Hearts in Ice: a Yuzuru Hanyu Fanfiction

2: Crush or Crushed?

Sakura's POV

After the reception, we all headed to our hotel to have a good rest. Hanyu-san was still silent and I felt really drained from all the wedding activities earlier. I looked at my phone to see all the photos my friends and sister had taken of me and Hanyu-san during the wedding ceremony and reception. Then I felt something brush my arm, I looked around to see Hanyu-san who walked past me, and I felt my heartbeat race. We then settled in our separate rooms and I gave out a sigh of exhaustion. Heavens .... I really need sleep, I barely slept last night.... I thought as I collapsed on my futon and looked up at the ceiling My thoughts were still on Hanyu-san, I wanted to know what he was like, I was curious so I quickly grabbed my phone and typed in his name in the google search bar, I was surprised when I saw one of his videos. It was a video of him during the Olympics, where he won a gold medal for Japan. That was when I realized that I had married, not just an Olympic figure skater, but a Superstar..... 'What would his fans think about me?, How would they react?, What would they say about this whole marriage business ?' Millions of questions popped up in my mind and I felt really anxious just thinking about everything. I continued to watch videos of him and I felt my heart race whenever he smiled or talked during interviews. 

"No Sakura-chan, you do not have a crush on Hanyu-san!" I said as I tried to compose myself, stop thinking like this! And, after that, I just typed in 'how to know if you have a crush on someone' on google. What on earth is going on with me??? Tell me this is just a lack of sleep 

1. You feel excited thinking about him

Nope, definitely not. I was just curious but wasn't excited..... I remember laughing when I saw the first of his female fans on his facebook page. , I didn't even feel excited while thinking of him. So I continued to scroll down and a second fan caught my attention 

2. You are curious about him

. I almost choked on my own saliva when I read the comments from her – she clearly had a crush on him. I still wasn't curious, but laughed nervously as I scrolled down to read a third fan's more explicit comments , 

3. You might feel a bit stressed

this time my brain just exploded when I saw it. After reading the third result I immediately turned off my phone and burried myself under the sheets. I don't have a crush on Hanyu-san, I don't have a crush on him.... I repeatedly said to myself as I tried to brush it off.

I couldn't sleep in this state, there was a lot going on in my mind so I decided to go outside for some fresh air when I overheard someone talking.

"It's Hanyu-san" I whispered to myself as I hid behind the wall. I could hear his conversation with another person as his room was just beside mine and decided to hide just in case he went out and and might find me eavesdropping.

"I want to return back to Toronto tomorrow for my training and I want you to be there with me" he said

"Yuzu, I'm afraid I can't this time" another voice spoke "After all you are married now and need to spend time with your wife. , You should take Sakura with you"

"But ka-san why?? , I never really wanted to marry her!" Hanyu-san said to the other person who I assumed was his mother "I just returned here in Japan for my ankle recovery and then I just got married to a girl I don't even know!"

"Yuzu, calm down please" his mother said calmly "Things will soon work out for both of you, don't worry"

"I don't know ka-san, I really don't know" He replied in a low voice "I don't even like her"

I felt my chest ache and turned my right hand into a fist and placed it on my chest. I felt hot tears stream down my cheeks.

"Wait, why am I crying?" I asked myself. I immediately wiped my tears away and ran into the garden. 

I sat down on the bench as I continued to sob quietly. I didn't understand why I was so affected by what he had said; had I just been rejected? Do I even like him? I had never felt like this before. I did not know whether I liked him or not, and there was a lot of confusion going on in my head. Maybe he hated me? I was j stupid to believe that he had ever liked me, how naive of me... After I finished composing myself, I decided to head back to my room as I felt a bit dizzy and my head was spinning.

"Ah.. my head hurts" I uttered to myself as I placed my hand on it while my other hand held on to a tree to keep my balance. . But before I could take a step forwards, I fell over and lost consciousness. Everything went black.

Yuzuru's POV

I was tired from the whole marriage saga, but after the conversation I had had with my mother, I decided to go to Chiyo-san's room to talk to her about taking her to Toronto with me. When I got no response from her room, I opened the door to check whether she was there. "Chiyo-san?" I called out but still there was no response "Where could she be?" When I couldn't find her there, I decided to look for her outside.

"Where are you Chiyo-san" I mumbled to myself as I looked around the grounds. Then I saw a body lying down on the grass, I felt myself freeze as I recognised the person.

"Chiyo-san!" I called out as I rushed towards her and placed her in my arms.

She looked pale and sick. Her eyes were closed and when I placed my palm on her forehead, I realized that she had a fever. So I quickly scooped her into my arms and carried her back inside to her room, and tucked her in bed under a blanket. 

"Ka-san!" I called my mother and she gave me a worried look "Help me"

"What is it Yuzu?" she asked

"Chiyo-san fainted, I saw her lying on the ground earlier and she has a fever!"

My mother immediately rushed to Chiyo-san's room and told Chiyo-san's parents about what had happened. They immediately called the family physician to examine her

"She's just tired" the doctor said "She must have been stressed out. I've known Sakura-chan for years now and she's the type of person who worries about things a lot. Just let her rest for now"

"Thank you Doctor Motoki" Mrs. Chiyo bowed and the doctor smiled at her

"Please make sure she stays hydrated okay? And just call me again if anything bad happens?"

When Doctor Motoki left, I looked back at Chiyo-san who was sleeping peacefully. What was she so worried about? I wondered. Her mother called my name and kindly said thank you for what I did

"Sakura used to get sick a lot in her childhood and worried over the slightest things, keeping such worries to herself, am very worried about her health , but now that you're here I'm hoping that you will take care of her and help her overcome her anxieties. She might be stubborn sometimes but she is a kindhearted person" Mrs. Chiyo said

"H-h-hai, I will Mrs. Chiyo" I stuttered as I agreed with her and then she gave me a smile

"You may call me Okaa-san from now on Yuzuru-san" she said "Goodnight"

"H-hai Okaa-san, goodnight " I greeted back before looking back at Chiyo-san and then headed back to my room. We were married now and perhaps it was time for me to show the love and commitment that my wife deserved. She was a caring and loving person, but I was not sure whether I could give everything to her