childhood friend | jeon jungkook

thirty two.

"Wow you look, unusually quiet." Jinyoung laughed as he twirled your hair with his fingers. You sighed, "Shut up, I can be quiet." You defended and he just laughed sarcastically.

He looked at you as he didn't get a laugh in return, he frowned, "Y/n? tell me why you're like this, did something happen?" He asked and you bit your lip. "I don't know okay? I'm just troubled that's all." You shook him off.

He faced you, "You know you can say anything to me right? I'm here for you, right?" He asked and you just nodded, unsure if you were willing to tell him what happened last week that made your heart still beat.

"Fine, I'll tell but I still don't understand okay? So don't judge me."

He nodded, anticipating for your answer, "Last week, it's just- something happened and that something is still bothering me up until now. My mind gets clouded, my stomach does flips, my heart beat keeps beating when I think of that someone." You quietly said.

He sadly smiled, his heart broke, knowing these feelings all too well. There was a long pause as he could hear his own heart shatter.

You're falling in love, and you aren't even aware of it. He thought.

It was what he felt as he looked at you, he wanted to get rid of the feelings but knew it wasn't easy, instead he placed on a smile as he looked at you. He wore a smile even if he was so hurt, he wore a smile for you.

"You think I'm stupid don't you?" You sighed but but you eased down as he held both of your hands, he shook his head. "No, it's just a feeling you don't understand yet, maybe you wouldn't want to tell me what really happened but I'm sure it's been bugging you ever since." He paused, looking at your eyes as he knew he was correct.

"Just know that this feeling is natural, you don't have to be so bothered by it, don't hate it because it's just apart of you, it'll lead you to happiness but sometimes the opposite since,"

He gulped, "Since I didn't really achieve my happiness when it lead me." He whispered, your eyes softened as you saw the evident sadness that had displayed on his eyes.

"Just remember that if it'll end you up with sadness, I'm always here to gain back your happiness." He said as he gave you a wide smile, you hugged him, you found confort in Jinyoung and sometimes made you feel all warm which you didn't understand.

As Jinyoung hugged you, he still smiled but you were still oblivious that from that wide smile, a dreading emotion of sadness was hidden

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Just a reminder that even if you think people are happy for you, doesn't mean they really are. Maybe they're just doing it because they just want you happy and nothing else.

Maybe they just want you to smile and forget about everything, even if you forget them, they'll still accept that, if they just see your smile.