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Fifteen

If "I love you" was a promise

Would you break it, if you're honest

Idontwannabeyouanymore ~ Billie Eilish

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Sabrina holds her phone at her one ear and hopes the person picks up, she wants people to come to her practise wedding today, she wants people who she loves and not the ones that act like they care. It has been a month since she last talked to Lara, Emely or Scott it has been hard not to call them or something because she really misses them but she needs to think about the promise she made a while ago. "Hi this is Lara her phone, she can't pick up right now because she is driving." 

Sabrina puts her phone on speaker while putting on her black jeans with a stripped shirt tucked inside it with a baby pink jacket over it. "Hi this is Sabrina I can call back later if that is better for her." Sabrina takes her purse and lays at her bed while putting on her black converses. "She is going to park her car in any minute, if you wait a little bit longer you can talk to her." Sabrina mouths a little yes and has her phone back at her ear hoping Lara will be okay with her.

"Sabrina for what do I owe this call?" Lara her voice sounds kill with no emotion with it, this was probably the worst idea Sabrina had in a while and that means a lot because she had made a lot of mistakes the last few weeks. "I wanted to ask you if you would love to come to my practise wedding today and later on my actual one." Lara chuckles at the other side of the call and Sabrina feels anxious at this moment. "Oh you are not joking with me, you are real with marrying Christian the person who is the worst to you." 

"Look Sabrina I don't have the time for you and your games again, the last month has been a hell for me and you were not around for me to talk to, lucky me Shawn was around to kind of help me with everything I had to handle while you were planning your wedding with a guy like that. I am over it Sabrina, I don't want to get involved in your crappy life again, I really tried to get it but I can't." Sabrina hears a door being closed and she hears the voice she is dying to hear since the moment she has been here.

"Lara I am sorry for doing this to you, if I could change back time I would do everything so different." Lara closes the door behind her while Sabrina lays her head down at her bed trying to keep her feelings under control. "There are a lot of things you could do differently Sabrina but you made your choice clear the other time, I am done with chasing after you, I am not Scott or something." Sabrina lets a tear roll down, she remembers every text she got form Scott in those past few weeks asking her to come back but it was not a good reason for her.

"Lara please let me explain, I want my best friend to be at my wedding even when she doesn't like the guy." Lara chuckles and Sabrina has her one hand trough her hair. "Disliking him is not enough for me, the feeling I have towards him is fully hate but if you are fine with sharing the rest of your life with him fine do your thing like always but I don't need to be their because after all I am not longer your best friend." Lara hangs up before Sabrina could answer something back but she didn't know what to tell her, she doesn't know what to feel at this moment.

"Sabrina are you ready to leave?" Christian opens the door and looks at Sabrina her face filled with tears rolling down, her mascara already underneath her eyes. "Sabrina what is going on? Please talk to me." Sabrina looks up at Christian and shakes her head. "How can I possibly think she would forgive me for everything I have done to her these past few weeks, I can't expect people to be okay with everything I do all the time without explaining things." Christian nods his head and Sabrina chuckles. "You are even agreeing and you are the worst at being honest about your feelings."