"I know you are there... open the door. Honey is midnight you should rest, why you keep waking up? Do you feel okay? I'm here for you, you know that right? Please come with me, I'll hug you until you sleep".
Season 2 from "The Feeling of Ending".
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I haven't counted the months, nor the days but I do know that it's been a while since she started to have those nightmares and since she started to get away from me. I keep repeating myself that she'll be alright and no matter what she's thinking of I need to be there by her side, I love her and that's why I'm not losing my patience but sometimes I wish I could know what she dreams of at night that keeps her awake and away from me.
-Are you okay? – Eunwoo asked concerned while he patted my shoulder.
-Just stressed out – I said while faking a settle smile.
-You fought with Y/N again? – Eunwoo asked.
-We didn't fought, I just lost my patience – I said before I sighed while our stylist started to fix my hair for the today's performance.
-You should ask her why she doesn't tell you her nightmares – Eunwoo suggested.
-I had tried that for almost a month or so, and she doesn't say anything. Just that she sees us with Juliet and that's it – I said a bit frustrated.
-Well, maybe you could ask MJ-hyung.
-Every time we talk about Y/N he tells me that she hasn't talked with him – I said confused.
-I'm just saying because I heard him telling the manager that he needed to see Y/N after the performance – Eunwoo said right before the stylist was done with my hair. –Let's go, it's time to see Arohas – Eunwoo said with a smile as he patted my back.
-*Sigh* let's go – I said as I released a settle smile.
*TIME LATER*
The presentation is over and we already left the stage, right now we are in the company once again preparing the new song we have prepared for Arohas, but since I forgot the music sheet with the melody at my house. Eunwoo and I are back at my house, we just came fast and we'll leave right after we get the music sheet.
-Where is the melody? – Eunwoo asked as I closed the front door.
-I left it on top of the piano, there in the living room – I said while pointing at the living room when suddenly I heard voices coming from the kitchen. "She didn't went to work?" – I thought. I slowly started to walk towards the kitchen and then I just stood outside of it, I reloaded my back against the wall since I saw MJ there.
-Are you truly trying to tell him? – MJ asked concerned.
-I do! Every freaking day I try MJ! – Y/N said desperately.
-I believe you, okay? – MJ said as he tried to calm her down. –So what are you going to do then? You can keep hurting him.
-I kept thinking about the same thing all over again – Y/N said concerned while her voice started to crack. –Maybe I should break up with him-. As soon as I heard that my heart stopped, I'm literately speechless.
-Moonbin, we should go... you heard enough – Eunwoo said concerned as he started to pat my back.
-Let's go – I said while tears started to go down my face. Immediately the two of us got out of the house and without even thinking about it I smashed the front door, and then he got towards the car.
-I'll drive – Eunwoo said worried while opening the door from the front seat.
-I can do it perfectly – I said sadly.
-Moonbin-ah you can't, let me do it – Eunwoo said while looking at me as he held my shoulders.
-Let's just get away from here – I said while getting inside the car and right after that Eunwoo drove back to the company.
*NIGHT TIME*
-Y/N's POV-
-You haven't talked to me, is everything alright? – You asked him while looking at him worried.
-Should I answer that? – Moonbin asked as he looked at you upset.
-It's okay if you don't want to – You said surprised as you head down your sight. Moonbin stood up from his seat and he was about to go but you stopped him by taking his hand.
-I'll go to sleep, is too late – Moonbin said bitter.
-I know you heard us – You said while closing your eyes which made your tears drop down your cheeks. Moonbin immediately stopped moving and then he just took a deep breath.
-A break up, really? I never thought you felt this way after everything we've been through – Moonbin said madly as he looked at you.
-I'm sorry – You said while your tears kept running down.
-At least just tell me something Y/N, do you really loved me back then? Or you just helped me out because you were sorry? – Moonbin asked, you didn't answered him and instead you just let go his hand.
-I'm just scared – You murmured while looking down to the floor, then you pressed your fists tight until you felt a warm embrace around your body.
-If you don't speak out I can't understand you, how many times do we need to fight for you to tell me your fears? – Moonbin asked as a whisper, then he got apart from you and started to walk upstairs.
The night started to pass by and you haven't went with Moonbin upstairs since you took a pill to sleep tonight, sometimes you aren't able to sleep so you need to take those pills. Currently you are going upstairs feeling dizzy and jus sleepy since you took the pill earlier, luckily you made it to the room and to your place on the bed. You started to cover up yourself with the bed sheets and then you just turned around to see him sleeping.
-I'm sorry, I know I messed up – You whispered while caressing his hair. –I do love you – You said before you kissed his cheek gently. Then you got right to your place and slept, it feels kind of awkward since you never slept with Moonbin without solving out a problem that as usual you caused. You know you have to change and this nightmares are just taking the best of you and your relationship with everyone, and maybe Carol and your brother are right. Maybe you need help, maybe you need someone to guide you to the right path which will help you to retake everything you stopped doing for those stupid nightmares, and the most important thing you want to retake is the happiness you once shared with Moonbin and that love that both of you craved for a long time.
