(servamp) kuromahi~self harm

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(a/n) this is the closest picture i could find to fit the theme. you can find it on pintrest for the full comic, or you could scroll through google for hours to find it. (ive had to do that a couple of times) sorry In advanced if this is bad!

warning: this book contains self hate and self harm. if any of those things bother you, then don't read this


Mahiru's POV

I hide all my problems behind my smile, behind my smile is a world of pain. yeah- that's my life. after my mom died, i felt so alone even when my uncle took me in. after a few years when my uncle started to leave for work more often, that's when I started to secretly cut myself. i would walk into the bathroom look at my reflection in the mirror and feel tears flow down from my eyes.

"she died because of you, she would still be alive if it wasn't for you" my inner demons repeated over and over again.

I opened the cabinet where I started to hid my blades when kuro became my partner and roommate. he's taking his afternoon nap so he won't wake up till later, I picked up the blade and brought it to my skin; I added pressure and slid it across. I continued this again and again.

1 *slice*

2 *slice*

3 *slice*

4 *slice*

5 *slice*

6 *slice*

7 *slice*

8 *slice*

then I heard a light knock on the door, I panicked, it had to be kuro. " mahiru. are you ok? you've been in there for a while" he said in his usual monotoned voice. I tried to clean the blood off the sink and on my wrist," yeah! I'm fine kuro! you can go back to sleep!" I heard him sigh, "....what a pain....."

kuro's POV

now I know there's something wrong, mahiru would never tell me to just go back to sleep. there's a strong scent of blood coming from behind the door. "he can't be cutting himself, right ? no way he's to cheerful to do such a thing " i opened the door and saw mahiru jump slightly, then my eyes land on the sink. it was covered in blood. i immediately looked at mahiru with wide eyes, his wrists were bleeding from obvious self harm cuts.

all the blood drained from his face "k-kuro, i-i can explain" mahiru stuttered, his face completely pale.

i clenched my fists," like hell you can! what the hell are you doing to yourself!" i yelled. i havent felt these kinds of emotions in centuries. mahiru flinched from me yelling, then tears started to streamed down his cheeks. i took a deep breath to try and calm down, " dammit mahiru, why would you do such a thing to yourself. your always telling me to trust you with my dark past, to tell you if anything is on my mind. but you couldnt tell me about this? do you not trust me enough to help you?" my eyes started to sting and my heart clenched, am I crying?

So this is what old child called the obstacles of being in love. (Im not sure how kuro calls Hugh, and im too lazy to look it up in the manga)" i-im sorry kuro, I didnt mean for you to find out about this like this" his voice cracked, falling onto his knees. "man why did I have to fall in love with him....what a pain......" I wiped the tear from my eyes with the back of my jacket sleeve then I bend down in front of him.

no ones POV

kuro kissed mahiru on the forehead, mahiru quickly looked up at the vampire with wide eyes; tears stopping at the corner of his eyes. kuro gently grabbed Mahiru's wrists and licked the blood from the cuts . mahiru gasped with a dark blush," k-kuro what are you doing, s-stop that!" he said trying to pull his arm away. but the vampire was stronger than he looked. after what felt like forever, kuro pulled away with a expression that mahiru has never seen before. Was it concern?, anger? maybe both? He would just stare at mahiru with this indescribable face. 

"dont ever do this to yourself again", then kuro smirked "or ill get angry mahi-chan" he whispered into mahiru's ear. Mahiru shuddered from the servamps breath to come in contact to his skin. In a daze he barely heard a single word that kuro said, blushing even darker than before.

Kuro then stood up and tossed a roll of bandages to his blushing, dazed eve. It took a few minutes for mahiru to relieze what had just happened," wait kuro come back here, what the heck was that!" Mahiru yelled, standing up. Kuro just smirked with a light blush on his face," you'll figure it out one day."

Im sorry if this was bad, i didn't know how to end this one-shot.



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