jack found some porn magazines at zach's bedroom.
jack thought it was normal to have them for a 17-year-old boy.
what he did not expect was gay porn.
and even less that he would like it.
started: 08/29/18
finished: 01/17/19
please read author note at the end of the chapter, it's important.
warning: strong language
zach was remembering his last conversation with his family. it had taken place last night.
his mother talked about how he misses him and how much he wanted him close. she also talked about some people that he hardly even remembers.
his father made some bad jokes that nobody laughs about. but Zach did. they used to do that kind of joke on a daily basis.
her sister explained that if he didn't come any soon, she would take her room to put her big collection of toys there. because seriously, reese has too many toys.
and then his brother. ryan told him about his day at school. he was in high school and zach was afraid it would be difficult for him. high school can be a headache for many people.
but he was wrong. high school wasn't difficult for ryan, it was difficult for another boy that his brother was telling him about.
"people always mess with him, i feel bad for him, but sometimes i think that he wants to be bullied."
"what?" Zach responded angrily listening to his brother talk about that other boy.
nobody wants to be bullied. and his brother must understand that.
"yes, he's gay and you know that people here don't like those things, i'm sure he knows too but he's still being very gay."
zach knew that texas wasn't an open-minded place, but that doesn't mean that people can not change.
"why didn't you try to be your friend? he may need a friend to go through all this."
zach wasn't going to say it out loud, but he was really talking about himself. he didn't know how to get out of the closet with your family, friends and fans.
"ugh, no, i don't want people to think i'm a faggot, that's very gross."
that's very gross.
zach felt dizzy. he couldn't see much. a lot of tears prevented him from seeing clearly.
he took them off with his hand, but every time he took one off, other one appeared. he got up to go to the bathroom and wash his face. he knew that would relax him a little more.
but he could not open the door.
it was locked.
"zach." he heard jack's voice coming out of the bathroom.
how did he know it was me?
and why does that sound like a moan?
"yes, it's me, i need the bathroom." i responded by resting my body at the door.
"fuck, za-zach, not no-now, wait a mi-minute."
zach didn't need the bathroom anymore. the tears had stopped falling and his brother's words were no longer in his mind. there was only jack's voice torn saying his name.
he had said it in such a strange way. but zach liked it so much.
can't you see that I'm falling? falling for you, that's what Zach would want to say to jack. but he couldn't. he was a coward.
zach refused to think about that. he left the bathroom trying to finish with the ideas that appeared in his mind about jack and him ending up together.
that's not going to happen.
jack is straight.
repeated zach in his mind.
jack left the bathroom as fast as he could. he couldn't believe what he just did.
he had masturbated thinking of his best friend.
what kind of person did that?
how would i look zach in the eyes after this?
fuck fuck fuck
he repited in his head. he blame his self for thinking about zach in that way. but his head was a mess. every fuck he kept repeating in his head make his fantasies about the young boy worst.
damm i really want to fuck zach.
jack was finally accepting the attraction he felt for zach. but he believed that it was just attraction. he want to fuck zach, not to love zach.
it's just a phase. I will forget about all of this in a few days. zach's nothing but a friend.
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word count: 683
more than 200 views in 2 chapters, guess who's crying?
yeah. me.
8 letters out, guess who's crying?
YEAH. ME. AGAIN AND AGAIN.
best album of the fucking word. also i'm so in love with all the songs, but if i got to choose a favorite one I think it will be in too deep. i'm so proud of these guys. they grow up so fast. *scream in limelight*
btw here comes the important message: i've saw that you want smut. i don't have any problem at writing it. but i want to ask if you all agree on that. i'm just saying bc i don't want to create any traumas.
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