Here I Am Again || a Patty Walters Fic

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a/n: y'all like POV changes? ;)

Awsten POV

"Brandy, wake up!" I said frantically.

She groaned and rolled over, facing away from me.

I shook her awake and picked her up out of the bunk.

She gagged as she stood up and open her eyes.

"Brandy, come here," I said, opening the bus door and leading her outside to the grass.

She threw up a couple times before rubbing her eyes and turning back around to me. "Awsten, what happened?"

"Well, I took you to a bar to make you feel better, and you got really drunk. I didn't have the heart to take you to your bus so I put you in our spare bunk," I explained.

"And now I'm paying the price," she mumbled. "Do you have any coffee?"

"Yeah, you just come in whenever you can," I walked over and kissed her on the forehead before going inside the bus.

I was pouring her coffee as she walked in.

"Thanks," she smiled as I handed her the coffee and some Advil.

She took the Advil and sipped the coffee, sitting down on the couch.

"Thanks so much, Awsten. I don't know what I would have done without you," she said quietly.

"Of course," I laughed, sitting down next to her.

"Hey Brandy," said Geoff, getting out from his bunk.

"Hey!" She smiled.

"Hey, Geoff," I started. "Could you stay with Brandy for a bit? I have to run a few errands."

"Sure," he nodded.

"I'll be back soon, Bran," I laughed.

I left the bus and headed for the As It Is bus.

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"Hey Awsten, what's up?" Ben smiled as I walked up to the bus.

"I'm getting Brandy's stuff. She sure as hell isn't staying here tonight," I said in a monotone voice.

He nodded and opened the door for me. I pushed past Patty as I walked in and to the bunks.

"This one's hers," Ben said, pointing to one of the bunks.

I grabbed all of the loose items and put them in the suitcase, zipping it up and leaving the bus.

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"Here ya go," I said, handing Brandy her suitcase.

"Aww, thanks," she laughed. She took the suitcase and put it in her bunk.

"We're on at 1:00 today," I told her as she walked past me.

She nodded before grabbing a bag and some clothes and going into the bathroom.

She came out a few minutes later wearing grey leggings and a Parx shirt from an old tour.

"Cute," I laughed.

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Brandy POV

The guys had just left to warm up for their set and I realized I was left to my own devices. I sat on the couch for a few minutes before falling too far in my thoughts.

I got up and searched their cabinets, only finding cereal, instant ramen and random fruits. I checked the fridge after, once again only seeing orange juice and more fruit.

I frowned as I grabbed my sunglasses and put them on to hide my tear stained eyes. I checked Yelp for the nearest liquor store and headed out of the bus.

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I got back with almost a hundred dollars worth of cheap alcohol. I knew I would need it for a few days.

I didn't hesitate before taking three shots of the stuff so I could start to feel something.

The guys' Switch was sitting by the TV, and I figured they'd be fine if I used it.

After a few rounds of Mariokart, I got up and took more shots as I couldn't get my mind off of Patty.

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Awsten POV

The show was over and it was time to go back to the bus.

"Awsten!" Brandy slurred as we walked in the bus. "You're back!"

"Yeah," I laughed. "What are you doing?"

"I'm just having fun!" She exclaimed. "Want some?" She was pouring vodka into a shot glass.

"I'll pass," I said. "I think you should too, Bran. You seem like you've had enough already."

"Don't worry about me," she shrugged before taking the shot.

"Brandy, you're a mess. Please, lay down in your bunk or something. I'm worried about you."

"Well, don't be," she sighed.

"Brandy, I'm serious. I cant watch you do this to yourself."

She rolled her eyes as I helped her off the couch and over to the bunk.

"Goodnight," I whispered, kissing her cheek. "Just sleep this off and you'll be okay."

I closed the curtain and let out a deep breath.

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Brandy POV

"You have to wake up," I heard as I felt myself being shaken awake. "Our set is in fifteen minutes."

"I'm awake," I groaned as I rolled over to face Awsten with a worried look in his eyes.

"Take care of yourself, okay?"

"I'll be okay," I laughed. "Break a leg."

I got out of the bunk as I heard all three guys leave.

I grabbed my phone and sighed when I saw that it was 4:00. How the hell did I sleep that long?

I put one of the instant ramen bowls in the microwave and turned on the TV.

A minute later, I grabbed the bowl out of the microwave, grabbed a fork, and sat back down.

I knew I had a bad hangover, but as soon as I started eating, my stomach instantly flipped. I tried eating more before I ran to the bathroom and threw it up.

I walked back to the couch, throwing away the ramen, as I couldn't dream of eating it.

I laid down, throwing my hands over my face as I let my thoughts take control of me and started sobbing. I shut my eyes, trying to stop the desperate delusions.

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"You okay?" I heard Awsten ask as the door opened.

"Not really," I cried.

"Come on," he said, grabbing my hand and pulling me up. "We'll cheer you up."

I laughed and rolled my eyes as the guys all sat down and started playing on the Switch.

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Unfortunately, through all of the Parx boys' attempts in the next few days, I still couldn't shake the negative thoughts and missing someone that I love. I wanted to forget, but I couldn't. It went on and on for days and days and days.