Loki x Reader Kneeling For The Mewling Quim

Chapter 17

Your POV

You woke up the next morning and sat straight up trying to recall everything that happened. You look down at yourself underneath of your blanket and saw you were still entirely undressed. You then glance over to Loki's side of the bed and notice he was still completely nude as well. He had his back facing you, turned on his side, actually dead asleep for once. You don't think you've seen him tired enough to drift off since you met him.

What happened yesterday wasn't a dream after all... It actually happened... You had sex with the god of mischief... You got a cold chill down your spine remembering everything you did together in this bedroom you shared. All the positions. Every orgasm. 24 hours of your bodies connecting together... and now here you are in the aftermath.

You felt like you just had to leave the room. You needed time to yourself to think and plus being locked away for a whole day probably had Thor worried about you. You weren't even sure how to justify having sex with your best friend's brother. What if he hated you now?...

You shake your head trying to not let yourself just assume the worst. For all you know maybe some good can come out of this. Like a relationship or new found trust or something. You just know you can't let your anxieties get the better of you.

You move the blanket gently off of you and try to stand up, but immediately fall over. Your legs were like jelly, you felt like an infant again, crawling because you could hardly feel your own limbs. Loki must've been a little too rough with you yesterday. It's also a good thing he's passed out and didn't hear you as you fell because it would've just embarrassed you.

You struggled your way over to the closet and found a chair to prop yourself up on. It took a few minutes to help yourself up, but you eventually got back onto your feet and picked out an outfit. You just wanted more than anything to put some clothes on and run somewhere to be alone. All you put on was a regular (your favorite color) t-shirt and some shorts with a pair of sneakers. You left the room as quick as you could without hurting your legs anymore by running. You briskly walked through the castle and went outside for some fresh air.

You slowly paced around and found a secluded garden. It was beautiful, full of so many trees and bushes and the sunlight illuminated it perfectly. You walked through a field of flowers and found an old bench to rest on and contemplate your thoughts. It was so peaceful.

"(Y/n) is that you?..." You heard a voice walking towards you ask.

You look over and see that it's Thor, "Yeah, it's me. How did you know I was here?"

"I didn't know, I just like to stroll through the gardens myself." He smiled.

You also smiled and let him sit on the bench with you, "Thor, I don't feel so good right now."

"Are you growing ill? I can get you medication and tell the nurses." He felt your forehead for a fever.

You chuckled slightly and pushed is hand away, "No, I'm not sick, my body just feels so sore and I have a lot of emotions I have to work through now..."

He looked at you sympathetically, "(Y/n) I know you never left your room yesterday nor did my brother... "

Tears began streaming from your eyes and you had no control over it. Thor instantly put and arm around your shoulders.

"I'm sorry..." You say quietly.

"You really did sleep with my brother didn't you?..." He saw you nod your head, "Don't apologize to me (y/n). If anything I should tell you that I'm sorry, because I'm the one who spoke with Loki and basically gave him my blessing to pursue you..."

You look up at him and wipe some tears away, "I didn't know you gave him permission before anything happened, but it's fine because I know you wouldn't intervene if it was something I was happy with so we're good. It's just me... I'm trying not to let my thoughts control anything, but I'm so mad at myself. I slept with your brother and you're suppose to be my best friend, I slept with a guy that tried to destroy New York, take over earth, and killed so many people, I slept with the god of mischief, not just any god who's good and pure like you, no, I slept with a god that lies and manipulates and hurts people. Am I really that stupid? Or am I just afraid to admit the other things in my heart?..."

"What are the feelings you won't say out loud?..." He asked you calmly.

You looked down at the ground and took a moment before answering, "...I really like him and would see if things could evolve into a real relationship... But none of this is forever when my home is on earth with Tony and the rest of the Avengers... This is all a fairytale I have to eventually wake up from... How do I move on in life, but also involve Loki?... It's all so complicated it feels like... I need more time to get away and think."

"Well, take your time, okay? And whatever you decide I'll help you and support you." He smiled warmly at you.

"Thank you, Thor." You smiled back.