I can't stand you

9 Jinyoung

Jaebum... he looked good but.. he looked tired. He had deep eye bags that contradicted his bright smile.

His left leg was shaking lightly under the table and his hands had a shake to them as well. I knew his disease had gotten worse... I tried looking into it, I tried a lot but from what I gathered they didn't have a name for it.

"Can I get you something you can actually drink?" I asked and he smiled.

"Just a water." He whispered and I nodded.

I walked around the bar and brought a glass of water with a straw. As he lifted the cup the ice began to clank around and shake in his grasp.

I put my hand around his to steady the cup and brought it closer to his lips.

After setting the cup down he sighed.

"This is why I left you know..". He whispered and I bit my lip.

"So I wouldn't be able to help you?" I asked and he shook his head.

"So you wouldn't have to." He corrected and I gave him a weak smile.

"You're still just as stupid as before." I said flicking his forehead.

"Yah! I'm serious... it wasn't pretty these 2 years." He said and I sighed.

"I read your books... I know it's been hard for you... but I want to help." I said and he shook his head.

"Why would you read them? You don't need to understand disability." Jaebum said glancing at me with fire in his eyes.

"No but I need to understand you." I said and his eyes softened.

"Jinyoung... Jinyoung I'm in trouble." He whispered.

"Let me help please." I begged.

He looked down for awhile and I could tell he was thinking really hard. After a few minutes he looked back up at me with a tear streaming down his face.

"Can I stay with you? For a small while?" He asked and I smiled.

"You can stay with me... but no promises on me letting you leave." I said with a smile as I wiped his tear.

He chuckled and we both stood up.

"Do you just need to get your things?" I asked and he nodded getting his black and silver cane.

He stood on wobbly legs and he groaned.

"I had to be standing and walking a lot today so my legs are starting to give out." He said as he slowly took a painful step.

I stopped him by taking his cane and squatting down. Slowly he wrapped his arms around my neck and I hoisted him onto my back.

"Give me directions." I said and he chuckled.

"Go to the park and I'll direct you from there." He said and I smiled and began walking.

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