Messy thoughts

10 2 3
                                        

Before I end myself,
I just want to smile a bit,

Before I close my eyes,
I just want to see a smile some more.

Is it so hard to accept me?
Like how I am in real?
Is it really okay to judge me?
or to judge in place of me?

As all, I am having is these messy thoughts
Which has crippled my mind,
numbed my growling positive vibes,
are you actually there for me?
or you were just giving away free sympathy?

I may not look strong but I am not weak
I may not be expressive as I am tired of explaining,
I am not silent but still, I don't speak much,

as you make me doubt if you are still comparing me,
I don't doubt easily but you are trying to mess with me.

Do you think that I am giving up easily?
As I haven't had the record of giving up easily
Do you think that I am more than a gloomy?
As I am smiling more and am happy more than you think
So do you really think you know me?
As I am having messy thoughts just because I know me.

*A messy thought after long gap*


Coffee BreakWhere stories live. Discover now