antagonized :: andrews

Baking scones or baking homes?

This morning was an especially quiet morning. I stood up from the bed and quickly got dressed. I walked down the stairs, expecting to find Gilbert, but he was nowhere to be found.

I walked to the dining table, finding a note;

Dear Abby,

I'm at the Gillis household helping to build up the house if you need me.

Gilbert

I sighed and walked over to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I was starting to make a sandwich when I heard a knock on the door.

I opened the door, confused as of why someone was at my door so early. My confusion cleared up as I saw Diana, Anne and Ruby standing on the porch.

"Oh, good morning girls" I said with a smile. "Good morning Abigail!" They replied with a smile.

"Are you free today?" Ruby asked sweetly. I looked at her "I suppose so, why?".

The girls looked at each other and answered "well, we where thinking of baking something for the boys since they're working so hard"

I shrugged and grabbed my coat and shoes "I don't see a reason not to".

We arrived at Anne's house and started baking. After an hour and a half we where finished baking 25 golden scones for the working people. We walked over to the house which looked horrible.

Everyone stopped on the outside of the lawn, tears brimming Ruby's eyes as her home was ruined. I gave her a little push and said "come on, let's give these scones to Gilbert".

The push was apparently not that little and Ruby ended up tripping over a rock and fell to the ground. My hand went straight to my mouth "oh my, I am so sorry" i apologized. I went to help her up, but saw Gilbert helping her instead.

We had put the scones in our baskets and I went to give the guys some. When I had only two left I went over to Billy. "Do you want one?" I asked him. He looked up at me and smirked "I see you're finally coming to me. What happened to the fact that you didn't like me?" He stated.

I rolled my eyes and started to walk away. Boys..

"Look, I'm sorry. That was pretty rude" he said apologizing. "You think?" I said back while handing him a scone. I sat down beside him while I ate the last one.

"I'm sorry about your mother" he said looking at me, but I kept looking at the house. "I'm sure she loved you very much, how could you not" The last part was almost inaudible and makes me wonder if he actually said anything.

"Yeah, sure" I mumbled before walking away. Talking about my mother made me feel uneasy, even though talking with Billy made me feel strangely confertable.

I walked away from the house, ignoring the calls for me. I went straight home, not even caring that I forgot my basket.

As I came home I went straight into John's room. I sat down by the edge of the bed, tears running down my cheeks while John was stroking my hair and saying comforting words.

I wasn't crying because my mother was gone. Not because she was dead and never coming back, even though how much that hurt. I was crying because I didn't have a mother that loved me. I knew she did, deep deep deep inside. But she didn't show it, at all. And that hurt me more than a porcelain plate to my face ever did.

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I woke up in my own bed. I don't remember getting up into bed, but I'm assuming Gilbert came home and carried me upstairs. I walked over to my mirror and started to brush through my knotted hair. I splashed my face with some water and I looked at myself.

God. I looked awful. I had probably been tossing and turning all night from a nightmare that I know could not remember. After looking at myself, I walked over to my closet.

I took out my burgundy dress that I had gotten the other day. I examined it before putting it on slowly. After patting it down a bit I looked at myself in the mirror. The dress was wonderful and seemed to take attention from my tired face. I pulled my hair back in a half up half down tying it with a matching lace.

I went downstairs and saw Gilbert standing there, drinking some milk while reading the news. He looked up at me surprised, but his look quickly softened.

"How are you feeling Abby?" He asked carefully. "exhausted" I answered truthfully and grabbed an apple.

"You ready to go?" I asked him, eager to get out of the house. Gilbert nodded and grabbed his stuff and we started walking together.

When we arrived at school many of the students stared at me. All of the boys and some of the girls. The girls being Ruby, Anne and Diana.

The girls came over to me and asked "how  are you feeling?" Their voices laced with sympathy. I just shrugged my shoulders and smiled "I'm fine" I said as I walked away.

There was still a couple minutes til school started and I was standing behind the school, pushing the snow around with my feet when I heard a noice. The crunching noice of snow being stepped on.

I quickly turned around and I saw Billy standing there. A week ago I would be annoyed and slightly scared of him standing there, but now I only felt relaxed and comfortable. Like weights had been lifted of my shoulders.

While I had been thinking I must have been staring straight into his eyes, because he suddenly looked away. His face slightly blushing. Blushing?

"Uh, I have your basket" he said sheepishly. Stepping forward while handing me the basket.

"Thank you" i took the basket out of his hands. We stood there for a little while in silence. "How are you feeling?" Billy asked suddenly.

"I'm fine-" I started, but he interrupted me "cut the crap, how do you really feel?". While speaking Billy stepped forward and he was now standing really close to me.

"It feels like I can't breathe. Like however much air I breathe in it will never be enough. I'm constantly suffocating and I can't do it anymore" I said, my voice shaking.

Billy stepped closer and wrapped his arms around me. My head leaning against his chest, tears running down my cheeks. He held me for what seemed an eternity and I finally felt like I could breathe again. That lump in my throat was gone.

I slowly released myself from his grip. His arms lingering at my waist. I smiled at him, not knowing what else to do.

We started walking towards the front of the school and we both became equally as confused when all the kids where no where to be found.

Realization dawned on me when I realized that school had started. I unintentionally grabbed Billy's hand after me as I ran into the building.

"We're late!"

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Finally I'm posting again! Sorry I've been gone, but I didn't have the urge to write.

I'm on vacation right now and we don't have any WiFi for a week so I will post many chapters at once.

Anywayyys, aLOT happened in this chapter with lots of cute moments between Billy and Abby (shipname?)

Hope you enjoyed! <3