Everything has an end but the scorns of the past will always be the scars of the present .
And my past haunts me and I do my best to defy it .
No matter how much the night longs to flaunt the moon in its arms forever , it will have to let go when it is time for the sun to rise . There is no forever for anything .
I had my selfish purpose when I left home which benefitted only me . Now I have a purpose : To make things right . To fight my past and to find myself again .
And the stepping stone in doing it is Kai. I was terrified to see him in my life again but now I am glad that he is here . I've found a new reason to pursue my life .
I believe that I can earn Kai Hiwatari's trust because there is no forever to his hatred . At least he hates me so I know that I am something to him . These few days I've seen him stick my picture in a dartboard and throw darts at it taking out his anger on it and eventually disfiguring my picture .
He knows that I had been there looking at him while he struck those darts and I have seen him smirk each time he did that . May be he thought that I would cry over it and curse my entire existence .
Well ... he was partially correct . If I wouldn't have existed then he wouldn't have experienced the bitter reality of life . But since I exist and he has felt the pain , I am glad that my existence brings out the bottled pain in him . Even my sight is abhorred by him to a point that he let's go his frustration which was caged in him since a long time . At least I can bring out the hatred in him that has been suffocating him and I am glad that only I can do that to him .
I am happy for this fate I have .
After all I am of someone's use .
It was my fault that kai had been through so much and now it is my responsibility to make things right . To human the inhuman Kai Hiwatari . Haha .. sounds cliche right ? But I will not give up . Not now . Not ever . And even if I have to defy the fates , I WILL DEFY IT .
--much love --
Your Phi.
She folded the paper and put it inside the pocket of her leather jacket and wiped her tear stricken face .
" Don't let your pride win over your life " Fulmina's words rang in her ears for the umpteenth time and now she knew what she meant by it .
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Defying The Fates
Fanfiction××××××× " Arrogance may earn you name but it will never earn you the happiness life has to offer " These were the words spoken by his 'Phi' long ago which made him really believe those words . But he knew was that in a world full of secrets...
