broken maknae,, j.jk x bts

6

A few months later

After a few months, Jimin kind of stopped hitting me, but he still does it once in a while, that's not the only thing that stopped. My Hyung's love for me stopped too. 

They stopped talking to me. They stopped including me in things. Sometimes I think that they forgot about me. 

On camera, we act like a family, but at home not so much. I eat a small portion of something like an apple or banana to keep up my energy, but I only eat when I need too. 

I got out of the shower and looked at my body through the mirror. I had a lot of red marks all over my body. Lately, the voices got louder and angrier.  They still sound like My Hyung's. 

Bang PD-min is having us write our own songs for the album coming out with our comeback. I wrote more than 1 I have 7. I wrote them for everyone. I wrote them as if it was them. It's like a gift for them. I wrote the notes and everything for my song, they have to do that though. 

Suga Hyung he just never talked to me after that day they started to hate me. Hobi Hyung, I don't even know if I can call him that anymore, glares at me and knocks shoulders with me when we walk past each other. 

They'll do a Vlive together all I can do is watch. I never get invited by the other member anymore. Taehyung-Hyung goes to Jimin Hyung now not me. 

I don't go on Twitter because I get so much hate. Jin Hyung makes everyone meals and he never makes me anything. He doesn't watch me up like he used too. Namjoon Hyung hits me sometimes not as hard as Jimin Hyung, but still hard enough to leave a mark. 

When I joined BTS I was scared that my Hyungs would stop loving me. That was my biggest fear. It came true and now I broke even more. I don't know what I did wrong, but I wish I could take whatever it was back. 

I walked out of the bathroom and got dressed. I put on a black long sleeved shirt, black pants, and a black t-shirt with a picture on it over the other black shirt. I walked out of my room and to the van waiting for us. 

I was the first in so I sat in the very back with headphones on. I wasn't listening to anything but I just like to think that my Hyungs aren't talking joyfully without me. My phone was in my back pocket and it started to vibrate. I pulled it out and saw Yugyeom trying to call me. I declined the call and messaged him instead. 

I told him I was at practice and couldn't talk. He asked if I wanted to come over after practice and I accepted his offer of having Mark Hyung come and pick me up. It was 6:30 and practice is going to end at 4:30. 

We got to the bighit building and we walked to the practice room. Once we got there, we stretched. We danced for 2 hours with no break and then we had a break. We had vocal lessons and recording for 2 and a half hours, then had a meeting with the CEO, and then went back to dance practice. The guys fooled around while I watched. I sat in the corner of the room. It was 4 o'clock so I had 30 minutes before Mark got here. 

Bang PD walked into the practice room and said we could leave early today. I got up and walked over to him and asked,"Could I stay and practice for a little while longer,"He let me and he left with the others. 

I practiced a few dance moves when my phone buzzed. Mark was calling, I answered the call and said Hi.

Jungkook: Hi

Mark: Hi kookie, I'm outside the building right now, Yugyeom and Jinyoung are in the car waiting 

Jungkook: Okay I'll be right down Hyung

Jungkook: Bye 

Mark: Bye Kookie

End call

I walked out of the practice room and to the elevator. I got to the bottom floor and walked out of the lobby. I saw Marks car with Mark standing outside of it waiting. It's been a while since I visited the Got7 dorms. 

"Marky,"I said with a smile.

"Kookie, how are you," He asked. 

"I'm good you,"I said still smiling. 

"I'm good," He said. He walked over to me and opened the back seat door. I hopped in and sat next to Yuygeom.

We drove to their dorm and talked. I left after an hour of being there. I got dropped off at my dorm and walked in. Everyone was in the kitchen eating. I walked to my room and took another shower. I added a few new scares to the collection on my body and then cleaned them.