springday.

Crimson memories

"It has been three days and he still hasn't woken up!" I shouted at Hobi while we were waiting in the waiting room. "Shhh." He said and pulled me closer. I really thought he'd be mad at me, but instead he was understanding and patient. "Everything is gonna be okay, he'll be okay." He whispered. Namjoon had returned with drinks for us. Everyone was feeling down. There was news everywhere that Jungkook had been hit by the car. The car accident.

"Your friend has woken up" Said the doctor that came out of his room a couple of minutes ago. We quickly got up and rushed to his room. The moment he saw us he lit up. "Heyooo guys I love you" He said half asleep half awake. "Who is this girl?" He asked confused. It was like a knife had been thrown at me and hit my heart with full force. "Y-you don't remember me?" I almost whispered trying not to cry. He shook his head. "It's alright, the doctor said he suffered from Amnesia, it will be over soon." Said Hoseok comforting. "Yes, we remember you! And until he does too we'll take care of you." Said Jin and smiled a heartwarming smile to me.

"Hiii!" We suddenly heard a high pitched voice behind us. It was a girl I've never seen before. She was gorgeous, had long silky black hair, puffy lips, double eyelids and a light voice. "What are you doing here Cistel?" Asked Namjoon with a suspicious look. "Who's Cistel?" I asked confused. "Oh hun, let me introduce myself. I am Cistel, Jungkook's girlfriend." She said with a sugary smile. "Ex" stated Yoongi and glared at her. "They broke up last week because this hoe here cheated on him" he added.

"Watch your mouth Yoongi" she snapped back. "As if" he snapped back at her. "You need to leave" Said Jimin and pushed her out the door. "I'm not done yet!" She yelled from the hallway. I was completely shocked. "But he can't remember that?" I whispered. Hobi noticed and gave me a hug. "It's alright, we won't let him get back with that horrible girl"

Jungkook just sat there and stared at us. "Why would you do that Jimin?" He asked confused. "Listen up, you suffer from A-M-N-E-S-I-A" Said Yoongi completely done with this shit. "I know, but I love Cistel" he said with a pouty face.  "I hate to break it to you, but she cheated on you. Surprise" Yoongi added. "No need to be so harsh Yoongi" shushed Jin. "What? I'm simply telling the truth"

Jin gave him a death glare and he quickly shut his mouth. "Well, even if what you guys are saying is true. I still can't remember it. And I really do love her!" He said and tried to get up. "Why is Cistel here anyways?" Asked Jimin. "She probably heard that he suffered from Amnesia and decided to get him back" Said Namjoon. They all looked pretty down and I completely understood why. I tried my best to smile and say that atleast he was awake and healthy but- I knew deep in my heart that it stung.

He couldn't remember me.

"It's getting late, we should let Jungkookie get some rest" Said Hobi and touched my shoulder. He looked at me with concern in his eyes. I nodded silently. "We'll be back tomorrow." I whispered. Jungkook smiled. It was weird seeing him so innocent, he really had no idea what was going on. For him, I was a stranger that the other members had brought in. And Cistel was the love of his life. Maybe I should just let go?

We walked silently out of the room. Jin stayed to watch over him, and in some way it comforted me. Knowing he was safe. "Do you think he'll ever remember me?" I whispered to Hobi who was walking close to me. "I don't know.. I'm so sorry Nova." He whispered back. I squeezed his hand. I was confused, angry and sad at the same time. There was no way I was gonna let Jungkook get back with Cistel. 

Hobi followed me home after we got our stuff from the hotel room. "We're sorry we tricked you both." He said and tried to look regretful but couldn't help but smile. "It's okay I guess." I said and tried my best to smile, but failed. "He's gonna be okay, don't worry. I'll come check on you tomorrow okay?" He said. I didn't want him to leave, I didn't want to be alone right now. All this pain, I don't know what I'd do if I was alone.

I grabbed his sleeve. "Don't leave" I whispered. He stopped and looked at me. "If you wan't I can stay with you tonight?" He said with a concerned voice. I looked at the ground and nodded. We both went inside. "My apartment isn't that big and I have only one bed." I said quietly. "It's okay I'll sleep on the couch. Go get changed, you should get some sleep." He jumped into the sofa and tried to make himself comfortable. I nodded and went into the bathroom. I sighed. 

I changed into my PJ's, brushed my theets and went out. It didn't seem like he had any clothes with him so I threw a oversized hoodie to him. "Here, now you can get changed to. Are you hungry?" He smiled. "Thank you, and you should probably rest. We can eat together in the morning." He went into the bathroom. I went over to my bed and rolled the blanket around me so I looked like a sushi. But then I remembered I hadn't given Hobi a blanket so I shoot up and ran to the closet and pulled out the drawer. 

The blanket was light blue, I put it on the couch and went back to bed. Hobi got out from the bathroom without making a sound. He thought maybe I was asleep. I couldn't help but feel bad for him. He stayed the night and I let him sleep on the couch?!

"Hobi..." I whispered. "Shouldn't you be asleep Nova?" He whispered soft back. I stood up and walked over to the couch. "I want you to sleep next to me." I said with a certain voice, but immediately blushed. He smiled. "Not that way you pervert!" I said a little louder and jumped back into bed.

He giggled and walked over to me. I could feel his breath against my neck. I turned around and looked at him. His eyes were closed. And for a moment I forgot all the things that hurted me. I forgot that Kookie didn't remember me. I forgot that Cistel tried to steal him away. All I thought about was this beautiful human being sleeping in front of me. He had always been there for me, supported and cared for me. Yet I chose Kookie.

I knew I shouldn't feel guilty, but at the same time I did. I really did.