The Luna's Last Choice

31. Payback

Anna:

I kissed him.

I did. It doesn't matter that he was the one who kissed me without permission. What matters is that I kissed him back. What matters is that I didn't for a moment think about my husband. What matters is that I wanted to kiss him again the moment it ended.

I cheated on the man I love.

Love...... Do I even know what that word means? I claimed to love him didn't I? Yet I did this to him.

I thought that's what love is, to look at a person and see your future together. To be able to imagine him in a distant future with you where you both sit outside in your porch, grey haired and wrinkled, sipping on warm tea and laughing at a stupid joke he cracked. It ran like a movie in my head when I said yes to marrying him. Where did I go wrong?

The doorbell rang and my heart leapt with the sound of it. I relaxed when my father's calming scent drifted in. I hurried to the door and threw it open.

"I didn't know you were coming" I smiled brightly at him.

He wrapped his arms around me and patted my hair "I'm a little too late, aren't I?"

I frowned and looked up from his arms "Dad what's wrong?"

"Let's get in"

I nodded and turned to walk towards the couch. He followed leaving the door open most probably for mom.

"Did Dan call you?" I asked hesitantly taking the seat next to him.

"You should have been the one calling me Ree" he said softly "You didn't have to deal with all of this alone"

"I....." I began but the lump in my throat stopped my words.

"Tell me" He encouraged.

"I..... his mate" I whispered as a drop of tear rolled down my face.

He wrapped an arm around me. I let my head fall on his shoulder. He patted my head steadily. We sat in silence for a long time.

"It's going to be alright" he said at last.

I said nothing.

"You will have to believe that it's going to be okay to make it okay sweetheart" he sighed "It's all going to be fine" he nodded to himself.

"I don't know what to do" I said.

"You should start form getting your facts right" he replied.

I frowned up at him.

He smiled kindly "You'll have to keep repeating to yourself until you believe it that it's not your fault. You'll have to believe that it's no one's fault. You are all good people stuck in a bad situation"

I shook my head "I'm not...." I said looking away "good people"

"A bad person wouldn't have suffered so much in this situation Ree"

"What should I do dad?" I looked at him "Tell me what you would have done had you been in my place"

"I don't know" he replied "I can't sit here and say that I would have done things this way or that way. I think I would have done what felt right to me. Do what feels right to you. We will always be here for you"

"What if it all feels wrong?"

"Then chose the path that will let you live. Chose the one who is a necessity in your life. Live. Just live no matter what. There is no shame in wanting to live and be happy"