Don't Do It

Left Out

I don't think you know how it feels. To be left out, to not get asked to come out with you, to not even be able to take part. It hurts. It hurts so much.

You say you're my friends but you're really not. You have conversations with me but just walk off when it suits. Why don't you just learn how to be loyal?

I want you to stay with me but when I hear about all this time you don't want me it's hard. Really hard. I just need someone to be there. Someone to want me and someone to like me.

Maybe you want someone to be there, maybe I'm not the one. We could try; if it doesn't work we'll move on but maybe we can be friends.

I see you standing there with all your 'friends' and I think  why am I just sat here watching? I need to do something but you will keep ignoring me. It feels wrong to tell you how I feel but I know I have too.

You don't know how it feels to be all by yourself in free time. You don't know how it feels not to be invited to meetings between the group, which I thought I was in. You need to stop and think about the pain your causing me and notice me.

We might have had problems in the past but do you not think it's time to forget them? It must be nice being you with your beautiful relationship, your amazing looks and the time that you can spend with the people that you want to. I can't do that.

You sit there laughing between you but you still can't see my sadness. I miss what we used to be and want it back. I guess you don't want me anymore. I guess I should find new friends. I can't.

I keep looking at you and I can see the love for the rest of your friends that I once had. It's hard, I can't move on from you because of how much you meant to me and what we went through but I guess that's forgotten now.

But then you approached me again, I didn't know what do. We started talking and then you invited me out with you. I couldn't deny the off but I was worrying what was going to happen this time. I had to do it. It was my chance to change what had happened.

We went out that night and I had such a good time but you started to do it again. Why can you not talk to them within this group? Do you really have to whisper? Just tell the group what you think. It's horrible you're probably laughing about me and I don't like it. If you're going to keep doing it I can't be your friend.

I guess you didn't change so I'll find someone that will. They will listen to me, tell me secrets and trust me. That's what real friends do because friends are there for each other.