me in my tracks. I turned towards the voice to see Daniel approaching me with a small smile etched on his face. When he reached me, he threw his arm over my shoulders and pushed me to walk with him in the direction I was already walking towards. "Hey, how are you?" I asked politely to ease into some light conversation.