Loki X Reader

Loki's Library

Loki picked you up by the hips and sat you down on his desk. He opened your robe a little exposing a little skin. He started to kiss you more and more. You couldn't take it anymore. You begged and begged him to take you. Suddenly the doors slam shut causing dust to flutter in the breeze. You couldn't help but to jump a little. You looked at his twinkling eyes and smiled a little before looking down. 

"Loki?" I asked him while tapping my fingers gently on his stomach as he stood between my legs. "What is it love?" he said in a whisper. I sat there quiet for a second still looking down. "You-" I sighed before continued. "You know you're my first" I looked up at him slowly. "I hope you don't look at me differently now" I took my hands away from him and sat them in my lap. "I know darling, and don't think I would think any less of you. It saddens me to say that you weren't my first and I'll explain to you if you wish, but it wouldn't me in my being to think of you different. I am more than happy that I could make these first moments special with you, or so I hope they were." His word were so soothing and it made me feel like this big weight off my shoulders became lighter. He tilted my head up for me to look at him. "I am forever yours if you aloud me to be. I will understand if this may be too fast for you or if you want to wait. I will wait for eternity for you. May I be honest with you?" I nodded but didn't say anything. He sat in his chair and I turned to sit in front of him. He moved his fingers up and down my thighs as he spoke. "Back at home, everyone was teasing me about how I never went out or never brought a 'date' with me to any of these social gatherings. They thought many things and I just kept to myself. I wasn't looking for anyone." He looked down and became quiet for a moment. He turned his head and rested his chin on his arm. I could tell he was holding back something. I ran my fingers through his long raven black hair. Then he looked up at me with a tear rolling down his cheek. "What is it Loki?" I whispered. He moved closer and hugged my legs and rested his head in my lap. I moved his hair away from his face and continued to play with his hair. "Some how, when I saw you in Baltimore one evening, not when you were with that fool, but a few nights before; you were alone. I noticed you sitting with the same lady as the one we saw tonight feeding the birds, you were talking to her. I sat a few benches down, trying not to ease drop on your conversation, but I needed to get my mind off of a few things. Your voice and how you spoke to that lady had me intrigued. You sounded so sweet and how you talked to people filled my heart with joy. Ever since then..." he paused for a moment. "Ever since then I kept an eye on you." He looked up at me and it seems like more tears had fallen. I dried them for him. He had so much worry showing in his eyes. "I am terribly sorry if it seems like I was... stalking you, but you were the only thing that kept me sane. Something told me to be there that day. And now I know why. I saw you and Asher get into arguments, and the way he treated you... I couldn't bare to witness it anymore. I felt like I had to do something. I didn't want this beautiful maiden to be trapped her entire life in a unhappy relationship." He stood up slowly looking back down, about to walk away. "Then whats making you upset Loki?" He held out a hand for me. He helped me off the desk. We walked in front of the fire place and stood there. He looked up at the painting then down at me. "I wasn't looking for anyone because I was afraid." His voice became louder and he started to pace around. "I was afraid to find that one special person and after them finding out about me and my past... they would find me to be a monster, a freak, and would never want to see me again" he looked at me and walked up to me quickly and held my hands. His voice started to lower. "I wanted to tell you all this last night, but I wanted to wait. It was foolish of me to tell you now after all that we shared together than when I first met you. I've gained this powerful feeling for you (Y/N) and to loose you now will destroy me." I looked at him confused. "What would ever possibly make me think different of you" I asked him. All the emotions left his face and he lifted one hand to the painting. He explained more of his past and everything that had happen to him. 

I stood there in silence. Loki walked back to his desk and leaned on it. He rested his head in his hands. The fire went down into embers. The lighting and thunder became stronger. I made my way over to Loki and stood in front of him. "Loki" I tried to keep myself calm. I didn't want him to see me upset. I felt more sorry than scared. He couldn't help all of those things. He put his hands down on the desk propping himself up. He kept his head down. "Loki please look at me" I came a little closer to him. I knew he felt embarrassed. I lifted his head and kissed him. He grabbed my arms and pulled me off. "Please (Y/N) don't". He got up and walked to the door. "Loki! I don't think of you ask a freak. I'm not scared of you. I don't think any less or any different about you!" I yelled back at him. He stopped and turned around. "Are you just saying that?" he said as he walked back to me. "Are you just saying that because you feel sorry for me? I can read your thoughts (Y/N) and no I don't read your thoughts. It's when I don't have control of my emotions, my powers start to act up and I happened to hear what you said. You feel sorry for me" he said with anger. "Then I guess you didn't hear me before that. I said I wasn't scared of you" I informed him. "I'm terrified (Y/N) I don't want to lose you." his voice started to shake. I didn't say anything. 

Loki walked out of the library and left me alone. Now I have to find him or make my way back to the room. He could be anywhere. Do I sing? Is my singing like a charm to him? I'm just going to walk around a bit. If he's invisible then i'll start singing.