A/N: This is starting from TST... Changed from 'you' to 'I'
I felt Newt's hand slip into mine as we followed the men into the unknown building. I was nervous, more nervous than ever before and I could tell everyone else was too. None of us knew what this new life would bring but we all hoped that we'd stay together. I looked around me, curiously, watching everyone walking around us. Before I knew it, we were all thrown into a room with a table full of food. Everyone hurried to the table and started stuffing their faces but I stood firm to the spot.
"Y/N" Newt said, swallowing some chicken, "Eat!"
"No, I'm okay" I shrugged, "You guys tuck in"
I smile at them, before lying down on my pillow. I heard footsteps and rolled my eyes from beneath my eyelids. I opened them to see Newt sat beside me, two plates of food in his hands. He handed one to me. I opened my mouth to protest but he shook his head.
"Eat it" he ordered, "Please."
"I'm not hungry" I insisted.
"Y/N!" he warned.
"Fine!" I sighed, sitting up and snatching the plate jokingly.
I took a bit out of some ham and my stomach growled, gratefully.
"See?" he teased, kissing my cheek, "I knew you were hungry... Why did I have to force you to eat? That's unlike you."
"No reason" I mumbled, chewing on some bread.
"Y/N, there was a time when you'd tell me everything" he sighed, before getting up and wandering back over to the group.
I shook my head and buried my face into my knees. The truth was, my nightmares had come back. Completely put me off of eating, sleeping, everything. I couldn't tell Newt because he's got enough to worry about as it is.
"Are you okay?" Teresa called over to me, looking concerned.
"Yep" I answered, "I'm just dandy"
She raised her eyebrows at me, not believing me at all and came and sat opposite me.
"What's going on, Y/N?" she asked, "And don't say nothing because it's obvious there is. Everyone's worried about you."
"I'm fine!" I yelled, "Jeez, can't you just leave me alone!"
"Okay, okay!" she said, raising her hands in surrender, "Just don't expect me to ask you if you're okay next time"
She stood up and walked away. I placed my face back on my knees and sat silently for ages. I listened to the others' conversation but made no input. I just couldn't be bothered anymore. The only time I raised my head was when the door opened and a man walked in. He started explaining things but I didn't listen, I was too busy laughing to myself at how much he looked like a rat. When he finished talking, his gaze lingered on me for a second longer than everyone else, before he led us to our new rooms. Me and Teresa shared and the boys shared. I flopped down on to the bed and snuggled into my pillow. Teresa fell asleep, but I didn't. I stayed awake.
"Are you coming to get food?" I heard Teresa ask, calmly.
"Sure..." I answered, "But how do you know where to get it?"
"Ratguy told us" she smirked, "I can tell you weren't listening."
"Yeah" I laughed, "I'm sorry about earlier"
"It's okay" she shrugged, "We're all trying to find a way to deal with things. But I think you should talk to your man, he's very concerned about you!"
"Okay, thanks!" I answered, gratefully, "Let's go!"
We walked to the dining area and spotted the boys at a table. Minho and Thomas were waving frantically at us, but Newt was staring at the table mat in front of him. I sat beside him and kissed him on the lips before resting my head on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry for worrying you" I whispered.
He smiled against my hair and kissed the top of my head, "It's okay, but thank you for apologising."
I kissed him again before going to get food with Teresa. As we joined the queue I felt a pair of eyes watching me. I looked around to find a few pairs of eyes watching me, but the only one's I cared about that weren't Newt's were Ratman's. I shook it off and took my tray back to the table. Ratman cleared his throat before reciting some cringy speech and reading out some names (A/N these are random names don't judge)
"Archie
Kyle
Rebecca
Chloe
Calum
Anna
Nina
Andy
Teresa
Ria
Craig
Timothy
Y/N"
Teresa and I caught eyes before standing up and following the others toward Janson. Newt watched me, worriedly the whole time. At the last minute I turned to him and mouthed, I love you.
