Forced to love you Cover Done By @Natasha Palma Negan Fanfiction

Mercy.

Jax's P.O.V.

The small lights above me guide me down the deserted hallways. My mind reels with memories of my dead friend, and the friendship we once had. His wife Lorie was my was like my other half, so when Rick started dating her, I was less than thrilled.

I was scared of how he would take her from me, and I would be left alone. Rick noticed my concern and assured me my place in her life could never be replaced.  Luckily for me, with Rick, came Daryl. Daryl and I had a love beyond anything I could ever have hoped for.

We all soon became inseparable, as a group, and that friendship formed a family. We went on trips together, graduated high school together, and even stayed in contact after we all moved into the job world.

The large wooden door to our room beckons me inside. My feet drag as I open the door, silently entering in. I placed the letter on the on the table, then pulled the covers back, eager to get some sleep. As soon as I lay my head down, sleep welcomes me with open arms.

Strong arms engulf my small frame, as I slowly awake from my slumber. I squint as the bright light seeps through our shades, causing me to groan. I needed more sleep, but I knew I should leave soon; If I was to pick up father Gabriel before Spencer and Dwight are killed. I also need to give the letter to Michone.

Negans soft lips kiss my neck, sending shocks of pleasure throughout my body. His soft beard tickles me, as the trails kiss down my neck.

" Negan, I need to get up. I have to make a trip to Alexandria before the executions."

Negans kisses abruptly stop, as his arms tighten around me possessively.

" Why the hell do we need that creepy as shit dude?" He mumbles as he digs his nose into my hair.

" I think its only right to allow the prisoners to make peace with God before they die."

" Make peace with God? Since when do we care of they make peace some supposed God?"

" Negan, I am serious. They need to be able to confess and be forgiven of their sins before they die. Even prisoners on death row were given that before the world ended."

" I don't care. I ain't wasting my time making sure some backstabbing assholes get to be forgiven by God. They don't deserve it anyway."

" That's what mercy is, getting what we don't deserve. I may hate what they have done, but I will forgive them."

" How could you even think of forgiving them? I sure as shit can't. They fucked up everything here and put me in a cell. The last thing I will ever do is forgive them."

"Forgiveness isn't about the person who hurt you. It doesn't excuse the person or make what they did okay. It simply means that the person doesn't ow me the debt anymore. In forgiving the person that hurts you, the person it really frees is you."

" Well, maybe I can so that forgiveness shit someday, but not now.  If you want to go get the damn priest then fine, but you have to come straight back. "

" Okay, I will.  I need to give Michone a letter as well. Rick left it for them, and I need to give it to her and Carl.  Have you decided how they will die?"

Negan turned his face towards me, giving me a food view of his sleepy face.

" I have, and I hope it deters anyone else from trying to overthrow me. After the executions, I will announce the dismissal of the wives.  I will also be making other changes to this place. If we are to survive, we can't keep doing what we have been."

" I agree, things need to change. I am glad you are giving up the whole wives thing. I have not liked being a sister wife.  I much prefer not sharing my man. "

" Well don't worry baby, I will be all yours soon. Now let's get up, and get this shit storm started."

We both hot up, and changed quickly, eager to end this day. Negan walked over his dresser, then pulled out a small velvet pouch. I tried to remember how to breathe, as he bent his knee, and began to open the bag.

His warm hand caressing my face as he gazed lovingly into my eyes. His hands shook as he untied the bag, revealing a ring.

" I love you. I want to spend the rest of my days with you. Will you marry me, Jax?"

He pulled out a small silver ring, with tiny blue stones all throughout. My heart pounded against my chest, as he held it up waiting for me to take it. I slowly took it and slipped it on my hand.

Tears streamed down my cheeks as he leaned in kissing me softly. I knew in this moment, my life was not ending, but a new begging was going to take place.

" I know we have had our ups and downs, but I am saying yes to you. You have done a lot of bad things, but you deserve a second chance. You deserve mercy, so mercy is what you will get. All the love, and mercy I can give "

" I love you, Jax."

" I love you Negan."