Our Universe {SEQUEL TO A LIE CAUSED BY LOVE}

"Do you want to remember him Andy?"

(Andy's Pov)

A few days later

I have remembered some things of my other friends like of Annie, Aylin, Mikey...but i still not remember so much about Rye...i want to know more about him. He told me that we have been in a realtionship for one yeah before the accident but i can't remember like omg...had we have sex...? Omg i can't believe that i have a boyfriend i am not gay i don't know who i am anymore. I need answers and why he loves me? I don't worth it. I can't be loved by someone like him. He is just so perfect. No Andy...stop...but i can't stop thinking about him about his soft red lips, his cute shy smile, his chocolate eyes, his curly brown hair, his perfect calming voice and omg i can't stop thinking how safe i feel in his strong arms. When he hugs me i feel like everything is okay and like i am home...i can't explain it. It just feels so right to be in his arms. And when he whispers something to me i shiver or when he looks me in my eyes with that loving and caring look i just melt because it make me feel so good and so calm to watch his beautiful brown eyes. I can't just stop thinking about him i am trying but idk it's hard and i think i start liking him...i hate when he say that he loves me because i can't say the same i can't say that i love him too because i can't feel that yet i just don't feel it so i won't lie to him and because of that i just say nothing or hug him. It's hard but i can't just start feeling the same when i can't remember who he is.

I was lying on my bed so deep in my thoughts and i didn't even hear when Rye came into the room.
"Hey good morning Andy." He said with a tired and sleeply voice. He looked so tired and weak. Has he sleept that night?
"Are you okay Rye?" I asked him and he just looked at me and nodded.
"U sure?" I aksed him again this time he just looked at me and didn't say anything. I saw tears in his eyes but he turned his head on the other side and started talking about something. I just ignored him i jumped up from the bed. He was with his back to me and i had not choice but hugged him from behind. My hands on his perfect body...on his abs. He put his hands on mine and just get them off of him.
"I am ok Andy you don't need to worry." He said and went out of the room without even looking at me. But what happened? I followed him. He was in the bathroom. It was locked. Oh no...not again.
"Rye please. Open the door." I shouted while knocking on the door.
"Please Rye. OPEN.THE.FUCKING.DOOR." I shouted even louder and then he opened it. He hasn't cut but i knew he was about to. We just stared in each others eyes when i decided to speak.
"What happened Rye?" I said as he looked down to the floor.
"Nothing...it's just that..." he started talking and then one tear fell from his eye. I wiped it away and he looked at me again.
"Today before four years we met." He whispered almost crying. I fell tears in my eyes too.
"Oh Rye..." i whispered and hugged him. He hugged me back and started crying.
"Do you want to watch a movie and cuddle?" I said.
"Yeah..." he answered.
"Ok."
Then we went to the living room and he sat on the couch. But i didn't.
"Andy?" He asked me.
"I am coming after a few minutes okay? You can choose the movie." I said and rushed to my room. I had an idea. I wanted to make him happy i don't know why maybe i really love him...
I decided to make a surprise for him. But i have forgotten almost everything about him so i decided to ask Annie maybe she knows. I called her but she didn't answer. "Maybe she is busy." I told myself. I tried to call Aylin but she didn't answer too. "Okay so i am gonna make it on my own." I said to myself and then i tried to remember something. But it was hard i couldn't remember almost anything. And then i remembered that the doctor told me that if i need help to go to a special person who will help me remembering something and i decided to go. I called the doctor and he answered. He told me to be in the hospital after an hour.
I went to see if Rye has chose the movie but when i went to the living room the view in front of me made me almost melt from cuteness. He was sleeping like a baby. "Oh Rye..." i said and went to get blankets. I put them over him and kissed his forehead. "Sleep well beautiful. You need it." I whispered and kissed him on the forehead again. I went to got dressed and brushed my teeth and washed my face. When i was ready i decided to eat something because i was starving. I ate an apple and a banana. When i was ready i wrote a note where i told Rye that i was to the shop. Yeah i lied to him but i didn't want him to worry that's all. Then i went out of the house and got a taxi.
I was already in front of the hospital when the doctor called me.
"I am coming." I said and hung up the phone. I went to the doctor's cabbinet.
"Hello? I am here." I said while knocking on his door. He opened it.
"Hello Andy. Well this is Mrs Smit. She will help you to return some of your memories." He said in a calm voice.
"Hi i am Andy." I said to the women. She had glasses and really really short black hair. She looked nice. Her parfume was so good too. It smelled like flowers. I really liked it. It reminded me of my mother. I haven't seen her for two day because she had so much work and yeah. We shook hands. The doctor went out of the room and left us all alone in there.
"Good luck." He said.
"So Andy i want you to lay down on the couch and to closed your eyes." She said in a caring voice. I nodded and obeyed.
"Now i want you just to listen to my voice and to answer all of my questions, okay?" She asked.
"Okay." I said and started listening to her calming voice.
"Who are you?" She asked.
"Andy Fowler." I answered.
"Ok. Do you have parents?" She asked me.
"Yeah. My mother."
"Okay. Do you have friends?"
"Yeah."
"Tell me thier names Andy."
"Well i remember Annie, Aylin and Mikey." I said.
"Ok. Who is Ryan Beaumont?" When she asked me this i shivered. I just stayed quiet. I didn't know what to say i was scared.
"Andy answer my question." She said firmly.
"Okay. He is...he is my...boyfriend." I stuttered.
"Do you want to remember him Andy?"
"Yes." I answered really confident this time because i was sure what i want i think...
"Okay. Now i want you to imagine him what is the first memory that you remember from him before?" She asked me.
"I-i...um well i remembered how we kissed in someone's bathroom." I said ashamed.
"Okay. Can you go back a little more for me?" She asked politely.
"I will try." I said and i tried really hard ro remembered something. I was thinking about him, about every kind word that he told me these days,  about every "I love you." that he told me and i couldn't answer and then that memory hit me. I remembered omg. I really did, i remembered how we met.
"I remember!" I shout.
"Okay. Tell me more." She said.
"Okay well i remembered me singing in the caffé and he came and i forgot my lyrics and then i went out with tears and umm wait i will remember oh yeah he followed me i was running i sit on a bench...that bench there is something strange about it...and then he came and we talked and he...he kissed me on the cheek and we exchanged our numbers...and no i forgot there is something more about this day i want to remember..." i said with sadness in my voice.
"Okay for a first time that's good. You know, it won't happened from the first time..." she tried to say but i interrupted her.
"No i want to remember all of that day, i want, i need to, i will..." i said and tried with all my power to remember something and i did it, i remembered omg i can't believe it, i did remember everything from that day. And some things terrified me. Mikey...what...?
"I remembered. Then was our first kiss in that bathroom. In Annie's bathroom. And then in the living room and then... Mikey..." and i stopped i heard her gasped.
"What about Mikey?" She asked.
"He tried to..." i started but i was too ashamed to say it out loud...omg why he has done that to me....
"Oh i understand. I am sorry Andy." She said.
"It's okay. It's in the past after all." I said still with my eyes closed.
"So do you remember something more?" She asked me.
"Well yeah...that day i has cried so much." I said.
"I think we should stop here. If you want we can conitnued tomorrow." She said and this time i agreed with her.
"Okay Andy you can open your eyes." She said and i did it.
"Thank you." I said.
"No you souldn't thank me you did it all on your own i just pushed you a little." She smiled at me and hugged me. "If you had strange dreams like something that seems unusual for you call me okay." She whispered as i nodded in agreement. She gave me her number and then i went our of the cabbinet. Omg what just happened? I was like in shock of all the information i was tired i needed to think a little bit so i got a taxi and went to the local park and i sat on the bench where i remembered that Rye and i met. When i sat on it the new memory hit me. Omg...
Memory
He stand up from the bench and  kneeled in front of me and started to speak while i was already crying.
"Andy...i know we have known each other for two days but you know a lot of things happened..."as he said this i smiled through tears."So i decided to ask you this i hope you will say yes...so...Andy...will you be my boyfriend?"he said it and i just was sitting there in silence. I didn't say anything. I didn't want to hurt him or break his heart and i just started to cry harder and i ran away from him.
I didn't want a relationship of lies. I wanted to say yes but i couldn't. I wanted to kiss him so bad but...i was scared of his reaction when he understand about this thing with Mikey...i couldn't handle loosing him because of Mikey...i had to tell him...i will but where was he...he didn't answer his phone..."I am so sorry Rye..." i said and i started to cry so hard...i was in the woods...i am scared of the dark so much. I sat down on the cold ground and i cried so much then suddenly some big arms hugged me. I thought it was Rye but when he spoke up i understand that was...Mikey. (A/n if you have read my other book you know what happens here xd)
End of the memory
Omg i couldn't believe what i just remembered. Omg...and then it hit me that idea. I just ignored for now the fresh new memory that i returned because i wanted Rye to be happy...

Ok so hope u like it guys...honestly i don't like what i am writing i think it's too sad and too boring but yeah i am trying xx😂😂😂❤
Btw i am so excited for RoadTrip's new cover i really can't waitttt
Bye for now aliens love u sm xx❤❤❤