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Eight

I found my heart and broke it here

Made friends and lost them through the years

Castle on the hill ~ Ed Sheeran

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Sometimes people forget that words hurt more than hands can, being mentally abused is sometimes harder to come over than physically, sure it depends on the way it happened but with me it was the mentally part that still haunts me till this day. Every other thing that happened to me, is no longer on my mind and I am fine with it because after all I do have the scars left to remind me who I can't give a chance anymore.

"Sabrina stop moving, I am trying to sleep." I roll my eyes and get out of Lara her bed and start to search for decent clothes in her bags, she is an amazing friend for letting me stay with her but I would love some other place next time and not at the place where the guy I can't seem to get out off my mind lives because it makes it harder for me to just ignore him and the feelings I started to get for him.

"What are you going to do?" I turn around and see Lara trying to open her eyes more while I am putting on the denim skirt with a black shirt that has a see trough space, I take my cardigan and some basic boots out of her closet. "What does it look like Lara, I am getting ready." She rolls her eyes and hands me my phone and purse that laid at her night table. "I am not stupid Sabrina, I meant where are you going to, you have no school today because it is vacation." 

I shrug my shoulders and sit down at the bed while Lara is now next to me, taking my phone out of my hands. "You are kidding me right?" I shake my head and Lara starts to put on some clothes she found on the floor. "I am coming with you and I don't care if you like it or not." I shake my head but she stops me. "Sabrina I am not letting you go back to your old house alone all because Daniel needs some favor of you." 

Lara leads me to the kitchen and hands me some food and drinks. "I can handle myself alone Lara, it is not that I am going to fall for it again." She shakes her head and I sigh knowing I can't change her mind about this, she is going to come with me and I have nothing to say about it. "What if you see Christian again and he plays you again, you are not in a great state now Sabrina, I am not risking that again, I am coming with you."

I didn't listen to Lara anymore because one she is not going to change her mind after all, I can do whatever I want she will come with me and two Shawn is in front of me wearing no shirt and only joggers with sweat dripping down at his perfect body. "Good morning ladies." Lara nods her head while I start to drink from my water so I am not going to say something stupid. "So why were you guys shouting?"

Lara shakes her head and turns around now looking at Shawn and then me. "Because Sabrina here is some stupid person." Shawn shakes his head and I smile at him. "Why?" Lara opens her mouth but I give her a death glare before she opens up about my love life to the one person that doesn't need to know about it. "A lot of reason but now because she doesn't drink coffee, she dislikes it." Shawn shakes his head and I do hope he kind of lets it go because I don't need someone else to ask me about my previous love life with some guy who played with my head.

Christian was now for that, he played my mind all the time so I did everything he asked me too and the stupid, naive girl I was, I believed him and tought I really was in love with him. I never knew what love was and I tought what I felt for him was real love but I was pretty wrong about that, he never gave me that feeling, he made me believe that I was in love with him. 

"So are we going to leave now?" I look at Lara who was casually chatting with Shawn while I was thinking about Christian and his way to play my mind all the time. "Come on." She takes my hand in hers and waves Shawn goodbye without giving me the chance to do it on my own, it felt weird to not thank him for letting me stay at his house. "Why didn't you let me say goodbye to him?"