Painful love[bl]

Chapter 5

"Tell me you're awake. Tell me you're here, that you have things to say to me. Tell me you need me, tell me that without me it's no longer the same. Tell me it's hard to ignore me, it's hard to pretend. tell me that I am the love of your life, tell me that you want me, that you want to kiss me, that you never want to try to forget me again. Tell me You missed me, that you really love me, that you're in love with me. Tell me you love me and no one else. Tell me that you need me, that I am the only person to make you smile when you cry. I beg you, tell me that you love me."

-QingYu

         QingYu gazed at the enchanting man that was trembling so violently as if he had seen a horrifying monster,and his frown couldn't help but deepen.
Usually whenever Yu Yan saw him, the happiness and disgusting excitement in his eyes could not be canceled.
But this time, all he could perceive from those beautiful blue saphir eyes was shock, and...fear?
What the...?
This wasn't the only strange thing, Qing Yu saw and heard everything that happened a while ago.
The way that man gazed at his one and only son, his eyes were filled with immense love, how he explained what was it like to be a parent  , in a way that you wouldn't doubt just how amazing of a mother he really was.
QingYu knew how Yu Yan treated his son, and he planned to drive Yu Yan out, he was just waiting for the perfect opportunity. His son deserved a better mother.
But...
remembering the joy and happiness Zhi Ruo's face showed a while ago,it was absolutely impossible. It would not make Zhi Ruo happy,  on the contrary, he would start hating me.
And That's the last thing QingYu wanted.
So what should I do?
But a thought suddenly came to him.
No no no.
QingYu refused to believe that this man had actually changed, he was a hundred percent sure that this was another of his schemes.
Yes, he was only using Zhi Ruo to get closer to me.
But even though he was certain about this, he couldn't help but glance at those white jade hands.
No matter how great you were at acting, it would not be able to reach this level.
The fear in his eyes was way to real.
And so, right now, QingYu was trying his best to figure out why.
Why was he so afraid of himself.
         QingYu thought about a lot of things, but it was only a matter of seconds.
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Even though Yu Yan was too shocked, he quickly regained his composure, his hands were still trembling but he seemed to not mind.
He immediately kneeled to greet his imperial majesty "greeting, your majesty" Yu Yan tried his best to keep his voice from shaking.
"Ah, father!" Zhi Ruo exclaimed as he ran towards his dad, planning to hug him.
QingYu may be a cold and uncaring person to everyone around him, but towards his only son, you would only see a loving father with a loving smile on his face.
The smile that only Zhi Ruo and that man were able to see.
Yu Yan suddenly remembered how hard he tried, in his last life, to receive that kind of smile.
But at the end, it was all in vain.
I really was a fool.
Without noticing it, a sad smile formed on his face.
But QingYu, that was busy talking with his son, as well as Minah, did see it.
Minah was very worried, she thought that her master would be happy to see his imperial majesty, yet he was showing such a sad expression.
While QingYu was once again extremely confused, why? Why was he acting like this?
Probably, at that time, he choose to ignore it, but, deep,deep inside him, QingYu knew that something, no, perhaps, everything changed.
But well, that's a story for another time.

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I'm so sorry that today's update is this short, but I sincerely couldn't find the time to write, I have been so busy this days because we're moving to a new house.
This coupled with my modeling training, it was so hard to find time to write.
Anyway, thank you all so very much for your support in the comment section , it really means a lot 😊😊😊.
Oh, I nearly forgot:
Have a great back to school.😝😝😝