"Love Yourself"(BTSx MaleReader)

•Chapter 10•WHY DO YOU HURT ME?

(don't play the song until I tell you to sorry also, BEFORE YOU READ I KNOW ITS JEON NOT JEAN)
M/n POV
   "No. Now leave me alone." I say not even looking at them. I do look at the principal thought and say. "And you, stop telling people about the job offering." I glared. I know talking bad to the principal is bad but he needs to mind his own business.

    "Come on M/n! We would love to have you part of our team." Namjoon said.

     "That's nice." Yeah, I'm being shady. I'm pissed. Then I walked out of the office leaving them speechless.

    As I walk home I putting my headphones on I  start calming down. Letting the music control my thoughts. (Play the song on top)

* flashback *
(10 years old)
   "Jongkookie!" I yelled making him turn. His eyes widen before smiling and opening his arms. I run into his arms letting the warm feeling melt me into his arms.

    "N/n, I missed you. My bunny." With that, I started crying and soon he did too. You see I haven't been able to see Jongkook for 6 months! He found me unconscious in my room and took me to the hospital. While I was there they wouldn't let Jungkook see me; they finally let me out. Here I am surprising Jungkook after 6 months. He took care of me until I needed to go back to my so-called 'home'.

*Different Flashback*
(Coming back from the park you are 18)

  I enter the house trying to to make any noise I guess I didn't try hard enough and she still heard me. "I told you, he never liked you and never will. You know why? Because you're a waste of space. No one likes you! He doesn't need you, he doesn't like you so, leave him alone." with that she heads to her room turning off the lights. I don't feel anything her words don't hurt me because I know she's correct.
    I head to my room not bothering to turn the lights back on. I open my door to a dark room. Pictures of me and him together, having what I thought was fun. Thinking of all the memories that didn't matter to him. Feeling my cheek where he hit me. As I brush my finger tips along the now bruised cheek I wonder what I did wrong. What I did to deserve this.
    Then it finally got me and I started crying. The one person I trusted more than anything never liked me. Always thought I was a waste of space.  The one person that always told me he'll be by my side, that he'll never leave me alone. Were all those lies? Was he always lying to me?  I guess people were right when they said I don't know what real love is. I'll never know because thats how life wanted me to do. To never know what real love is.

      Getting up and going inside the bathroom not locking the door because I know no one will come in my room and some how I'm still  alive. Life hates me some much that it wants to make me suffer more and more as the days go by. Once I finish cleaning my cuts I go to grab a hoodie but realize that most of them are Jungkooks so, I grab a box and pack all of stuff. All his hoodies, his shirts, his sweat pants, the stuffed animals he got me, the photos that are framed. I grab clothes my charger tooth past and a tooth brush and put them into my backpack. Heading down stairs I grab money from my dads secret stash. I put my backpack on and tape the box.  With out making any noises I grab keys and the box and leave.

        Making my way to Jungkook's house I parked my car and took out the box from the back. Walking up to his house looking down because I didn't want to see the house that holds many memories. Then I hear someone whispered my name but still loud enough for me to hear. "M/n." I let out a little sigh and set the box down and walk away. "M/n! Please I didn't mean to-" I cut him off "Save it. All your stuff is in the box. Bye kookie."  I say with a straight face not facing him trying to walk back to my car. Then I feel him back hugging me. "Please." I stay still not showing emotion. Finally, I get out of his grip and leave.