Part of me (Poems)

Just don't know

I feel as if I might blow up
There's so much to do and so little time
Time that life gives us
It adds up to a second really
Just don't know how to deal
I want to be something
To be loved by someone
Have my shit all together
I have love yes
I'm moving forward yes
Yet something is messing
The want
The need....no
I want to make a change if it's for me or them
That I can not say
Something is messing yes
Just don't know what
Maybe I should just breath and lay back
Try not to think so much on it
I try to stay busy yes
Though at night in the dark
I sit and wonder
What is this thing
What is the what I need
Just don't know
And maybe that's all I get for now