I lay there in bed, feeling kind of shocked and a bit sore... between my legs.
Last night, I did something that I promised myself I'd never do. I slept with Ethan.
And we aren't even together.
Last night, it felt like the best thing to do. Like there was no other option. It's hard saying 'no' to him. It really is.
I can barely talk when he steps close to me, so last night it was a whole new level.
He told me so many things. Like how I was perfect, beautiful. And how he would own me in a few months?
I'm not really sure what the last one meant, so I didn't know how to respond to him.
And now I've agreed to be a "thing" with him I guess.
I love him. That's why.
I love him. That's why I can't say no to him.
I love him. And I want him. Anything to be close to him again. Because I remember how truly happy he made me when we were together.
Time to get up for school, I thought to myself.
I slowly shifted my legs and brought them down to the floor beneath me. Aching pain spread through my lower half because of what we did last night.
But for some reason, I didn't want to stay home. It was just all the excitement of seeing him after last night.
> At school
So for some reason, Ethan, Cameron and his other two friends decided to sit with us at lunch today.
Hannah and I were giving each other looks to their sudden decision. But a part of me knew why.
"Ow, my legs hurt" I mumbled as I switched positions in my seat. I didn't think anyone would hear, but I guess someone did.
"Awh did little Olivia rouyre finally loose her virginity last night" Cameron snickered.
My face went red. I could feel it. The heat rising to my cheeks.
Because it was completely true.
"Yeah, to me" Ethan smirked.
I was at a loss for words. Ellie almost choked on her drink. Hannah almost died of laughter.
"Ethan what!" Ellie yelled, a bit too loud.
"Chill, I wouldn't want to get in bed with her" Ethan spat.
Ouch. Why is he still being rude to me.
He really doesn't know but his words hurt me. A whole lot.
"I'm gonna.. go" I mumbled, trying my hardest to hold back my tears as I grabbed my bag and walked out of the cafeteria.
I ran across the school and sat on the bleachers. I really like sitting here.
It's kind of peaceful at lunch because everyone is somewhere else, eating.
And then I couldn't stop my tears.
I would never say anything on purpose to hurt him like that. He's too worried about keeping up the 'bad' act but he doesn't realize how much he hurts me. Daily.
Suddenly I heard footsteps which caused me to turn and look in the direction they were coming from.
It was Ethan.
I turned away from him as soon as I saw him coming towards me.
He came and sat next to me on the bleachers, a little too close.
"Why are you crying. Oh my lord" he spoke in a 'pissed off' tone. It sounded like he was annoyed at me crying.
"Excuse me? You're rude Ethan. It hurts" I spoke honestly. Still crying.
"What did I do?" He asked.
There was a moment of silence between us. Pure silence. I know that he knows exactly what he did. He just doesn't want to bring it up.
"Do you like making girls cry over you?" I asked.
I've seen countless girls who have cried because of him. Literally countless. And now I understand why.
There was no answer.
But he had the fucking audacity to sit there and smirk at me. He obviously likes the attention.
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"You weren't like this Ethan. You really weren't" I spoke, but it came off as more of a whisper.
My words were choking inside me. I couldn't get them out.
I was taken back by his actions when he suddenly kissed me.
As soon as his lips met mine, I gave in. I can't stay mad at him, even though he hurts me so so much. I just can't.
"I don't like seeing you sad. Don't cry" he spoke, getting up from next to me.
He then walked away from me slowly, but stopped and turned around.
"And... I'm sorry" he told me, in the most genuine tone.
I smiled back at him and watched him walk off.
It's okay Ethan. I mentally told myself.
It's always okay. _____
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