Love finds its way ❤ (on hold)

You should listen to yourself ~ chapter 13

The bell rang and it’s lunch time. I can’t wait to get home, but first of course lunch and the science. I was thinking of skipping that class acting sick or just go home. Ii was too much of a whip to do that anyway. I followed my school mates to the school canteen but before going there I left my school bag in my locker. Just in case.  What’s on today’s menu? I slowly walked in and to my bad luck Harry was right in front of me. I tried to walk away or hide from him – pretty stupid I know but he saw me ‘’Ally nice to see you. Shall we talk now?’’ he asked I just nodded and smiled a bit. I only took one apple and a coca cola for lunch today. I followed Harry to a table. ‘’So what are we going to talk about?’’ I asked ‘’well let’s see. Your attitude’’ he said and sat down.  ‘’Uhm excuse me?’’ I said first ‘’ I know you can be a nice lady if you want to’’ he said ‘’Harry you just started to know me for like 5 days, you kissed me, you come nearer than any boy has ever did. Not even Liam. I opened to you, decided to be a better person cos I didn’t want to let you down, tried to change, made a new friend, had my first real kiss, told I guy I don’t like him then after it I thought maybe I do like him, had a chat with my brother which I hadn’t have in 2 years, cried in front of people I never would, was weak as a fucking spoiled child, made some mistakes and some the best decisions in my life. And you want to watch my attitude? Are you serious? Do you know how much has this affected me? Do you? No you don’t know so ask before you judge and ask something’’ I said with tears in my eyes, my voice started to go weaker and weaker. I left the canteen in tears. I ran straight to the ladies room and locked myself in the bathroom cabin. I didn’t want to cry but tears were streaming down my face and I couldn’t control it. It just collapsed on me like a big heavy rock. I texted Liam ‘’please come and pick me up. I’m still in school. Not feeling okay xx’’ I opened the cabin and whipped away my tears. I got a text back ‘’right away Ally. Wait for me in front of the school’’ he texted. I left the bathroom and on my way out I accidently bumped into a boy ‘’sorry I didn’t see you’’ I said ‘’it’s okay’’ he said and smiled at me. He was tall, muscular, he has short blond hair, blue eyes and his face was scary if he didn’t smile ‘’I’m Matt’’ he said ‘’nice to meet you Matt. I’m Ally’’ I said and smiled to him ‘’I know who you are. We were neighbours for about 2 years when we were a lot younger’’ he said ‘’ow Matt that’s you!’’ I said smiling. The last time I saw him was when he punched me in the stomach cos I refused to play his wife in game we played with Liam and some other old friends.  ‘’So Ally have you got a date to the prom?’’ he asked ‘’no…’’ I said looking at the ground ‘’wanna go with me?’’ he asked. I was shocked ‘’why not?’’ I said to him not even thing about it. When I was sad or angry I just did things. I never thought about them. But saying yes to Matt was my worst mistake yet.

*evening*

I lied to Liam and mum that I had terrible head ache and stomach ache. They luckily believed me. Harry called me about 7 times ad texted about 15 times. I didn’t bother to look at them. I put my phone into the drawer and just left it there. I haven’t eaten anything since breakfast and to be honest I didn’t even care. I had a bad day when I just say negative, believe negative things. We all have a bad day once in a while. I hated the fact that I told Liam and Harry that much. Everything changed so much. Why? Perhaps because I was just tired being the cruel bitch. I took a shower and put on my pyjamas. I was just about to get too bad and leave this bad day behind me when I heard a knock on my door. ‘’come in’’ I said annoyed ‘’just dropping your cat off’’ Liam said ‘’thank you. Goodnight’’ I said and turned around so I faced the wall.

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‘’Only three days left’’ I said to Harry while we were sitting at lunch. ‘’I know’’ he mumbled. ‘’Why are you so sad?’’ I asked him ‘’I’m not sad’’ he said at first ‘’I’m worried and just nervous’’ he admitted.  ‘’Harold Edward Styles nervous? The guy who performed for thousand and thousand people? The guy who can kill girls just by not wearing a shirt or by wearing a beanie?’’ I asked him very confused ‘’yes me Allison. I’m a nervous rack!’’ he said in a bit angry voice ‘’sorry’’ I mumbled looking down ‘’sorry Ally I just can’t tell you or I can’’ he was very confused as well. ‘’What’s bugging that child?’’ I asked myself. ‘’I’ll come to your house tonight, I’ll tell you then. Right now I have to go to French class’’ he said and walking away quickly. I just looked at him – actually at his back. I don’t have any more classes, usually at Tuesdays I don’t even have lunch but I go straight home. I left the canteen making my way towards my locker. I had some notebooks and work books which I needed to take home. Tomorrow I won’t need them. ‘’So you still going to the prom with me babe?’’ a voice asked me. I turned around and saw Matt. The way he said “babe” it bugged me. It had a strange overtone that scared me ‘’yeah. Pick me up at six?’’ I asked nervous ‘’sure’’ he said winking at me. He kisses me very dominantly in a way on my forehead and left the hallway. I was actually a bit scared of him. I pushed the thought away and decided that I won’t wait for Harry to be finish with French. I made my way to the bus stop. I got on the bus that drove by Starbucks. I got off there and went inside. I didn’t see Dina anywhere so I left without ordering anything. I wondered what to do now. I don’t have friends so yeah shopping or hanging out is out of the question. I was walking slowly walking home. I knew I won’t walk the whole way but some fresh air and exercise would be nice. I still needed to do my homework. I rang Liam to pick me up. He was near so I was home in less than 25 minutes. ‘’Thank you Liam for the drive home’’ I said smiling at him ‘’you’re welcome Ally. Is Harry coming over tonight?’’ he asked ‘’uhm yes. I’m going to help him with history and he’s gonna help me with maths’’ I said ‘’okay then I’ll bring some healthy snacks. Like strawberries or blueberries? What do you prefer?’’ he asked ‘’bring the strawberries’’ I said and closed the car door. He drove off and I made my way inside. John was watching Mythbusters on Discovery channel ‘’hello’’ I said while closing the door ‘’hello Allison. How was your day?’’ he asked ‘’good and yours? Any problems at work?’’ I asked ‘’no all good, thanks’’ he said while still looking at the screen ‘’where’s mum?’’ I asked ‘’probably still at work’’ he said. My mum was a nurse and she is covering for a friend at the moment, John was a surgeon. ‘’Uhm Harry is gonna come later in the day. Is that okay?’’ I asked ‘’sure, just do your homework first’’ he said ‘’thank you’’ I said and went to the kitchen ‘’would you like to drinks something?’’ I asked him for the kitchen ‘’sure. Mind brining me a coca cola?’’ he told me what he wants ‘’sure’’ I said while opening the fridge. I grabbed two coca cola’s and put one on the coffee table in the living room ‘’thanks’’ he said ‘’no problem’’ I said while leaving. I grabbed my school bag next to the doorstep and made my way upstairs. I was on the middle of the stairs when I remembered something ‘’when Harry comes tell him to come to my room, please’’ I said to John ‘’okay’’ he more mumbled than said. I was in my room in no time. I grabbed my English and started to do homework, I put some good old rock on my radio just to have a bit more fun while writing a short imagined dream. ‘’Boring’’ I thought to myself. I was quickly done and then I grabbed my phone ‘’Thank you for loving me by Bon Jovi is such an amazing song’’ I tweeted ‘’anyone else a fan of good old rock?’’ I tweeted again. ‘’@AllyPayne I sure am : ) xx’’ tweeted a girl. I re-tweeted the tweet and then said my good bays.

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This is a bit longer part :) I hope you liked or perhaps loved it. I will continue as soon as I get about 3 votes and 2 comments. Thank you to all of you fanning & adding my story to your reading list. It might not mean a lot to you but it does to me.  And sorry cos it took me ages to post it but I was sick sinc last Monday.