Dear my sweet no one
I want to say I'm fine without I being a lie
I want to feel free from this prison inside
I want to smile and not cry
I want to reach the sky
But it's up so high
For a while it was like that
But the thoughts came back
And started to attack
But every one else said I was just 'sad'
I'm so weak to say something back
They say strength is what I lack
But I guess I'll just smile threw the pain
And keep my heart living in vain
I walked the streets at night
Trying to reach you but your always out of sight
And I'm running out of time
At least I know not to get my hopes up
And not even call you 'mine'
But I'm fine
I stopped caring and stopped doing things we use to do together
When I use to believe it was forever
When I was young and dumb, but however
You say selfishness will consume me entire
I always wish the best for you
I wish you wished well for me too
But you made me look like a fool
And always told me what to do
I remember when would laugh and talk on the phone for hours
Then you would go and turn the conversation sour
I always thought it was my fault
And we yelled and fought
Like it was some silly game
But in the end it was always the same
With our voices tired from shouting
And all of my doubting
But I'm fine
My head hurts from the bad thoughts and nightmares
Then again no one really cares
We would yell and say it was unfair
But you never really cared
I remember when you stopped calling me
I guess you say right threw my bullsh*t
I don't blame you, but it's your voice that I miss
You saw right threw my fake smile and saw what I was about
All those times you would look into my eyes and not make a sound
I guess you figured it out
My head was empty, just about
I was a lie
I thought I was fine
That everything was fine inside
But I was losing myself
In the dark beneath the shadows
And the voices tell me to keep close
This was the path that I chose
Now I'm gonna put on a show
And put my mask back on
Show you that i cant keep going on
That I'll brake any moment
But I'm fine
That my heart is open
But all I am is a poet
So I'll right you a poem
Maybe in a form of a song
Show you where my darkness comes from
It came from my madness all along
When people I trusted talked behind my back
I don't say a word and don't say anything back
I'm falling apart that a fact
But no one cares
So I smiled and you knew it was an act
You didn't do any thing and that's sad
But I'm fine
So tell me how are
Are you as happy as you said you were
I hope you are
