broken maknae,, j.jk x bts

13

"I feel like I'm breathing my last breath,"

J.JK

Lukie and I spent a week cuddling and showing each other much needed friendly love. I felt like I was loved for the first time in a while.

I wish it didn't have to end so quickly. It feels as if I just got out of the hell hole yesterday. I don't really want to go back to the dorm.

He colored my hair. It was random but we colored it a dark red. It's really pretty. I love it.

I haven't heard the voices for a long time. I'm really happy about that. I remember the day I met Baekhyun and Donghyuk I heard the voices in the main room. I had started scratching at my ears and head. They came over and asked me what was wrong and cared for me.

I am now in the car with Luke. We were just sitting in a comfortable silence. He then said out of nowhere, "Jungkookie can you sing me a song, "He didn't look at me any longer than a second.

Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath
Feeling like I'm walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I've wept
Look at all the promises that I've keptI put my heart into your hands
Here's my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You're not hard to reach
And you've blessed me with the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you've given me purposeThinking my journey's come to an end, oh
Sending out a farewell to my friends
For inner peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins
Oh, would you please?
I'm more than grateful for the time we spent
My spirit's at ease

I looked at Lukie and saw tears in his eyes."Jungkook, you are an angel, never let anyone bring you down," Luke said.

"I'll try, Lukie, "I said.

"Love you Kookie,"

"Love you Lukie,"

Luke stopped the car and got out. He walked to my side. He opened the door and I got out. I wrapped my arms around Luke's waist and hugged him. I had tears running down my face. 

"Kookie we shouldn't cry this won't be the last time seeing each other," Lukie said. 

"I know I'm just going to miss you Hyung, "I said. 

"And I'll miss you too Kookie," Luke said letting go of Kookie, "Now go to your Hyung's and if the hurt you call Yugyeom and then me ok," He said looking at me.

"Ok, Hyung,"I said. I hugged him one last time and walked to the building. I got to the dorm and knocked.

I heard mumbling inside and saw Jin Hyung standing at the door."Kookie, your back," He said happily. 

I walked in the dorm walked past Namjoon Hyung and to my room. It was the same as when I left it. I put my small bag down and locked my door. 

I had nothing really to do so I walked into the bathroom and took a shower. I got out and looked at my body. Oh, this feels all too familiar. 

I have scars all over my body. It makes me sad to think about it. I got dressed in a light pink oversized sweatshirt a pink beanie and black ripped jeans. 

I opened my desk drawer and didn't see my sketchbook. Oh no. I'm sure I left it right here. I start to panic."NO, NO, NO, NO, No, NO, NO, NO, No," I yelled.

I heard knocking on the door."Kookie Honey can you unlock the door it's me, it Jinnie Hyung,"

I got up and unlocked the door. I opened it and saw Jin standing there looking worried. He walks into the room and shuts the door."Sit on the bed please," He said.

I sat down and he stood in front of me. He pulled my shirt off and looked over my body."Okay, your good I thought when I heard you yelling you had hurt yourself," He said. My cheeks were redder than an apple. 

I thought I lost the feeling I had for my band mates but no. I was still sitting shirtless next to Jin Hyung. We were sitting in an awkward silence until the door opened and I saw Hoseok Hyung smiling.

"Kookie your bac-"He stopped when he saw me shirtless on the bed," Sorry if I interrupted something," He said and walked out of the room and shut the door. I heard him say to someone out in the hall,"Don't go in Jin Hyung is busy with him,"

"Did Hoseok Hyung think we're were doing you know what, "I asked.

"Yep, "Jin Hyung said looking at me. There was something in his eyes."Well, I have to go,"He suddenly said and walked out of the room. 

He left my room and shut the door. I put my sweatshirt back on and walked out of my room. I walked past the living room and was about to walk out the door when I heard a voice behind me, "Kookie were you going, "I turned around and saw Jimin Hyung.

"Out, "I snapped.

"Joonie Hyung said not to let you leave without him or one of us, "He said.

"Well, I don't fucking care about what Namjoon said, "I snapped at Jimin. 

"Namjoon, Jungkook's trying to leave,"Jimin yelled.

"Jungkook you can't leave,"Namjoon yelled while he ran down the stairs. 

"Why,"I snapped.

"Because It not safe out there at night," He said back.

"How are you going to stop me,"I said.

"Like this,"He pulled me over his shoulder and walked upstairs and brought me to Jin's room.

He opened the door and put me next to Jin on his bed."Keep Jungkook in here, "Namjoon said and before Jin could be asked why or protest Namjoon left.