"Love Yourself"(BTSx MaleReader)

•Chapter 16• PAIN

M/n POV
As I Enter my apartment I put my phone to charge because it died when I was with Felix and I decide to go take a shower while I'm waiting.

After my shower I look at myself in the mirror and just look at all the bruises and cut marks on my body my family left that haven't left.

  "Disgusting..." I start "I'm disgusting!" I yell to myself. I reach for the blade and slowly run it across my wrist. "You're useless, no one cares, you're only a toy." I keep telling my self.

I hear my phone ring, that's when I decide to get up and answer it.

"Hello"

"Pathetic as always? I don't see what that company wants from you. You're just a toy and once you don't work out for them, they'll throw you away. Just like everyone else."

  My eyes widen and the call ends. How'd he get my number? Does he know where I am now? I get another call and pick it up immediately

"Please don't hurt me! I'll give you the money if you want just don't hurt me"

"M/n? Why would I hurt you??"

My eyes widen even more this isn't him this is Yoongi.

"M/n?! Answer me, are you okay?"

"I-I um..."

"I'll be over in a few."

He hangs up and I start cleaning up my wrist, bathroom and hide the blade. Just as I finish I hear a knock on my door.

Knock

Knock

I open the door already knowing who it is, but not only do I see Yoongi, I see the rest of BTS. They look at me with worried eyes and I move aside so they could come in. They come in, no one saying anything and sit down in the living room. I breathe in and out slowly to keep calm. Finally, Yoongi says something.

"They wouldn't stop begging me to let them come... so I let them. I hope you don't mind." I nod my head in a way telling him it's alright. "I want explanation. Why did you think I was going to hurt you?" He asks, I look down not wanting to answer.

"It's him huh?" I look up to see everyone looking at Jungkook with a questioning look. "It was, wasn't it?" I nod my head and slowly put my head back down.

"Um, sorry to ruin the mood, but who exactly?" Taehyung says.

"His father." Yoongi replies.

"How do you know about him Yoongi?" Jungkook asks.

"He told me a few months ago. I know a lot about him. About his past too. Probably more than you." I look up to see a kinda pissed off Jungkook looking at Yoongi who's looking at me.

"Okay, Wait, explain everything." Namjoon says. I look at him, then I look at Hoseok, who for once isn't smiling. I look over at Tae, Jin and Jimin, they look at me with worried eyes. Finally, I look over at Jungkook and Yoongi, who's eyes are filled with anger and pain. But what's it up to them to know what pain feels like? No one cares, they're just pretending. Nothing matters. I'm useless. They won't do anything if I tell them right? It's not like they actually care. And yet I felt myself telling them every single detail about what happened.

The happiness I feel when I'm with them. The amount of times I've smiled and laughed with them. I don't want to fully trust them, but I know I have to. I know that they'll help. Right? By telling them everything, will the pain be gone? Will I be able to let go of everything? Will I finally find people who can help?

I let out a sigh and fiddle with my fingers.

"We'll have to start from the very beginning....."

Short chapter I know! But I just wanted to get something out before I get busy again. I wouldn't expect a chapter for another week or two. I hope you're enjoying the book so far!! And I hope you're going too/are have/having a good day!
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