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Fading Away/Blame Me (Kellin Quinn/Oliver Sykes)

Anonymous asked: HI i don't know if you are still doing these but thanks if you are :) Mike x Kellin or Oli and Kellin (kinda random I know but I ship them so much XD) and numbers 29 (Fading away) and 31(Blame Me) THANK YEW <3

29. fading away; 31. blame me

Kellin’s fading away from me.

I’m not quite sure what triggered it, but for the past few weeks, he’s been acting strange around me. He’s quieter, sadder, deader than he used to be. I want to talk to him about it, but every time I try, he just pushes me away even farther. It hurts, because I love him and want to help him, but I don’t know what to do about it.

Right now, we’re sitting on the wooden swing on the front porch of our house. My arm is around him, and his head is on my shoulder, but something feels off. It feels like there’s something between us, keeping us from being truly happy.

“Kellin,” I say, “what’s wrong?”

He looks up at me. “There’s nothing wrong, Oli.”

“Yes, there is,” I press. “Something’s been wrong for the past few weeks now. I want to know what it is.”

Kellin starts to get up, sighing. “It’s nothing—”

I take his hand and gently pull him back. “No, there is something, Kell. I want to know what it is. Talk to me. Please.”

He sits back down, biting his lip.

“Is it something I did?” I ask.

After a moment of hesitation, Kellin nods slowly. “I’m not mad at you, Oli, I swear. I’ve just been…scared. So fucking scared.”

I run my fingers soothingly through his hair. “Hey, it’s okay,” I say. “What did I do?”

He closes his eyes. “Drugs.”

With that one word, I suddenly know exactly what he’s talking about. He’s talking about my addiction. He’s talking about how one night a few weeks ago, I had so many different substances in me I nearly killed myself.

“Okay,” I say softly. “Then blame me. I deserve it. But don’t…don’t give up on me, Kells.” I kiss him on the cheek.

He turns to me, and for the first time in weeks, I think I see real hope in his eyes. “We’ll get through this?”

I nod. “We’ll get through this. I promise you.”