Here I Am Again || a Patty Walters Fic

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"Please see in me what I can't see, I'm begging," Patty sang, finishing up the song and walking up to me.

"How did I get so lucky?" I laughed into my mic.

He gave me a quick kiss before running back to the center of the stage and starting the next song, "Soap".

As Ben and I started the riffs for the song, Patty ran around the stage as usual, god he's adorable.

Before I could realize, he ran up behind me and rested his head on my shoulder. I got chills as he sang, "but where I'm most exposed is where you make your bed," into my ear and wrapped his arms around my waist.

I leaned back onto him as I started to play the next part of the song.

I knew that playing on stage with them had to be the best thing I'll ever experience.

•

A few days later, as we were hanging out in the bus, we all got a text about a party with a few other bands.

"You should go with us, Brandy!" Ben exclaimed.

"What do you think I'm gonna say?" I laughed.

"Pleeeease," Ali chimed in.

"Yeah, you've gotta go!" Foley pleaded. "You've never been to a party with us."

I looked up at Patty.

"Babe, don't worry about me. Just please don't do anything you'd regret and I don't wanna have to see you really drunk," he said giving me a quick kiss before I got up.

"Okay, copy that," I laughed.

"Let's go!" Ben said.

We walked until we reached a bar where several other bands were.

There was loud pop punk music playing and tons of people dancing in the middle of the room.

As I turned to see who else was here, the other three left and met up with friends. I started to get really nervous as I walked to the bar.

"Hey, I like your shirt," I heard from behind me once I got to the bar.

I looked down and saw my Waterparks tank top. "Oh my god, I completely forgot."

"It's ok," they laughed. "I'm Awsten, it's nice to meet you!"

"Hi Awsten, I'm Brandy!"

"You're a new face, Brandy. What are you doing at Warped?" He asked.

"I'm in As It Is!" I smiled.

"Ohhh, I've heard about you," he replied. "So, what are you getting to drink?"

"I'm just gonna have a couple shots. I don't drink much but I can't do this sober," I laughed, looking at all the people around me.

As I turned around, the bartender handed me two shots. "Thanks!"

I downed them quickly so I could start to feel something.

"Wanna dance?" Awsten asked.

"Sure!"

He grabbed my hand and pulled me to the center of the room.

After a few minutes, Awsten stopped me.

"Come on, you need a few more drinks," he laughed. "It's like dancing with a statue."

"Fine, if you get them for me," I shrugged.

He left and came back with another two shots.

I downed them quickly as well and started dancing again.

At this point I started to become a little dizzy.

"You okay?" Awsten chuckled.

"Yeah, I just have a low tolerance, sorry."

"It's ok, you don't drink much?" He asked.

"Yeah, it's not my thing," I shrugged.

We continued dancing for a little but before I got pretty tired. I decided to go sit at the bar and get more drinks.

About an hour later, I realized I had made a mistake. I'd definitely had the most drinks I've ever had in one sitting. I started to panic, wondering how I'd get back to the bus and what Patty would think.

"I'm gonna go, you want me to walk you to your bus?" Awsten asked, walking up behind me.

"Sure, I'd love that," I slurred. "You're so great."

"Oh my god," he laughed. "Let's get you out of here."

As we walked out of the bar, I felt myself tripping with every step. Everything felt hazy and I hated it. I completely fucked up.

"Come here," Awsten laughed. He picked me up bridal style and carried me the rest of the way to the bus.

As we arrived to the bus, I unlocked the door and Awsten opened it, carrying me in.

"Oh, hey Patty!" Awsten exclaimed.

"Hey, Awsten," Patty said, confused. "Is she okay?"

"Yeah," he laughed. "Just had a lot to drink."

"I see," Patty looked down awkwardly.

Awsten set me in my bunk and covered me with my blanket.

"Thank you soooo much," I laughed. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Okay, whatever you say," he laughed.

I pulled his head into my bunk and gave him a small kiss. "We should totally hang out sometime you're like, really cool," I stuttered.

"Okay, sounds great," he laughed. "Night, Brandy."

He left the bus as I fell asleep in my bunk.

•

The next morning, I jumped out of my bunk in a panic. "Oh my god, what happened last night?" I whispered to myself.

I felt my hand being grabbed as I was being pulled out of the bus.

"Brandy, what the hell were you thinking?" Ben asked angrily, handing me Advil and water. "You probably need this."

"I don't know, I don't remember what happened," I snapped.

"Brandy, you fucked up. Patty is pissed."

"What did I do?!" I started shaking.

"You got waaay too drunk and Awsten Knight carried you into the bus."

"Ugh, I feel horrible," I groaned.

"Brandy, you kissed Awsten," he said hesitantly.

"Oh my god," I cried. I leaned over and wrapped my arms around Ben, crying onto his shoulder. "What do I do?"

"I don't know, you need to talk to him."

"Okay, thanks, Ben," I sniffled.

I walked back into the bus and into the back lounge.

"Patty?" I called out.

I heard a faint cry coming from under a blanket.

"Babe," I started, wiping away a tear. "I'm so sorry."

"I don't wanna talk right now," he groaned. "I cant believe you."

"I understand. I'd hate me too."

"Please, just go," he said quietly.

"I know I fucked up," I whispered. "But I wanna grow from it."