Our Universe {SEQUEL TO A LIE CAUSED BY LOVE}

My Universe and You (Decisions-part 12)

(Andy's POV)

Two weeks later

Me and Rye are so happy right now.

But these two weeks were like a roller-coaster of emotions for us. We had few arguments and so many nights that both of us slept in different rooms crying ourselves to actually fall sleep.

It was hard but we got through it, we really did and I am so happy about that but...Rye has to go to therapist because he is not okay, he knows he is not okay...there is just this trauma that causes all the things and thoughts that are going on in Rye's mind. He is just so broken inside, he is scared, he is helpless, even tho he is trying to hide it, he is not okay...

(Rye's POV)

Now Andy is in my arms, laying in our big comfy bed, warming each other up and just enjoying the moment.

It's 3 a.m. but neither of us wants to sleep. Even tho both of us are so tired of all of those things and drama, we are still so awake at night time, our thoughts racing in our minds, our heart beatings are faster than usual and everything we want is everything to be fine.

"Andy..."

To be honest it's so scary to lose yourself in the most heated moments of your life, it's so scary to not know what is going on, your body is there, but your mind is not, you are there physically but mentally you are in the clouds, somewhere far, far away from reality, lost in your thoughts.
Your heart beating is the only sound you hear, the only words you listen to are the words of the voices inside your head, all you want is to be gone, right at this moment when the love of your life is gently kissing your neck, wrapping his arms around your body, not letting you go away again, trying to make you come back to the disgusting world, making you lose yourself even more than you've already done, but you can't come back, you don't want to listen to his melodic voice, you don't want to feel those perfect shaped soft lips kissing the sensitive skin on your neck, you don't want to let him connect your lips together in a dance that will take you to another Universe, you don't want to feel good by his gentle touch, you don't want your name escaping his mouth, going in your head like the best song ever, because you know that you don't deserve it, you know that you shouldn't have him, you know that everything is just an illusion and you will wake up from this peaceful dream and be alone again.

But then...

"Yeah baby."

You feel that he doesn't stop, you feel him trying to take you back, you hear his angelic voice trying to wake you up from this nightmare, that is when you open your eyes and wake up. Then the first thing you see are the worried filled with fear eyes of your loved one, that big ocean blue eyes that you are getting lost in every time you just glare at them, that eyes shining like thousands stars on the sky that can melt your heart in a second, that deep eyes that look straight into your soul locking you in their cage of love and never ever letting you out of it. Then you feel his warm small hands cupping your face, wiping the tears you didn't even know that were there away and stroking your cheeks with his thumbs.
Then you feel those soft wet lips touching your forehead, leaving a light kiss there that makes you feel the care that he wants to give to you. Then his lips trailed to yours connecting in a passionate understanding kiss of relief, and it feels amazing but there is always this fear in me that if he pulls away he will disappear, but he won't, he is staying there, we are moving our lips against each others, giving pleasure to one another, it's like a fairytale but even better.
The next thing you feel is the love between you two and then you are fully awaken from the dream you had or from the nightmare you were in and you wrap your arms around his tiny body, holding him closer, pulling away from the kiss and crying in his chest, smelling the sweet scent of his perfume, knowing that you are again there, next to him, closer to him, in your own universe.

"I love you endlessly and unconditionally."

And you're wondering how you know that you feel the love well...let me tell you a secret.

"I love you even more than this."

When you are next to this special person, next to this beautiful human being, felling this strange thing in your stomach, that makes you wanna jump of happiness and the same time it makes you want to throw up, your heart beating faster and faster, your palms becoming sweaty and your knees weak, you vision becoming blurry and you losing your voice and any common sense, your mind concentrating only on the person right in front of you and nothing else, when the only thing you see is this person and all you wanna do is to care about this person, love this person, make this person happier and happier every day, make them feel good and safe, make them be the only thing you want, make them your priority, then you will know that this is love and if you don't know who is the person you love well...if there was someone on your mind while reading this well...this is the person you want to share your universe with.

"I love you most."

Heyyy guys so this book is going to end sooo soon maybe there are only two or just one chapter left so yeah, I am gonna cry😭 but anyway I hope you like this chapter and yeah❤
Peace and love ya all❤✌🖖