In Love With My Idol: Shawn Mendes

Nineteen

Reader's Notice: This chapter contains some MATURE content. Read at your own will.

Janessa

The day went by pretty quickly, another boat ride and we spent quite a lot of time on it. We all hung out and got drunk on the lower deck of the boat where there was a ginormous bed, lots of wine, and plenty of room for everyone. Shawn gets so drunk that he starts belting out lyrics from his recent songs as well as Drake and John Mayer. He's honestly the cutest when drunk. He's cute regardless, but it's so pure to see him in his "true" state when he's drunk. Haha. When we get back to the hotel room, Shawn is completely tuckered out and wasted and fall onto the bed. I on the other hand, manage my intake. I help him take off his clothes, and get him to brush his teeth and get into bed. I get ready for bed as well, and hop in next to Shawn when I'm done. I sit up against the headboard to catch up on the news when Shawn puts his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him.

"I love you." (Shawn)

"I love you, too." (I say running my fingers through his hair)

"Will you marry me?" (Shawn mumbles groggily)

"What?" (I ask)

"I wanna marry you." (He mumbles again)

"I know baby, I know." (I giggle)

He wakes up, puts my iPad on the night stand and flips me over on top of him.

"What are you doing?" (I laugh)

"I just want you." (Shawn)

He starts tickling me and taking off my robe revealing nothing underneath. We mess around and have some fun for a while before going to bed at nearly 3am. We fell asleep quite quickly with my head and hand on his chest and his hand holding mind. I could definitely get used to this.

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We woke up the next morning and had to pack up everything to catch our flight to Denmark for Smukfest which is our first festival that we hit for the festival run. The festivals are kind of spread out but there are the first few that are close together.

When we get to Denmark, there aren't a lot of fans this time, so we get to our hotel and get settled in. The same day we get there is the same day that Shawn performs for the festival. He's so pumped and excited that he's going to be performing after a while! We're driving to Smukfest and there are other artist who are playing before him, so we're patiently waiting backstage.

"God I'm so excited for this one!" (Shawn)

"First performance since turning 20!! Of course you're excited!" (me)

"The energy here is great! I'm so pumped." (Shawn)

"And I'll be in the crowd watching you perform. I can't wait to see you perform for the first time since I met you! Brings back such memories!" (me)

"I know. Well, I'm up in ten. See you out there." (Shawn says before giving me a kiss)

"Just know I'll be singing my lungs out for you." (I say giving him one last kiss before he goes up)

Kyndra walks me out into the crowd in front of the barricade and the show starts. Shawn is so passionate and he really does put his all into his performances and that's what I love about him. He makes sure he can do the best that he can for the people who are there for him. I'm singing loudly with the crowd putting my hands in the air and dancing my ass off when Shawn makes eye contact with me as he finishes one song.

"How ya feelin' Smukfest!" (Shawn)

The crowd goes wild, screaming, crying, clapping, it's insane and I love the rush it gives me. I can't imagine what it must be like for him.