Hi, I'm Olivia Rouyre, a 17 year old girl from New Jersey.
I've always been a quiet girl with a few close friends. I've never really been involved with any drama. Somehow I'm considered 'popular' at school, but truthfully I don't know how.
My best friends are Ellie and Hannah. I've know Ellie and her family ever since I was a little girl. Both our families have been quite close, and still are until this day. I met Hannah at the beginning of high school and the three of us have been best friends since.
Hannah's been dating this guy named Kian pretty much all throughout high school, and they've been pretty solid. He's a year older than us. He's always best friends with Ellie's trouble maker of a brother; Ethan Dolan.
Ethan Dolan is probably the most popular guy at our school, along with Cameron. They both have very similar personalities. Both are hella cocky, both use girls constantly, both are on the football team, and they both are very confident with themselves. Ethan knows he's good looking, and he always gets his way. Especially around girls.
He's got girls all around him, he doesn't even have to try. They just come to him like it's natural, all because of his looks. They don't even care about his shitty personality and that surprises me a lot.
I would never date him.
Again.
That's right. I dated him once before. It didn't last long though, only like 4 months. He wasn't this cocky or popular before. He was nice.
But I ended it because I never felt that he had genuine feelings for me. I always just thought he was a fuckboy and he was wasting my time.
We never did anything, we didn't even have sex. I guess I was too shy and definitely not ready.
Nobody knew about it, not even Ellie. And maybe that's why our relationship was so hard, because we had to keep a secret.
After we ended, he's always picked on me and made fun of me, but I've never let it get to me. He doesn't even do it to anyone else. I don't even know why, I barely talk to him anymore.
Truth is, he's so intimidating and scary. I'm scared he'll just snap at me, with literally anything I say. So I try and avoid him as much as I can. But that can be hard sometimes, being best friends with Ellie and all.
As for my love life, I've never really had one apart from Ethan.
I guess I've just never had time for boys.
I don't think that love is dead. I do believe there are genuine good guys out there, just none at our school.
I'm actually a hopeless romantic and hope to find someone one day. But I'm not looking for anyone or on a search right now. I don't think I will be for a while either.
My expectations with guys are really high, and it makes me wonder if I'll ever even find someone.
but it doesn't bother me. I'm doing good with life right now. This is actually the happiest I've ever been.
My life at home is also amazing. I love both my parents so very much. They've always given me so much freedom, and I'm thankful for that. I make sure I never abuse the trust they have on me.
