The Fault In Our Symphony

Extra Chapter A River Flows In You

"Your tears are like rivers." Kousei exclaimed as I was told that my father past away

"I know they just don't stop." I sighed

"Sit here with me." He said

And he began to play a river flows in you our song a bittersweet song but it felt the occasion.

And soon we began to play together our hands becoming one on the keyboard.

Until he stopped.

"Your turn." He said

I played softly to myself.

The term cry me a river became a reality I couldn't escape from.

The tears they wouldn't stop.

The man who raised me who loved me who was the missing piece to the puzzle of me was gone.

And all I could do was cry.

Sunday came and went church was bittersweet.

My father was laid in the grave Monday.

But I stepped up to a piano in a black dress and I played.

I played our song until it was in my memory.

I blanked out of my surroundings.

When I turned back I was crying.

"That piano brought me on a great journey I was 5 when I began playing a month after my diagnosis. The term cry me a river became a reality. Out of all my days in a hospital bed I knew if I kept fighting I'd get to sit at that piano with my father. Oh but my little heart was bursting with love when I met Arima I switched no regrets. But that piano took me on a journey. Of love, of heartache, of trust, of lies. Because isn't that what life is a river, a small river, that someday leads to a big ocean of vast possibilities. Of self discovery. I wouldn't be on this journey had it not been for him. I probably still wouldn't be fighting for those black and white keys. So I'm giving thanks to my father and the piano they took me on a journey." I exclaimed tears in my eyes.

And that's when I realized my journey was long over.

As I sat down on our back porch a week later in Kousei's lap watching the kids play I kissed him.

"You gave me a forever within a number of days and I can't tell you how thankful I am for a little infinity."

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I'm writing my feelings I'm bittersweet very bittersweet.

The song was you guessed it "A River Flows In You" by a great pianist Yiruma who I admire.

I'm crying a river.