broken maknae,, j.jk x bts

11

J.JK

I walked into the room and saw the Hyung I've wanted to see for a while. I missed Yoongi Hyung so so so so sooooo much. I didn't want to go alone so I brought my 'bodyguards' with. Everyone thinks they're my bodyguards because I always walk either in the middle walking one after another or side to side.

I go everywhere in this hell hole with them. If I hadn't had Kuanlin before I would have been friends with these two right away.

I sat in the middle of them and in front of Yoongi.

I heard them introducing themselves after Yoongi eyed them both suspiciously.

"I'm Baekhyun,"

"I'm Donghyuk,"

"And you know Jungkook,"

They are really protective of me. They know everything about me. More than Got7 even. They were both abused by a parent at a young age and had someone betray them. Baekhyun used to cut and Donghyuk burned himself. Baekhyun was found trying to jump off a bridge by a friend and he got brought here. Donghyuk's mom found him about to hang himself and she sent him here.

I've done both in the past but realized I liked the feeling of cutting more than the stinging feeling of burning yourself. They were here for a week before I came here. They were brought here a day apart.

"Yoongi Hyung why are you here, I'm sure you don't miss me. No one does, "I said with no emotion. I've never thought of Him as one to cry.

"Kookie I miss you so so so sooo much. We aren't the same without you, "He had tears forming in his eyes.

"Well Yoongi, I never wanted to come here, I thought it would be lonely, but turns out I get more attention here than with my own bandmates," I yelled slightly.

"I loved you Yoongi, you never knew and you're made it disappear," he was almost crying. Good, he needs to know how much he and the other 5 hurt me. I pulled the sleeve of my shirt up and said, "Look at my arms, this is because I felt unloved, unneeded, worthless, I let the voices take over because of you 6."

"I'm sorry, Kookie, please just forgive me, I've been trying to get you out, I take with the CEO, the manager, everyone at BigHit, but they all think you need to be here for the full 6 months, I think that you would do better at home. No, I know that you would be better back home," He said as if he really meant it.

"I forgive you Hyung, but I will never never forget what you did, "I said.

The rest of the time we just told each other how we had been for the past few months. Yoongi and the two goofballs here are ok, they're still mad at the group.

Yoongi left and we walked back to our rooms. I think the nurses are more lenient with me because I'm a famous Idol. Like one of the guys could stay in my room overnight and they wouldn't care.

We just talked for a while and cuddled to sleep.  As I've established before many times I have to be shown love or else the voices mack a comeback and I don't want that. 

I cried after Baekhyun feel asleep. There was no reason. Or that's what I thought. I really wish my Hyungs would all come to visit me not just one. 

Believe me, I'm happy that Yoongi came here and talked with me but I want someone I haven't been crushing on to come here. Oh my gosh. I told Yoongi I had loved him. I started to cry harder. 

I feel asleep with tear-stained cheeks.