Mi Santo § Oscar Diaz

NINE

Paulina's POV

I sat there watching Carlitos play on the swings, I played with the ring on my finger trying to get it off.

"Oscar!" I heard Carlitos yell and ran across the playground, Oscar lifted him in his arms carrying him. I stood up fiddling with my fingered surprised to see him.

"You aren't leaving," He said more like a demand.

"Oscar I-" I began to say but was cut off by Oscar.

"Don't get this mixed up Paulina. You lied and deceived me. Please keep in mind the only thing that ties us together is this baby." He said and with every word that he spoke my heart broke. Tears spilled from my eyes but I quickly wiped them.

•••

"Need any help?" I asked smiling at Ruby, Monse, Jamal and Cesar. They smiled at me except for Cesar, He got up ready to leave but Monse, Jamal and Ruby were quick to stop him.

"Cesar you need to talk to her.. She has the right to tell her side the story!" Monse said Cesar sighed sitting at the table.

"We'll give you a minute," Monse said leaving us alone.

"Why?" He asked and I could see the hurt on his face. I sighed fiddling with my fingers.

"Before I say anything I just want you to know.. That I love your brother with all of my heart.. and I love you to.. That will never change. I was going to tell your brother.. I was but then I got scared.. I was married to a cop.. But being with him was a life filled with beatings, Fear, And Pain. I know that doesn't justify for what I did.. So please Cesar.. You're brother is already angry with me.. I don't want to lose you to," I Said with tears running down my face, I took Cesar's hands in mine.

"I'm sorry Paulina I didn't really know anything at first.. I know my brother loves you and I know you love him.. So I will help you because you guys deserve to be together," Cesar said smiling and I smiled giving him a huge hug.

"And besides I have a little niece or nephew in the way so something good did come out of your love," He smiled and I hugged him tightly.

•••

"So did he see the video?" I asked nervously and Cesar sighed setting his bag on the counter. My face fell as sat on the stool.

"I don't know what else to do," I whispered wiping my tears. I've tried everything and with everything I get shut down.

"I'm sorry Paulina I really am," Cesar said sadly and I shook my head at him smiling.

"Don't worry about me.. You go on to school," I Said kissing his head. He smiled at me hugging me before he left. I sobbed sitting on the counter. I grabbed a paper and a pen wiping my tears.

Dear Oscar,

Before anything I just want to say that I love you. There is no excuse to justify what I did. I didn't get the opportunity to explain to you why I hid that part of my life. Cesar told me that he had already explained it to you, But I want to looking you in your eyes and explain everything to you. I will do anything absolutely anything to gain your forgiveness. I didn't expect my life to change the way it did when I arrived here. I found my happiness.. I found my happiness beside you and your family.. A family that I have always dreamed of and I feel in love.. I feel deeply in love with you and Yes the fear of losing you won me over. I didn't have the guts to tell you the truth of my past and I regret it.. I regret my cowardness but the only thing I will never regret is loving you.. Because I will always love you. So please Oscar forgive me.

~Paulina

I wrote silently wiping my tears, I put it in an envelope staring at it. The bell jingled and I quickly hid the letter seeing Lydia walk in. She set the boxes down giving me a sympathetic look. She hugged me kissing my forehead.

"I know it hurts mija but you need to be strong.. For the baby this isn't good for the little thing," She said and I nodded wiping my tears. I helped her pick up around the bakery and took some orders. Today wasn't our busiest day and I was grateful for that.

"Paulina," I heard Lydia call, I turned around looking at her and she smiled at me.

"Go home.. Get some rest and then come back tomorrow," She said untying my apron. I smiled at her hugging her. I grabbed my car keys making my way to my car. I drove to the day care center picking up Carlitos. I strapped him in as we made our way home. He got off the car running up the driveway.

"How about the park?" I asked Carlitos he smiled at me nodding. I quickly packed some snacks, a blanket and some toys. I packed them into our car strapped Carlitos in and headed towards the park. We arrived to the park and Carlitos immediately jumped out of the car running towards the playground. I grabbed out stuff and found a shaded spot where I could keep an eye on him.

"Look mommy!" Carlitos laughed swinging on the swing. I giggled walking over to him, I pushed him higher as he laughed and screamed. We played all afternoon, we ate and we rested. Before we knew it the day was over, I carried a sleeping Carlitos over to the car.

"Mommy? Who dat?" He asked and I furrowed my eyebrows seeing a sleek sedan a couple blocks down from us. I quickly strapped him in for In our car and sped away from the park. I drove straight home, I sped up to the driveway and I strapped Carlitos. I quickly ran to the door unlocking it double checking that I wasn't followed. I slammed the door shut locking it. My chest heaved up and down from how heavy I was breathing.

"Paulina? Are you okay?"

"What happened?" I heard from the kitchen, I set Carlitos down not feeling well. I began to see black dots and the room was beginning to spin. I whispered in pain holding my stomach.

"Paulina Oh God! Oscar!" Lydia called my breathing was labored as I looked up at Lydia. She held me in her arms as my eyes began to grow heavy.

"Lydia I'm so..c-cold," I whispered shivering, I felt strong warm arms pick me up bridal style.

"Please Paulina hang in there," was the last thing I heard before I lost consciousness.

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HERE IT IS I HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!

I'm so sorry for the late delay I was in the hospital for a couple weeks but I'm back and Better than ever!!!

I hope you guys are enjoying the story so far, Thank you guys so much for the support. From the bottom of my heart.. Thank you.

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