B. U. D. D. Y. S

Chapter 32: Regret

**weeks later**
•Jasmine🌼 POV•

These past few weeks have been the best since me and Dwayne started back to talking. Me and him have been having great make up sex.

And it hasn't been like a the other times these times where better and more passionate. My feelings were starting to come...I mean they never left but they where tucked down and now them motha fuckas wanna pop out outta no where. I can't fall for him again....and I won't.

Right now I'm at my house with the kids in the living room watching them play while Dwayne's in the kitchen making them snacks.

"Aww jr don't hang your brother by his underwear like that" I said as I got up and walked over to them to take jack off of the hook. "He deserves it be put mr. bunny in the toilet and flushes him down now he some where floating on Mexico's beach" Dwayne said as he crossed his arms. "Y'all are both wrong now say sorry to each other" I said sternly. They didn't know which one was going to go first. "Jack how bout you start" I said looking at jack. "But momma I-" I interrupted him.

"No no no you go first you flushed the bunny down the toilet now you go first" I said. He looked at me then pouted. "Keep looking at me like that and imma hang ya little ass back on the hook" I said to him. He sighed and stared talking. "I'm sorry Dwayne..." he said which made me smile. "I'm sorry that your my brother pop head" he said while laughing. I smacked him across the butt. "Ow mommy" he said while holding his butt. "Say sorry and I mean it jack." I said. "Okay okay I sorry that I flushed bunny down da toilet...do you forgive me?" He asked Dwayne. "Yes I do and I'm sorry too" jr said. They hugged and everything.

"Aww that's what I'm talkin about boys" I said as I kissed there foreheads. They giggled. "Come on jack let's go play with our trains" jr said as they ran away from me. "AYE NO RUNNING AND PLAY NICE!!" I yelled after them then I went in the kitchen to look at what Dwayne was doing.

"Hey you" I said to him as I walked up to him. "Oh hey beautiful" he said as he put the butter knife down and walked up to me and kissed on my neck. I moved away from him not wanting to start anything.

He looked at me weird but shook it off. "So I was thinking about us getting back together....what do you think about that?" He asked.

"Oh umm I don't think that's such a good idea" as I shook my head side to side. "Huh? Why not? What are you afraid of?" He asked.

"Oh um nothing...I'm not not ready to be in a relationship again." I said shrugging. "But your not in a relationship with anybody else but me so why don't you want to be in a relationship?" He asked looking at me.

"Look Dwayne just drop it okay?" I asked him. "Hell no I'm not finna just drop it....you didn't just drop it 10 years ago when you was pressuring me to tell you about Kayla did you?" He asked. "Now last low don't you dare bring up the past" I said pointing a finger up at him. "Then tell me why don't you want to be with me!!" He said raising his voice.

"IM JUST NOT READY I TOLD YOU THAT!!" I yelled at him. He looked at me with anger I didn't give a fuck cuz he was pissing me off too.

"THEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU AFRAID OF...HUH?!?...I LOVE YOU DON'T YOU SEE THAT?!?" He yelled at me.

"THAT...." I said. "THAT RIGHT THERE IS WHAT IM AFRAID OF.....YOU LOVING ME." I yelled as tears started to fall. "IM SCARED TO TRUST YOU BECAUSE YOU BROKE ME LAST TIME AND THAT SHIT HURT.....IT HURT AND THE FUCKED UP PART ABOUT IT WAS THAT I STILL FUCKING LOVED YOU....I STILL CARED FOR YOU....I WAS STILL UP AT NIGHT FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT YOU...YOU BROKE ME LAST TIME AND WASN'T ANYBODY HERE TO HELP ME PICK UP THE PECIES...TELL ME DWAYNE HOW DO YOU FIX A BROKEN HEART....HUH?....YOU CANT ANSWER THAT SHIT CAN YOU?!?...I HATE YOU....I HATE YOU SO MUCH...I HATE YOU SO MUCH BECAUSE I PUT SO MUCH INTO YOU AND US AND A COUPLE....I MOVED AWAY FROM MY FAMILY FOR YOU...AND WHEN YOUR DAD DIED WHO WAS THERE FOR YOU...?......ME I WAS THROUGH EVERY STEP OF THE WAY BUT WHEN SHIT DON'T GO YOUR WAY YOU WANT TO BLOW UP IN PEOPLES FACES...WELL YOU NOT ABOUT TO BREAK ME AGAIN.....GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE...NOW!!!" I yelled at him as I tried to catch my breath. My tears where coming down like waterfalls.

He looked at me for a long ass time before he left. He walked out and I hit the counter out of frustration. I slid down the side of the wall and cried.

What will I do now....

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