springday.

Removed feelings

I woke up next to Hoseok. He was sound asleep. I gazed at him, maybe a little too long. "How long are you gonna look at me with those eyes?" He asked so suddenly I almost jumped back. "I-I wasn't looking at you!" I said and crossed my arms. "If you say so." He said with a grin and yawned. "So what are you gonna do about Jungkook?" Asked Hoseok suddenly. I rolled around so he couldn't see my face. "I don't know" I whispered with a broken voice.

Hoseok got up and started preparing breakfast for us. "He is getting discharged from the hospital today." He said while he whipped the eggs. I let out a sight. Imagining Cistel in his arms. "I just can't believe that snake." I was hurt and angry while I rolled from side to side of the bed. Hoseok smiled and giggled. "Atleast you have me, right?" He said with a cocky smile. I threw a pillow at him. "Oh now you're gonna get it!" He said with a loud playful voice and threw it back at me.

When we were done eating we went outside for a walk when Hoseok got a call. "Yes? Ok, were coming over!" He said and hung up. "Jin has invited us back to the hotel to celebrate that Jungkook got out of the hospital! The best thing is that Jin is cooking. I just love Jin's cooking." Said Hoseok and started daydreamin. I giggled. "Let's go then!" I took his hand and ran.

We reached the hotel a couple of minutes later and went inside. "Welcome back Nova!" Jin said with a pink apron tied around his waist. I smiled and gave him a hug. He hugged me back and after that he went back to the kitchen. Everyone was sitting around the little table, Yoongi half asleep. Jimin on the phone, Tae pricking on Yoongi and- Jungkook and Cistel sitting together. I felt a sting in my heart and whispered to Hoseok. "What is Cistel doing here?" I asked. "I have no idea" He glared at Jimin who looked confused aswell. "The dinner is ready!" Said Jin and came out with a pot and placed it on the table.

Tae reached out for it when he got hit in the head with Jin's spatula. "Guests first!" He said while scolding Tae. "Owww I'm sorry!" Tae apologized with a pouty face. I giggled and waited for Cistel to reach out for a spoon. She happily took a spoonful and tasted the soup. "Mmmm delicious as always Jin" She said and smiled to him. "Thank you Cistel." He said, I sensed he was a bit annoyed but tried to act nice. 

We all sat together and ate in silence cause Cistel was always talking. Like, non stop. "So I saw this cute guy on the bus-"

"Oh! Yoongi remember in sixth grade when I borrowed your pencil and never gave it back?"

"This model agent wanted me to sign a two year-"

And I instantly knew that this was gonna be a looong night.

Three hours later and Cistel was still talking. I could see Yoongi resting his head on Jimin and Jimin resting his head on Jin. I think they both were asleep. Jin yawned and his eyes flickered. "Ok, thanks Cistel" I said. And she shut her mouth and glared at me. "And who are you?" She asked superior and threw her hair over her shoulder. I yawned. "I am the person who tells you to shut up" I said. I didn't regret it. Yoongi giggled and said "Damn."

I was tired of her talking for three hour straight and never keeping shut. She shot up and came walking towards me. "What did you say?" She asked angrily. Jin ran towards us. "Don't fight don't fight!" He said and pushed me behind him. "It's getting late, shouldn't you be on your way out?" He asked Cistel. She glared at him, and suddenly smiled. "Of course, thank you for the meal. I'll see you guys later." She said and sent us a flying kiss. "I'll see you later Jungkook." She said and winked as she went through the hotel door.

We all sighed and could finally breath. "Thanks for saving us." Said Jin and was completely exhausted. "That was rude Nova." Said Jungkook, brushed his clothes and went to his room. "Don't mind him, we are all grateful" said Jimin and walked after Jungkook. I sighed. "I should get going too. Thank you so much for the meal Jin I really appreciated it. Tell Jungkook I'm sorry." I said and was about to walk through the front door when Hoseok grabbed my hand. "I'll walk you home" He said with a smile.

When we reached my apartment he stepped out on my balcony with a camera. It was dawn and the sky was beautiful. "Stand there" He said and pointed at balcony wall. I did as I was told and posed with a cute V sign. "Wow stunning." He said while capturing every moment on the camera. "You + sunset = model" He laughed.

I imagined it was Jungkook for a second. But I realized then it was Hoseok. The guy that had always been there for me when I needed it the most.

I was grateful for having him by my side. And I knew he'd always be there for me, even if I chose Jungkook. He suddenly patted me on the head. "I should get going now." He said with a sad smile and placed his lips on my forhead. I blushed. All I could do was gaze into his beautiful eyes. Wanting this moment to last forever, even when I knew it couldn't.

He walked out and I was left alone, with my thoughts. They were running through my head and I needed to lay down a bit. Jungkook and Cistel had captured my mind and all I could think of was her placing her puffy lips on Jungkook's. I didn't eat much because to be honest I wasn't hungry at all but that was just my mind speaking. My stomach told be otherwise. I suddenly got so caught up in my thoughts it became too much for my tired brain I passed out.

I heard someone knocking at the door. But everything was black and I couldn't move a muscle. "Omg- Nova!" The voice said and I felt strong arms lifting me up from the ground, embracing me. "It's okay, I'll call for help" the calm voice said. And then everything became silent.