Recovery | Justin Bieber |

Chapter 45

| Savannah |
: Once Again

I took a deep breath, ran a hand through my hair and before opening my eyes again. I hadn't cried, unless you count a single tear as a 'cry'. However, at any moment now I was sure I'd burst in to tears and that's why I had to compose myself to stop myself from bawling.

I turned the corner and walked towards the table, sitting down next to Justin.

"Hey babe" He smiled as he turned to look at me, placing a kiss on my lips. Naturally, I couldn't do anything back because my thoughts were swarming my mind and the only thing I could think about was Yovanna and what she had told me, so it would be fake of me to act normal when in reality, there was nothing normal about this.

"What's up? You okay?" He asked as he put his hand on my thigh and gently caressed it. I slowly nodded, avoiding his eyes as the minute I did make eye contact with him, I was worried he'd see the slight redness in my eyes that out get after crying just a little bit.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I gave him a small smile as reassurance and just as he went to speak again, his name was called which turned his attention to everyone else who were laughing and joking, and well, doing everything that I should be doing right now too.

But I couldn't get my head round the thought of Yovanna literally laughing at me. Whilst Justin showed me off in front of her and called me his girlfriend, she knew all along that when he was being all lovey dovey with me, he had been sleeping with her for whoever knows how long. And the worst part was Justin told me himself that he didn't have sex with yovanna or anyone for the time period where we were speaking. Of course he told me about him kissing girls, partying with them and well doing everything else, just not sleeping with them. It made me wonder who else he had slept with without me even knowing.

And if he had done it recently.

As I looked down at hands, not really speaking to anyone or joining in with the conversations that were going round the table, I heard my name. Turning around I saw Kris, kylie's mom approach me. I knew she was invited but she didn't even come until now and so as I greeted her I stood up in front of her, finally feeling a sense of relief to see a familiar face.

"You look very pretty Sav, did Kylie help you out?" She asked as she looked at me dress and smiled.

"Yeah, she insisted on me staying at her house to get ready" I answered making her nod. "Did you get something in your eye sweetie? They look a little red" She commented. Oh god.

"Oh no, I think I got an eyelash in it earlier" I lied through my teeth. She peered behind me to see Justin who had now gotten up and was stood with Ryan and a couple other guys, drink in their hands as they shared a conversation.

"How's the date going?" She asked, pulling her famous concerned / serious Kris Jenner face that she pulled every time she was wanting a serious answer. She was a walking meme and I loved it.

I laughed, but it was the kinda forced laugh you do when you don't want anyone to know what the harsh truth and reality really was. And so as I reassured her that Justin was treating me right after she asked me a million questions about how he was treating me, I realised that I wasn't that bad of a liar. Even though just had been treating me amazingly, nothing was as it seemed.

"Savannah!" I heard him call me making me turn my attention to where he stood, with a smile on his face he called me over.

I took a deep breath before walking over to him as he held his hand out before he gently placed it on the exposed part of skin on my back. "Justin is just about to leave but I had to say goodbye before you did leave" Ashley spoke as she pulled me in to a hug. This was a genuine smile as she was really nice and it would be inhumane of me to not recognise and appreciate that.