I [hate] love you

Flashback

"How are you" I thought about lying to him for a few seconds but truth is I've already lied to him too much "as fuck" "sounds nice" "it is". He has a beautiful smile, specially when he's nervous or he doesnt know what to say, is it normal? I just can't stop thinking about him, he always know what to say. "What happened? " "just a small fight with my dad, that's it" he stared at me and then smiled "don't" suddenky that smile disapeard, it was gone like if I had punched him on the face "I hate you" " I hate you too" after that answer he just left, like I was not even there, talking to him.

*flashback*

Fan-fucking-tastic, another day at school, I wonder if the creator of school ever thought of killing himself for doing suck a stupid invention "MOM! CAN I GO TO DARREN'S HOUSE AFTER SCOOOOOOOL?" "NOOOOO, YOU KNOW YOUR DAD ARRIVES TODAY""he's not my dad" "come on honey..." I grabbed an apple, kissed my mom, smile to her and left. It wasn't a lot untill the bus arrived, so I just got up and sat on the last sitt, I'm usually sitting here with Darren, but he lives a few blocks from me. I putted on my headphones and listen to my favorite idiot proof song, paranoid*.

Everything was great , until I feel someone sitting next to me, I looked up and there was him, school's sexiest guy, or the way we call him school's biggest dickhead "hey hailey, how's my favorite lesbian?" " I was good, but since you showed up I'm great, there's nothing better than speanding my time with someone that looks that much as a barbie" "where's the other emo? Is he ignoring you? Like the rest of the school?" to he honest it took me a few seconds before finding the perfect sarcastic answer, but at the end I got it "yeah, actually he's also getting a nose job, to be a fake dickhead like you" in that moment ken's barbie showed up "babe why are you talking to her?" He tirned arround and smiled to her, uhg that smile, it was horrible "I was alredy leaving honey" and that's was it, he left.

The bus stopped in front or darren's house but he didn't showed up; I really wanted to shoot myself, Darren was not coming to school?! It was going to be a looooooong day, but at least I had two hours of history. The bus arrived to school and everyone got down of it as if there was a hungry lion on it, I tried to run but I was pushed by the crow and forsed to stay on the inside of the bus, on my earphones "bulls in bronx" by pirce the veil was playing. Then I finally got off the bus and walk pretty fast to my locker