Lance has been lying. Lying about his "perfect family". His mother and deadbeat father are dead, and his older brother's location is unknown. The only person who knows anything about lance's past before the garrison is Hunk, and he doesn't even know...
(Keith's pov.) The castle's been quiet for a few weeks now. The silence is nice. But of course, that has to be ruined in the middle of breakfast. At least I thought it was gonna be. Lance walked in but didn't make one of his annoying @$$ remarks, Good. A few minutes later he just has to open his mouth, I wonder what it's gonna be this time. " "miss allura?" It was almost a whisper....huh, he's still useless af tho.
(Lances pov....again.) Allura scoffed while rolling her eyes. That definitely didn't hurt. "What lance? You can't go ONE day without shutting the F**** UP?!" I tried to ignore what she said but at least I know I'm right on what they think of me. "What would the date be on earth?" She was silent for a moment. Pidge spoke. " Its June 10th. Why would you care?" Pidge spoke with a bite to her words though it was only a simple response. Ouch. It was mamá ' s birthday today, and officially a month before I could finally rest in peace. "I was just wondering. Welp, I'm gonna go." I went to my room, took my shirt and jacket off, then checked my wrists and chest. Veins were black, while where my heart was, a small black dot stood over the skin.(pic below kinda gives you an idea of what it looks like...❄❄❄)
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Soon enough, that small dot would become a giant splotch. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, when Iverson got me a physical for the garrison, it turns out I have a un-named disease that is slowly killing me from the inside out. Luckily, the whole thing is painless. The only sad part is I have to go through another month of torture. I also forgot to tell you that shiro "punishes"(There is NO SMUT in this book so calm your tots) me whenever I mess up on a mission or I just f*** somthing up overal. So now, I have bruises all over my body,....he really is just like papá. 1 month. That's all I have until I'm free. It's not like anyone will care anyway, besides maybe Iverson.
(Keith's pov.) Well that was, weird. Befor lance left I noticed his skin was kinda pale....I must be going crazy. Either that or he did some dumb@$$ sh!t that made his skin look lighter. I'm still p!ssed about yesterday. I mean he just ran off without saying ANYTHING. God, somtimes I wish I never even met that pathetic @$$ cuban.
(Hunks pov.) When lance asked about the date it was weird. The date feels familiar and I feel like somthing important is gonna be coming up soon. Is it a holiday? I'll remember later.
(Allura ' s pov.) Lance is so impulsive. Shiro and I have already discussed kicking him off the team since I've bonded with the blue lion. It was pretty easy actually, blue immediately put her particle barrier down the first time I tried creating a bond.
(Lances pov.) The voices are tormenting me again. Telling me things that I would rather forget. Things that make me realize more of how much of a sad escuse of a paladin I am.
Waste of space. I know. Pathetic. I know. Annoying. I know. Keith's better. Your right. Bemore like keith. Yeah. Kill yourself. No. I don't deserve to be free. I deserve to go through hell before I die. Add more lines to your collection then. Ok.
I grabbed the blade out the bathroom, put seven cuts on each of my thighs, and 10 cuts on each of my arms. 7 cuts for 7 people 1 too many. 1 cut for each word that describes me. Blood pooled on the floor. I felt light headed, and my vision was fading. Then darkness overcame me.
Around somtimes later I woke up and cleaned the mess that I made. Then I wrapped bandages around my arms and legs after cleaning them. My head was pounding, I couldn't think straight. Then I remembered the voices; I need to be more like keith. I have to train to get better. So that's what I'll do. When everyone us asleep. I'll train and maby learn altean....just so I could be ready for certain situations.
A week passed. Three more to go. My altean was getting better and I got to level 128. But, when I do train and feel threatened, somthing happens and I feel stronger and become faster with my movements. It's probably nothing.
(A/n....ok so technically Ihave TWO suprise's for u angsty children. One is REALLY sad and the other will make lance important.....till next time. ❄❄❄❄)
