My mom is crying more than I am these nights and so now I am no longer sleeping in my own bed. I am not in there at all. In my new bedroom which I love until nightfall.
I searched for her ghost outside but I could not find her. So I stayed outside and went to my car and slept there instead. I would have never fallen asleep had it not been for my best friend. She told me we were baking brownies one day, we didn't talk about my incident in the bathroom. She just hugged me and I felt her tremble when she held me. She pulled back fast and we started to bake; and only until I settled in the car and started giggling at the black cat's green eyes did I realize how special those brownies were.
I love her. I love my mom and dad and I wish there was no pain in their eyes when they look in mine. I regret my stupidity so much. All I know is regret and guilt. And even though I regret ever thinking of wanting to end this I still want to end this because of what I have made them feel. It's a never ending cycle. When will it end? When?
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dreamland
Teen Fictionabout a girl trying to move on from the past, only to find that the past can move too. all artwork by namalas.
